I have reached my goal weight of 60 kg / 132.3 pounds just in time for my 35'th birthday
in March 1999 and I am not dieting in the way I was before, so this diary is not updated anymore.
However, I am keeping it online to perhaps inspire other dieters.Update June - 2000 Many people have mailed me asking for updates, I am sorry to say I have
no time to keep updating my diary, but I have added some recent picures.
Me and my sons on a one day trip to BraheHus ruin #1#2
The most recent picture of me, taken may 16, 2000 #1
So much happened. We sold our house and bought a new one. I have changed jobs three times
and now have a wonderful position as controller, working with old friends who asked me to join
their organisation. My weight is stable around 62-63 kg and feel very content with my life.
Below you will find my old diet diary, but as I said, I am not really updating it anymore.
Date: November 12, 1999 Weight 61.6/135.9
I'm sorry for not adding anything here. Many people mailed me
asking me to update my diary and finally I got to it. It's been a
great and awful autumn, all at the same time.... My weight has been rather
stable, with exception for a period in october when I was extremely depressed.
I lost myself in junk food and candy. Of course it showed... I then reached 64.5
kg for a while (142 pounds) but after the first shock, I went to read my diary
from back when I weighed 64.5 in december '98, - how great I felt then and how
easily I kept losing weight after that. I think it inspired me to go back to
the more healthy lifestyle again.
I don't really diet. Yet I do... It's strange. I have been so busy trying to
get my life together and I tell myself weight is no longer an issue for me.
But it's not really true, since I have to watch what I eat or I'll start
gaining it back again. I suppose it's like they all say, the hardest part is
not to lose those pounds, the hardest part is to keep them off. But I'm happy
I have found my new way of living and I think I can cope with it. I have
found what works for me, and the only times I have to watch out is when I am
depressed for some reason.
And I still don't exercise... *blush*. I'm ashamed to admit it. I must start
doing it, I know.... I keep thinking, "I'll exercise later, when things aren't so
busy...." just like I did the last 7 years when I kept telling myself "I'll diet
later, when things aren't so busy...." This is something I'll have to force myself
into doing. We will see. I know time is a factor here, I can't go around waiting for
free time to fall over me so I can exercise, I must make time for it.
I don't have many recent pictures. My scanner is still broken and I haven't
bought a new one. However I have a blurry pic taken with a web camera...
Anyway...
This is what happened since july:
My son started school, and it has been a disaster, not for him
personally, but the teacher has been ill for a while and the class is a
mess. There is hardly any supervision and absolutely no control. Kids
are running away and we fear for his safety. We have decided to have him
transfered to another school. He's only 6 years old and needs a safe
environment.
I started my new job and I hate it! What a mistake. I should
have waited a while until I found something better. The workload is
horrible and the place itself is deadly boring. I am sent out to do
financial managing or controlling, on businesses around the Stockholm area
and I feel like I have 10 jobs. I have so many logins and passwords
to remember, so many different routines and contacts, I feel like
my brain is about to explode. And they all want me to do miracles in
no-time. My boss charge $50-60 an hour for my services and I almost feel
like a prostitute from time to time. I miss my old workmates and I miss
being the manager. Here I get better salary but I don't have any say
in anything. When I'm not out with clients I do boring book keeping of
the sort I used to let my assistant do earlier. But it's not the problem,
the problem is I have to do creative bookkeeping.... Meaning I have
to do things on the border of tax cheating, in order to help our clients,
and I suppose I'm just not cut out for it. But I shouldn't go into details
here, since I have already taken care of this issue, see below...
We decided to sell our house. We gave in to the people telling us we
could get a fortune for it and yeah, perhaps we did, but it was a very
hard time while we were selling. We have had about 200 people here looking
at our home, checking every closet, looking into every cupboard, lifting
every carpet.... We have had real estate agents, inspectors, bidding..
You name it. For over a month we had people outside our door, parking
their cars on our lawn, looking in, constantly. We had to leave the home
each saturday and sunday and wait at Mc Donalds while people came to look
at the house. Finally we got an offer we could accept and we sold. But
that was not the end of it... We had to find a new home too...
In october we found a place we wanted to buy. From the original price
tag, the bidding raised the price with 30% and we gave it up. No idea in
selling our home to get a new one, just as expensive... We have been looking
at 100 homes, at least. They all seem like cardboard boxes compared to
our home. (we live in a home from 1910, huge garden, lovely architecture...)
Finally we decided to lower our standards.. or whatever... We decided we
don't need a huge home. Perhaps we can use a smaller, more practical house,
and money in the bank.... So, we found it. Small, one floor, four bedroom
house with a nice garden and a pond. But then the prices had rised even
further. Ok, well, we got the house, it wasn't cheap though, but today we
have signed all papers and it's legally ours. But all and all we lowered our
mortgage with $90.000 for changing homes so it's not all a waste. But now
we are looking at the move... jeeezes.
I decided to change jobs in september but I was too engaged in school-
problems, selling the house, buying a new house, trying to manage the work
and trying to have a family life... I couldn't bother with applications.
Finally I decided I couldn't stand another week. I sent out 15 random job
applications and I got called to job interviews on all of them.... Only I didn't
have time to go to the interviews. I went to one. And today I signed the papers.
I don't know whether I should think this is destiny, but I feel the job is
perfect for me. My new job is as a financial controller and office manager of
a company selling security equipment to airports. They also provide chemical
analysis equipment. I will also work with quality and IT, just like before.
I will tell you more about the job later but I'm so happy about it! It's a
great job and I do look forward to it a lot! And my office... Whoa! It's so
lovely! A corner room with many windows, my own assistant next door. And my
new boss is happier than I am. He has been looking since may 1998!
Me and hubby aren't all that well. We haven't actually been very close
for a while and I think it's all the problems. After all we have two businesses
and he has been working all summer with only two weeks off. We need to find our
way back to what we had. Soon. Very soon.
We have bought a skiing trip this christmas again. Exactly the same as
last christmas. Same place and same time. We do look forward to it.
We also bought a vacation to Egypt. We are going there for two weeks to
enjoy the sun and the culture. I have been reading all I can find on Ramses,
Hatchepsut, Echnaton and ancient egypt. This resort we are going to are not only
providing sun and luxuous relaxation, we have also booked trips to see Luxor and
Kairo. I am sooooo much looking forward to it!
So... I have been busy. I am sorry for not updating this page but I
will try to do better from now on.
Take care, friends!
Date: July 28, 1999 Weight 60.6/133.5
One year!
It was excactly one year ago, I sat by this same desk, feeling
so depressed. My weight was almost 190 pounds and I was so fed
up with everything.
Now I have a new body, a new job and a new life. I have been on
vacation and living the lazy Hotel life lately, believeing I
would gain a few pounds, and I did, but I still stay within the
target weight area. I have updated the pictures page today, with
both "before" and "after" images.
I have a lot of pictures to add but the scanner has broken down,
however... these *LOL* are scanned by my brother.. The first is
from mid july when we visited Gothenburg and Liseberg amusement park.
And this is from the same week, we visited
Copenhagen on a windy day...
Click for larger imageDate: June 18, 1999 Weight 60.2/132.7
Summer is here and I'm so very pleased with my life!
I worked my last day at the old job last wednesday and now I have
weeks of time to do what I please. I'll spend time with my kids,
go to the beach, go shopping... Just be a lazy bum ;-)
I still stay on target weight and during the month I have been up
to 62/136 for a day or two just before my period, then I went straight
back to 60/132 again. I know it's supposed to be the hardest time,
to keep the fat off and I suppose I'm being very careful now, making
sure I don't start overeating again. It's been three months since
I reached my goal and I'm very pleased to notice I have no problems
so far to stay here.
Last week I went out on restaurants with my old workmates AND my
new workmates. Two nights in a row of temptations.... But I had
no problem with it. I try to eat fish or vegetable dishes
whenever I go out, and if the servings are very large, I leave
half of it on the plate.
I still avoid all visible fat, and I don't eat much potatoes or
pasta. Instead I eat loads of fresh vegetables and fruit. But you
all know that, don't you? ;-)
The difference now is that I feel I don't need the weekend "pig-outs"
anymore... I keep about the same diet all week and if I want some-
thing extra, I try to just have a little. It's strange though, but
I have no urge for sweets or ice cream, maybe because it's beause I
eat so much fruit?
I STILL don't do much exercise. However I walk a lot and I'll try
to start swimming now.
Date: May 5, 1999 Weight 60.6/133.6
Hi everyone!
Lovely lovely life!
Everything is so different now from what I have been doing the
last 6 years. I live again and I love it!
Since march I have been trying to find the balance... trying to
find out what I can and cannot eat and I have been successful.
My weight has been going up and down a little bit but not much.
I have been up to 62.5 kg/137,8 pounds after big dinners or just
before my period, but as soon as I return to the eating habits
in the weeks, I fall back to 60-61 kg/132-134 pounds.
I don't exercise though! It's horrible! I should be ashamed and
I have my goals for this summer when I am between jobs. I will
swim and run as much as I can. For now, a walk every now and then is all...
My life has changed in many ways since I started this diet. I
often wonder if I would have had the guts to quit my job and go
looking for another job if I had been fat (and ugly?)
Now I have had great success in my job change and I have had
several positions to chose between.
I finally decided to work as a finance consultant with free
working hours and, of course, better salary. I look forward to it
a lot and the change that my "old" business/job has been through
is really really bad. I have worked there for 7 years, I'm the
network manager, webmaster, finance manager and accountant.
They haven't found anyone to replace me yet.
I leave my position on june 16 no matter what. I have given them
almost four months notice and they didn't bother until it was
too late....
So now I don't have anyone to train and since they did take away
my assistant in february, I have a rahter heavy work load right
now, but it only forces me to leave more and more loose ends when
I have to do two people's job...
On april 1 we moved into the new office and one fun part is that
there are so many appreciating men around!!! I get whistles when
I walk across the parking lot every morning and two guys have
asked me out for dates, believing I was younger!!! Sheesh! I am
going to be so vain and self-absorbed if this continues!!!
I have spent quite some money on clothes too... I love to try
new clothes on today and soon... very soon I will update the
pictures with a bathing suit pic... Beware ;-)
About my eating then...
Breakfast: Coffee, a wholemeal (dark) sandwich (no butter) with
dried tomatoes and olives. I drink lots of water and energy drinks
between 7-10 am.
During the day I have at least two fresh fruits, some days 3-4.
I drink 3-4 cups of coffee with milk.
At noon I have either Weight watcher/lean cuisine meal (230-280 cal)
or I go out to the horrible buffet restaurant where I don't even
look at the "eat as much as you want of the evil stuff-food"
but instead fill my plate with fresh vegetables, beans, fruit and
at least two glasses of mineral water. I love spicy jalapeños and
olives, pickles and broccoli. But I have cravings for different
vegetables each day. If I have a salad I always leave most of the
cheese, ham, tuna or chicken on the plate, and fill it up with
more veggies from the buffet instead.
I use dressing, but only a tad.
After work I eat with the family, but only half of what I used
to eat, but I often allow myself to have a lite beer in the
evening. A habit I must drop since it's not very healthy...
This kind of eating during the weeks allows me to stay on my target
weight and don't ever feel hungry. I feel healthy and I love it!
Since I still allow myself to eat whatever I fancy during the
weekends, I never miss out on anything.
For all you who have been mailing me asking for the magic trick
or the key to my success, I must ask you to read my diary and
try to find out what I have done. I can't even remember having
tried very hard, but I guess I must have done something?
It all went very easy and it's like I was never fat since I have
felt "thin" inside all these years, even when I weighed 190 pounds/85 kg.
I never accepted my heavy weight and therefore it never existed?
Hmmm.. not entirely true. I can see the stretchmarks... ;-)
Anyway, the six years of obesity are history and for all those who
have been with me from the first day, I want to say thanks for
all lovely support!!!
I will continue to update this diary every month or so, hopefully
more often, since I know there are many people out there caring
and also, I still have the "honeymoon pictures" to add... ;-)
*kiss*
I love you all, God bless!
Date: April 16, 1999 Weight 60.4/133.15
Hi everyone!
First of all, thanks for all mail! I have no chance of replying
to you right not but I'll try whenever I get a moment.
People have mailed me asking me to update the pictures and these
pics are from today, taken with my webcam, so they aren't too
sharp. I have started wearing jeans and tops again for the first
time in years and I feel very comfortable in them.
I have been to a two-day conference, returning today. Living
in a lovely hotel and been served
lots of food. I stayed with fresh salads, vegetables and fish,
small portions, no sauces or meat. No pasta. No cookies with the
coffee, no snacks. But I had beer and wine... And I danced! ;-)
I must say I don't miss the food because, as they say; "nothing
tastes as good as being thin... "
Cya soon friends!
Date: March 21, 1999 Weight 60.0/132.3
I DID IT!!!
I actually reached my goal!
Yesterday was my BIG birthday party (my actual birthday was on
March 18) and I weighed in at 60 kg/132.3 pounds!
I cannot describe how happy I am. Spent hours shopping, a new
wonderful Kookaï dress, loads of skirts, shirts dresses and stuff.
I saw myself from behind in the fitting room mirror for the first
time and I couldn't believe my eyes. I looked OK!!!!
Anyway, party was a success. I'll post pictures here as soon as
I have them developed. My friends got me a great present. A day
full of pampering at a very famous swedish (japanese style) spa.
Hasseludden. I also got a Microwave oven. (haven't had one since 1996)
and of course lots
of flowers and cards.
Date: March 6, 1999 Weight 60.2/132.7
twelve days left to my 35'th birthday and my goal was to weigh 60
kg/132.3 pounds then. It looks like I'm going to reach that goal.
Imagine it's only been 7 months and I have lost 50 pounds!
These last two months I have been taking it very slowly, mostly
watching my weight, making sure I don't gain, trying to balance
my food intake. Enjoying experimenting with healthy food. And I'm
lucky. Sweden is in the middle of the "veggie-boom" and vegetarian
alternatives (hasn't been an option before) are presented almost
everywhere.
I have developed an urge to eat vegetables and I for instance have
cravings for wegetable Woks, or fruit... I MUST have fruit every day!
I wonder what life had been like if I hadn't gone on
this diet back in august? I would probably weigh around 85 kg/187
pounds today and I would be miserable. I wold not have had the
chance live the way I have done these last months. Feeling alive
again!
I would probably not have had the power to stand up against my
bosses and I would absolutely not have had the strength to run
around on all these job interviews.
Also... It's a common fact here that fat people don't get any jobs.
It's the sad truth. Fat people are considered "lazy, weak and
unhealthy" and always end up discriminated when it comes to employments.
So.. That would have been a completely different situation today.
Also, when I was overweight, I was so tired. All the time.
Some afternoons I just wanted to fall asleep at the office.
Today I sleep less and I have lots of energy during the days.
It's a great feeling.
And... Then it's the love-part... *G*
I must say the love life has improved by 200%. For instance... I
don't have to worry about those fat rolls everywhere, and I don't
mind undressing in front of my husband anymore. I don't turn the
lights off and I don't hide under the covers anymore.
*blush* It's wonderful to feel attractive again!
So what, my tummy has lots of excess skin and stretch marks all over
it. It's not very nice to watch that pouch but I can actually hide
it under my clothes. I should exercise a bit more though, since
I feel everything is very... loose.. on my body right now. I need
to firm up a bit.
I often browse the webring and diet journal pages to see how everyone
else is doing and I so much want to encourage all the dieters out
there! Don't give up! You can do it too!
Some people say "oh, well you had it easy, you have that kind of
metabolism..."
I say BULLSH....!!! I have been there too! The fat girl in
school, weighing 185 pounds age 13.... But I managed to lose the
weight then so I have been on both sides. I have also had the fortune
of being an attractive teenager and young woman. I have lived a "thin"
life from age 14-26 and I sure enjoyed life to the fullest.
But the weight I put on in '92-'93 when I was pregnant, never
came off, and then in '95 when I was pregnant again, I put on more.
I have tried ALL diet and diet scams since '93. Each diet leaving
me a couple of pounds lighter after two weeks, but then heavier
than ever before after another two weeks...
In Aug '98 I actually weighed more than I did when I was nine months
pregnant in '95.
I have struggled with my weight for six years and I had given
up hope. I told myself "I'm over 30, weight loss is much harder
now" and it was the biggest lie of them all! I can hear people
telling themselves these lies every day... As long as they do
this, they won't succeed in their dieting.
So don't tell me my weight loss was in any way "easier" than anyone
elses. Any healthy person can do this, it's all in the mind!
Date: March 4, 1999 Weight 61.0/134.5
Hi everyone,
Been a while and I am sorry I haven't updated for a while. Somehow time
is flying away and since last I have been through a lot...
As I mentioned earlier, I have told my bosses at work I am looking for a new
job. I have made my mind up. I'm saying "Thanks, but no thanks" to
the "promotion" (with double work load, and same paycheck)
I was "offered" the position to manage finances for both this and
the company we are going to share office with from April 1.
Company is moving into new facilities (again... 2'nd move in one year)
and we will all lose our nice offices to get tiny cubicles (the lucky
ones - rest will be sitting in a shared office)
The new move will give me an extra 60-90 minutes a day in heavy
traffic and I am not getting any compensation for my costs and
time-loss. Also, the thought was that I'd be doing the work of
two, with the same pay. Very neat way of cutting costs. However,
I'm really not interested. So, I have been on about 10 job interviews,
some for head hunting agencies, some for companies. I have turned
one job down, but I have many interesting offers right now. S
Since I am in no hurry I am still hesitating. We will see what happens.
More...
Crashed with my car last week and it was really close...
I am very happy to be alive today and I thank God for being there
when I lost control of the veihcle.
I am typing this very slowly, correcting each word since the
bandages on my fingers are making me hit more keys then aimed
at. I don't mind though. I could sit here with arms and legs
broken and still don't mind. After all... I'm still alive.
No... Don't worry. I'm not badly hurt at all. Apart from two
fingers a bit cut, a bruised knee and a stiff neck, I am quite
alright. I suppose this is a good time to start believing in
God, because if I don't, I can't send the thoughts of gratitude
anywhere and I end up all confused.
So what happened?
Well, I suppose I didn't remember how dangerous the road is when
it's been snowing all night. Packed snow. Icey spots. Whatever.
The road looked so narrow with the snow piled up in drifts and I
saw the truck coming.
I shouldn't have touched the brakes, I know... The car started
to dance and I lost control. I missed the first truck, but not
with much, and the car kept skidding. To avoid a collission with
the other huge truck, or the car just behind it, I went off the
road, car overturned, made a couple of somersaults and ended up
on the roof about one meter from a stone wall.
I was absolutely certain I was going to die. No doubt.
As I lost control of the car and saw the wall coming closer I
thought of my children. "I have seen them for the last time,
this is it. I'm going to die now on this beautiful sunny winter
day." I didn't fear the pain or anything. I only felt very sad
because of my children having to grow up without their mom.
I remember the spinning, the bounces, the grinding sounds of
metal and glass breaking. Then it all stopped and I felt snow on
my face. I was hanging upside down in the seat belt.
Both side windows were smashed. Windshield and roof close to my
face. Glass everywhere. My first thought was "I'm alive!!!"
Second thought was "Get out!"
I turned the engine off and released the seat belt. I probably
cut myself then, or maybe when I crawled out through the
passenger side window. Doors were blocked.
I stood there for a while, looking at the smoke from the chassis
and the wheels spinning.
A man came running.
It was the truck driver. He went to get my bag and my keys. He
was shaking. "I saw it in the rear view mirror and I was sure
you would be dead or badly hurt, that car is completely wrecked"
I said "I know"
The guys from the fire dept. told me to go sit down since I was
bleeding all over the place. I didn't notice. I didn't feel any
pain and we closely examined my hands and arms for a long while
before we finally found the cuts.
I remember freezing as the fireman washed the blood away and put
bandages on my hand, and another very cute fireman (can you
imagine, I must be a really really sick woman since I can
actually look at guys in this situation!) examined my neck.
All I could say was "I am ok, I really am, I'm so happy to be
alive!!"
"You should" was his reply.
Thank you God.
So... I don't really worry about dieting or such right now. I just
enjoy life. I have been at home with my children a couple of days
and I must really try to spend more time with my family.
I could have lost it all right then and there.
I'm a very lucky woman.
Date: February 18, 1999 Weight 60.8/134.0
Spring is coming. Days are getting longer and I'm feeling great.
Sun is shining from a clear blue sky here and even though it's a
bit cold, it's wonderful. Birds are singing, guys are cute, life
is wonderful! :)
Things are still quite turbulent at work. I have put my foot down
and told my bosses I am looking for another job, I haven't left my
final notice yet though.
The manager here at the office is doing his best to make me change
my mind and stay, but I really have lost all interest in working
for this company under the current circumstances.
However, I have been on 6 job interviews and already turned one
job down. It's great for the self-esteem to go to these kinds of
interviews since it seems I won't have any problem finding me a
new job. I'll let you know what happens.
About my diet then...
Things are looking very good here. Since new year I have decided
to slow down a bit and try to find a balance. I wanted to lose
another 3 kg / 6.6 pounds before my 35'th birthday (march 18)
but I felt it was no hurry.
I have now lost 2.2 kg and have only 0.8 kg /1.75 pound left to my
FINAL GOAL 60 kg/132.2 pounds!
I want to stay on target weight and I allow myself to eat more now
than previous months of dieting, but still, I watch my weight closely.
People have mailed me, asking what I eat and how I manage.
Some girl said "your meals are so light!!" and I have to admit
I don't eat as much as I used to before my diet.
It's the plain truth, to lose weight one must control the eating.
There are no shortcuts. But to comfort all those who still have cravings:
they go away! I promise! I don't have any cravings anymore.
I never think of sweets or ice cream these days.
But I don't starve, and I am perfectly content with my food intake.
Remember, I allow myself to eat whatever I feel like during the
weekends, meaning it's much easier to diet during the weeks.
Let me tell you what a day can look like in my life foodwise;
7 am: Energy / caffeine drink. Carbonated. Any brand.
I call it my "eye opener" Some contain Taurine or Guarana and vitamines.
Not a necessity but I like the taste and it makes me wake up.
8 am Café au lait, no sugar (half the cup hot milk, half coffee)
and a cracker or swedish crisproll
10 am: One large fresh fruit. Apple, pear, Kiwi etc.
Lunch: Weight Watcher or "Lean Cuisine" frozen meal,
microwaved. One fruit, wholemeal bread, no butter.There are 30-
40 different WW or LC meals to chose between here. Calorie
content range between 200-375 calories per serving and they are
GREAT!
2 pm: Café au lait, cracker or crisproll. Sometimes a cookie,
but just ONE!
3 pm: One fresh fruit
5.30 pm: Dinner with the family, a small serving, or
if they eat something very fattening I have soup, fresh vegetables,
bread or a large dinner salad, preferably shrimps or chicken.
No cheese or toppings. No dressing.
8 pm tea with milk, coffee... or even a beer
(lite of course)
... That's about it. Some days I eat lighter, some days I eat more.
I always drink lots of water during the day too.
Yesterday I had a swedish cream pastry "semla" so today I'll probably
try to behave ;)
Anyway, time to run. (Sorry you all who have mailed me, I haven't
had time to reply)
*hugs*
Date: February 10, 1999 Weight 62/136.7
Hello,
Oh yes. I am still alive. Work is killing me here and I haven't
had time to diet, really. I checked my weight this morning though
and I'm happy to see I haven't gained much. This time of month I'm
usually a bit heavy so this is really ok, probably just water.
I have noticed something though. I should avoid PASTA! Each time
I had pasta I gained more than if I eat rice or potatoes and it's a
bit harder to get rid of... It sort of lingers on for a couple
of days before the scales are back to normal.
Maybe it's the carbohydrates? I don't know...
Apart from that, staying on WW and lean cuisine frozen microwave
stuff for lunch. Very light evening meals. Been cheating a bit
lately with beer though... and pasta... *sigh*
Anyway,
When things have calmed down a bit at work I'll tell you all about
what is going on here. I'm in the middle of it so it's tough enough
to handle it at the moment.
Cya soon.
Date: January 30, 1999 Weight 61.4/135.36
Hi everyone!
Doing great here. I have spent some time checking up on other members
in the diet webring, and it's great to see so many are making progress!
When I made my first diet diary entry back in july (gawd, it feels
like yesterday!) I was afraid I wouldn't succeed, and I knew that
if I failed to lose weight, my online journal would soon be deleted.
So it's great to see most of the people are still online, working
hard, not giving up and I wish you all great progress!
I have something bothering me though, and it's the exercise part...
I haven't done exercise for a month now!! I work and work, and
when I get home I have more work with our own business... I should
really try to do some more exercise.
Anyway, have to run, cya all later!
Date: January 27, 1999 Weight 61.8/136.2
Just a quick update. I have uploaded a new picture taken at the
office today.
(I look tired, I know, but I am not wearing any makeup, and I have
had an average of 5 hours sleep a night for weeks now. I am pooped!
Apart from that, I feel absolutely great and I have reached my
lowest weight so far. Only 1.8 kg/4 pounds to go to final goal!
I have been sticking to the weight-watcher food and I think I
eat 1500-1800 calories a day now. Let's see... Breakfast:
2 cups of café au lait. No sugar. One banana.
Mid day snack: One apple. Lunch: Weight Watcher meal; Chicken
with potatoes and vegetables (300 cals), Two cups of coffee during
the afternoon, one pear, another apple, three glasses of water,
And for dinner; Shrimp soup with bread and vegetables. - That's it.
Seems to me I have been eating all day! ;-)
I have also started to take a quick 15-20 minute walk with my
workmate after lunch. It's been a bit too cold here though,
today we had -15 degrees Celsius, and I thought my ears would
freeze off before we got back inside ;-)
Anyway, I'll be back soon with another update.
*hugs*
Date: January 25, 1999 Weight 62/136.7
Hi all :)
Thanks for all the nice letters you have sent me! I am very happy
so many people care and I am also thrilled I seem to inspire some
people enough to get on with their diets!
I am focusing on maintaining my weight now, and if I can, lose
my "last" two kg's (4,4 pounds) before my 35'th birthday in mid
march.
Some of my... "friends" are convinced I will gain weight again as
soon as I get off my diet, and I have been afraid I would, but
somehow I have realised during the last month that I must have
changed my lifestyle enough... or in other words, I have found
some kind of balance between my food intake and my (presently not
very high rate of) activities.
I haven't found time for much exercise unfortunately, so I try
to "behave" during the weeks and it helps to have a workmate (we
are only two girls at the office, the rest are guys) who
is doing just the same as I do.
Maybe because she started working with us in august when I was
still rather fat and she has seen me lose all this weight...
It's been very helpful lately when I have returned after the week-
ends of family dinners, to have someone at the office with the
same goals. Someone who isn't trying to tempt me with cakes or
chocolates, or pushing me to go out for pizza... we both have
our "lean cuisine" or weight watcher frozen meals, and we both
drink our energy drinks etc.
I haven't weighed myself since friday when I had gained some (63.4/139)
but I just stepped onto the scales and I weigh the same as last week:
62 kg/136.7 pounds. During the weekend I had both snacks and
heavy food so I figured I'd get back on my old diet before I
started putting back on too much.
Sunday and today I had Weight Watcher frozen meals for both
lunch and dinner. Today I had chicken schnitzel with potatoes
and string beans. I think that meal contains less than 300
calories and still there is some kind of sauce béarnaise on
top... How do they do it??? It's very filling too.
Anyway... One apple, 10-15 grapes, bread and of course lots of
water during the day. Ovations 40 calorie hot choccolate drink
at tea time and soup with vegetables and bread for dinner.
No hunger what so ever, I feel like I am constantly eating, but
that's the general idea... To starve myself will only cause my
metabolism down, so I try to have at least a fruit or a slice
of bread every three hours.
Ok, apart from that, I have bought more clothes size 36 (euro).
I don't know the US conversion but the size span in sweden is
from 34-46 and then 48-52 for very large women. 34 is considered
very petite, so I don't aim to get into that size. I do look at
the skimpy little skirts on my hangers and wonder how on earth
I get into them! Especially when I compare them to the dresses
size 46 I have saved... They look like tents!
Anyway, it's late and bed is calling me. Take care until next
week and please mail me :)
Date: January 19, 1999 Weight 62/136.7
I haven't bothered to diet for a while. Just ate what I felt like.
I didn't think I stuffed myself but of course there was a bit
of extra snacks... Some pasta with parmesan, and the beer...
and the chips, and that burger meal, and the toasts with....um.
It showed. I gained. Not much though but I almost fainted as I
stepped on the scales and they showed 64+/141,5...
I thought to myself "ok.. this is the time to get back on track,
before I lose control" But I never got very far. Two days of
weight watcher meals and lots of water, fruit, rye bread etc...
and then I got my period.
First day I blew up like a balloon, second day I
must have lost a pound from all the peeing... Before I knew what
happened I was back down again. In fact, I am on my lowest
weight so far today. I haven't even tried very hard.
I discussed this with my husband and he said; "girl, you don't eat
half of what you used to stuff yourself with" and I know he was
right. Even if I feel I eat a lot, it's because I feel a bit guilty
for "not dieting". This is a strange feeling, but also a feeling
of freedom. Is it possible? Can I eat "normally" ?? I wish to
think so. I hope I can. What if I am on my way to finding the
right food intake for my metabolism? Yay!
So now I have 2 kg/4.41 pounds to go to my second goal. I am going
to take it slow now. March 20 will be my 35 yrs birthday party
and there are 30 people coming, who haven't seen me since I
weighed 45 pounds more. Hubby said he hasn't told anyone because
he loves to see how people react when they see me.
LOL. So do I ;-)
Gawd, I'm vain again ;) Anyway. See you next week :)
Date: January 12, 1999 Weight 63/138.8
Hello everyone :)
It's been a while and I have slowed down on my dieting. There has
been so many weekends and holidays... No time to diet, but I
have been eating "normal" portions, instead of the huge servings
I used to have before my diet... but of course, I also cheated a bit
with some snacks and fatty food last weekend.
So... I have gained about 1 kg/ 2.2 pounds but I don't feel a bit worried.
It seems my body is comfortable with 63.kg when I am not dieting.
My eating habits are definately more healthy now than they
have ever been before. I had vegetarian food for lunch today and
I didnd't even want the steak and bearnaise sauce with fries that
the others had... My lunch; (filled paprikas with rice and salsa)
was very tasty and I had some salad, peppers, cole slaw and carrots with it.
For dinner; tomato soup with oregano and bread croutons.
Two or three fruits during the day. Not very much water though.
*running to the fridge to get me a glass right now*
I feel 10 years younger than I did last year in january and I
can't start to tell you how my life has changed. Sometimes I get
a bit sad because I have to ask some people: "Is it all in the
weight?" when they suddenly start treating me in a very strange
way. But then again, my way of being has changed too, maybe I am
a new person, causing others to treat me differently?
BTW, did I tell you about my New Years Eve? It was a success!
I had such a great time and EVERYONE told me I looked marvellous.
I was in a constant state of blushing and some guys were just all
over me. The girls couldn't stop asking about how I did this.
What a kick for this vain girl! I think we discussed my weight
loss all through the night, and I finally felt almost sick of
everyone bringing it up ;-). I danced a lot though, for the first
time in years wearing a tiny purple velvet dress, size (euro) 36
and... what do you call it... platform shoes... ? Very very hip
indeed ;) Hubby was all over me all night... *grin*
Before I tell you, what else happened I must mention that last
New years eve (97) - We all wrote down our wishes/guessings
for 1998 and placed them in a sealed envelope. We had all
forgotten about this by this new years eve, and we had great fun
opening the envelope during the dinner party. Among other
things we had all written what weight we thought we would be by
Dec 31, 98. My note read: "ummmmm... I wish I'd be weighing 62
kg but knowing myself I'll still be around 80...." I also managed
to predict the upcoming boyfriend of our swedish princess Victoria
(doh, hard one, she's 20 - it's about time!) and I successfully
predicted the price of a Pentium 450. I got a round of applauds
;)
So what else happened then? Hmm... Things have been turbulent at
work too, the business I work for got purchased by another
company and I just had a meeting with my "new" bosses. It seems
I suddenly got promoted. Not bad at all :))
If I do well I will probably be managing the finances of both
companies. 30 People and a turnover of SEK 65.000.000
($8.125.000) I also got to keep my assistant, and will have a
staff to help me as well. We didn't speak salary though
so I guess I'll have to show them what I can do before I ask for
a raise ;-)
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