Simcha
used to like to
jump
up on the sofa and lay behind where I sat while I was watching
television
or working on crochet. I did a lot of crocheting while I was
"expecting"
my daughter. She was always there next to me. She would fall
asleep there and little by little she would sink down behind the sofa pillow.
It seemed that the more she sank, the more comfortable she was and the
louder she snored!
Through
all the years, the only time she really did something naughty was when
we came home from being out, we found one tissue (that she had gotten
from the top edge of the wastebasket) was torn into small pieces and left
on the floor. We said, "Oh Simcha, what did you do while we were
gone?", and then we petted her and told her that she shouldn't do that.
It never happened again. She had the run of the house and was always
a perfect little girl. In this picture, you can see the sweetness
in her face that was truly her personality. You can also see age
creeping up as you will notice the fur under her eyes beginning to lighten,
which eventually turned gray.
Here
you get a look at our parakeet, Mickey, who is still with us. He
is about 11 - 12 years old now. We had to clip his wings to keep him
from hurting himself - too many obstacles in our house for a tiny little
bird to fly into or
fall
behind. Simcha in all her sweetness never let anything bother her
- not even a parakeet on her head! The only things she wasn't really
too pleased with was a bath and, unfortunately, she occasionally got motion
sickness when we took her for a car ride. However, when we drove
to our vacation destination which took us two days, she did just fine.
We got such a kick out of her because every time we would stop to pay a
toll, she would bark and protect us from the toll taker.
It
was on our vacation we noticed something was wrong - health wise - with
Simcha. We came back from an outing and she greeted us and then fell
over on her side and looked as if she was choking. We thought she
had a treat in her mouth and choked on it when she got excited because
we were home. When we found that was not the case, we thought perhaps
it was a seizure of some type. She was fine in a few minutes time.
While we were trying to help Simcha, unbeknownst to us, our daughter, who
was about six years old then, ran into the other room and called 911!
When they answered, she got scared and hung up. They, of course,
called back and we had to explain the situation and assure them that we
would discuss this with our daughter and let her know that you do not call
911 for a dog - only for people. We had to admit, it was kinda funny,
and was a
tension-easer
at the time, but we still had our concerns about Simcha and she had a vet
visit as soon as we got home. After the EKG and other tests, our
hearts sank when we found out she had developed
heart
disease. Our vet told us that most people usually put their dog to
sleep when this occurs because they don't have the time or want to be bothered
with giving the dog extra care and medication. Well, we weren't "most
people". We would do whatever we had to do to keep her alive as long
as we could - as long as the quality of her life was
going
to be one worth living. Well, we were gifted with three more years
with her and then her health started to decline. Our vet told us
that with heart disease, there will come a time when you just have to put
her to sleep because death from the causes of heart disease is a terrible
death - they literally smother to death. She said that we will know
when it is time, and we did. There was no denying the time had come.
It was during the blizzard of '94 - she seemed very tired and we noticed
that she couldn't seem to lie down. What was happening was her lungs
were filling up with fluid and if she laid down, she couldn't breathe.
Our vet said that she could probably extract the fluid, but it would just
happen again, anyway. There had been a break in the bad weather and
we knew that we had to take her to do the inevitable. We didn't want
to get stuck at home due to the snow and have her die a horrible death,
so we took her in the next day. She had that look on her face like
she knew it was time, but it was so very hard to let her go. My husband,
daughter and I were all there with her through to the end and she went
peacefully and quietly. I just wish I had known how quickly the injection
worked because I wanted to be holding her when she went, but to my regret,
she was on the table when she slumped and I think by the time the syringe
was drawn out and I picked her up, she was gone. We were petting
her and comforting her and talking to her, though, and I think she knew
how we felt, but I will always regret not holding her. We took her
home with us and put her in a little box my husband made for her.
I wrapped her in a baby blanket and laid her into the box. My daughter
put some of her toys and some treats in with her and my husband chose to
put a picture of the three of us in there with her. We said a prayer
and did what we had to do. This was so hard. Our hearts were
broken.
Later
that day I was looking outside our front door and noticed that on the side
of our patio there were paw prints in the shallow wind-
swept
snow. It was from earlier that day when I had taken Simcha out for
her last walk. The snow there froze that night and her paw prints
remained there for a week. It was like a sign she had left behind
saying that she didn't really want to leave us, but had to.
To
this day, I still miss her and love her so much. I hope that someday
we will be together again forever. I suppose some people don't understand
these feelings. They think, "Hey, it was only a
dog.",
but to me and my family, she was happiness and fun and
devotion
and unconditional love. You don't run across these things in life
all that often, and for those people who do think, "It was only a dog -
you can get another one.", I feel very sorry for them because they have
missed out on so many of life's treasures.
This
is one of the last pictures we took of Simcha. It was taken the day
before we had to let her go.
The following poem I wrote two years after Simcha's death.