Lisa's Page of Poetry

                                         "Trapped"           

I am trapped in a soundproof room.
It listens to all my problems
Telling no one my secrets
Silencing sad sounds and cries of desperation
Not loving, not caring
Just like everyone else.
Never understanding why I pound its walls with my fists in frustration.
Never understanding why I feel I have no place in this world.
Not telling me to be strong
And don't be selfish
And work harder
And I'm not good enough.
I need to get out of this room
I can't without someone's help--
But no one can hear me.

                          "Acting"

You're okay
Fake a smile
Laugh energetically
That's it!
They'll never know
How you really feel.
Just act normal.
Show no anger
No sadness
No frustration.
Don't let anyone in
Especially THEM.
Don't let THEM know something is wrong.
THEY will only make things worse
With THEIR sympathy and pity.
When something is said
Just nod and smile
Nod and smile.
It becomes routine
Everyday of your life
This act that you put on.

I sit silently
Listening to all around me.
The phone on the wall
Does not call for me.
I hear running feet
And muffled voices.
They are not calling for me,
Or calling out my name.
I am alone.
There is no music to calm me.
I would gently reach out
And gladly run from my isolation
But there is nowhere to go.
There is a slam that jolts my thoughts.
I need to talk or run or hide
But who could I go to?
No one is there.
Therefore I must write down
All that I think, hear, and feel.
I will leave.
I am going to the back of my mind.
I am gone.