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As a little girl, I loved staring at portraits. I loved watching paintings of landscapes in the Art Museums. It always felt to me that Art was a form of escape. It can be a creation that comes from within. It concealed within itself, purity.
Purity in a sense, that what you put down on paper, came from directly what your mind imagined. No pollution of information.
It was this interest which led me to study Art as a Degree. Through high school, I gained knowledge and technique to further enhance my capabilities.
There was also another keen interest I had. I did not share it though. It was personal to me only. I had a GIANT soft teddy. His name was Fruzzy and I loved him dearly. As I grew up to be 13-14 years of age I became more and more fascinated by my sexuality. As an early teen, all I knew, was when I saw certain things, I imagined. I imagined certain acts. For example, I would come home from school, and have a tea party with Fruzzy, a Rag Soldier Doll, a Puppy Dog Soft Toy and a Giant Rubber Lizard. After finishing a quick tea break, I would invite Fruzzy over to sit beside me, and I would move his hand as though he was unbuttoning my top. I would move his furry hand over my little pert breasts. The touch of soft furry material, gracing my body would excite me, and my heart would start pumping faster and faster. I'd start breathing heavier. I didn't know why then, but I did it almost everyday as to me, all I knew was that it felt good.
Things led from Fruzzy feeling my breasts to feeling my stomach, then further onto feeling between my legs, and over my vaginal lips. Sometimes I would fantasise while lying on my bed, that all my toys are touching me. Feeling me. Kissing places on my body that would strike a chill down my spine. The giraffe, the monkey, the bear, the trolls, the dinosaurs, the lizards. Even the little LEGO men sucking my clitoris. *shiver*
As I grew older, my imagination advanced. I began fantasising about creatures, insects, aliens, terrible monsters having their way with me. The more obscene the idea, the hotter I got...
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