12/28/01

hatred consumes that which is dear to us most.

i take interest in whatever people want me to

there is not much to say about determination,
words do not speak themselves

ideas flow from space to time, if one should meet the converging point, one becomes the essense

to know who's lying by looking in the face,
to know oneself by looking in the mirror

in this world, can there exist a person so nice, that their kindness is deadly

if i don't have to lie, cheat, steal, kill, what would be the purpose of me living?

to help others is so divine, to touch a soul upon its dying breath, to rekindle that faint whisper of hope.

aren't we gonna take a look at ourselves to discover our future, we control our own destiny, our destiny is in our own hands, our hands are the tools that cut our thread of fate,

if you are smart, don't you worry that you might use up all your inteligence one day?

12/19/01

Snowstorm

A violent blizzard,
Overwhelming,
Engulfing,
Blanketing a vast patch of earth.
Blissful,
Serene,
Like painting on a blank canvas.

Snow Storm

Life contained in a flake of snow,
So vast, intricate, deep,
Dancing down in columns and rows,
Like an Angelic weep.

A pretty look; a painted scene,
To look and see snow drift,
So calm, so tranquil, so serene,
Such a welcoming gift.

12/07/01

You are human, you don't deserve rights.

God is a slave to believers and faith.

Death in a bottle, sold for 5 bucks.

let us shed our tears and leave our souls behind, for they are impure, all of our thoughts are nothing more than the result of what our primitive mind conjures up, once we have destroyed the barrier that surrounds us, we will become...ourselves.

be like a dog and chew to the bone!

the bad thing about having a good memory is that you can't learn to forget.

that light which you see as you die, is actually from the sparks created by the fire of hell

11/23/01

For every one of us that gets to live in peace, another is struggling to survive. Death is much too sweet to become a packaging delivery service.

getting from point a to point b requires us to at least get to point c which is half way from point a to b. getting to point c requires us to get to point d which is half way from point a to point c. getting to point d... since there is an infinite number of points between two points, i am never gonna get there am i?

i am not available because i am preoccupied with...life...

in the quest for solitude, we seek little of what we truly need, our inner peace of mind

11/21/01

i betcha that all the turkeys know about thanksgiving, they know it in their guts that they are gonna be food, there's gonna be some sort of mutiny

yeah, let us all focus on the turkey agenda for revolution! humanity's downfall is the result of man's oppressions toward the turkey

they won't all die because man is too smart to destroy their food sources, but that's worse for them having their kids become supper, generations after generations

11/11/01

like 2 computers, we should interface. and if we are not compatible, i can dual boot.
-a guy said to a girl

spit in the wind and it spits back at you,
what about spitting in a tornado?

We can tell where we are in life by taking the limit of time as it approaches the present.

11/05/01

Don't study what you don't need to know.

What would be funny is that they should have a car commercial showing how fast a car can go and then show a cop giving the person a ticket. It just sucks to see how the maximum speed of a car determines whether or not we buy it, yet the maximum speed that we are allowed to go is like 60 mph.

Half the time i dream of having a gift, an ability to recreate what the mind discards as irrelevant information. Half the time, i wish that life would go on, and that i would be left behind, collecting its residual essences.

Every day, i wear a mask. A mask i wear to school, reflects my identity, hides my inner self from my beloved friends, to show respect to my teachers. At home i wear a mask, to close myself from my family. With adults, i wear a mask to show them my obedience. With children, i wear a mask to show my authority. With me, my mask no longer comes off.

11/02/01

be like a book and check out

why teach young children how to be beggars (trick-or-treat) and then tell them to look down on them.

did you know that total luck in the universe is conserved, as in if you get good luck, someone somewhere gets bad luck

10/29/01

how can we be condescending while looking up? it feels really funny talking down on those who are taller than you.

Upon a thousand miles of darkness,
that which burns the flesh,
cuts deep into our skin.

If we solely exist to serve others, how is it that we consider ourselves as equal?

10/20/01

Nobody beckons for me
multiple ways of disappointment
Without fear and feeling

a world of time
completely silent
on a heart of precious memory

give up the fruitless approach, not the hard problem

in essence, everyone is everywhere

there is no importance in our appearance. what matters is how well we fool our brain into accepting who we are

10/15/01

10/14 was the day that i went to family day for art club. this is besides the point. so anyway, on the yellow bus going toward the school, i called home:
-So, come and pick me up.
=What time?
-I don't know.
=Where are you at right now?
-I don't know, Carpets Mills.
Can you believe that stupid statement i made when asked where I'm at?

10/13/01

So love is light and dark undressing
Voiceless without breath
seducing in a pond of secrets

For heaven is much too calm
and peace is strife too long
patiently crossed beyond

Visions plunging with perfect darkness
Cataclysmic ripples of intricacies
Absolute patterns of silky abysses

why do people have to count sheep when they can read their history books?

10/05/01

the life of a dummy. waking up all crunched up, black-eyed like lead, there he becomes like an instant punching bag, so is his life pointless? No, he is there to save the lives of kids, maniacs take out their anger on him instead of kids. His sacrifice is most appreciated.

so a rock, as hard as a flower, can never overcome the acidic residue of snow, like wind, like water, it is just a rock, with much potential energy, in the palm of my hand, at a sharp angle, above the horizontal, so motion is set, and the rock flies, a window crack, energy is transfered, conserved.

There should be no such thing as: not guilty of insanity. All those doing those should be convicted: guilty of insanity.

10/04/01

looking through a broken glass,
with a shattered heart,
knowing that the owner of the throwing rock,
is no one else but me.

A reply so worthless, it is like silence

An answer so complex, it transcends the problem.

sleeping is like an art, like any artwork, the artist must die before it is appreciated.

10/03/01

As i walk on the long and winding path of life, i trip and fall. i scrape my knees, i bleed. that is reality, in school, i learn to calculate the distance of the path, to optimize it, to create a shortcut, so that i would get to the end quicker. but who would want to cut through life, who would want to take a shortcut, and arrive at the end faster? i would, because i do not want to scrape my knees.

in life, we are all given a rope. we either tie a knot in it, untie the knot we tied in it, cut the rope, or strangle ourselves with it because we don't know how to tie a knot in the rope.

10/02/01

You have too much confidence in me. If I was more confident in myself, I would be you.

What's the point of having a map so detailed, that it shows every single mark, every single location, in actual size? It would take the whole world to lay the map out.

i have a mechanical pencil with a pencil cap on the eraser end. then the pencil cap broke one day. the stores do not sell pencil caps by themselves, you know. so anyway, what i have now is a naked pencil and it looks weird. and yet, i wonder why they don't sell pencil caps by themselves. i mean, we have learned about interchangable parts in the industrial revolution, that is if we lose a pencil cap, we should be able to get just a pencil cap instead of a whole new pencil. so anyway, having said this, i went to the store to get a replacement, and i ended up buying a pack of mechanical pencil, apparently, it is sold in bulk, you gotta buy 3 pencils together. so after i bought it i realized that now i have 3 new pencil caps with 3 new pencils, so i haven't really resolved anything.

9/28/01

From hunger comes starvation, and with that comes death. This is the life of a person that has no soul, not because he has no money.

How can we truly say that we are voluteering when we do it for fame and recognition, or credit and hours?

Things that are dangerous: sharp points on pencils, sharp edge on a sheet of paper, sharp fragments of glass.

Thinking...

9/18/01

problem: a mime is stuck in his imaginary box wall. The consumption rate of oxygen the mime uses will cause the air in the box to be depleted in less than an hour. The mime is doomed. That means no solution.

Downfall comes from too much confidence

9/17/01

distinction comes from discrimination

There are many things which can affect that much, this is definitely one of them.

So how do we measure the significance of such events? The number of lives involved isn't enough? What can be more important, lives have become just mere statistics.

Man invented God and says that God invented man. Why this enslavement? To those who thinks that the above statement isn't true, I ask, why is it that through man's evolution, why doesn't religion predate man. Oh I'm sorry, your faith doesn't allow you to believe in evolution.

9/12/01

experience makes us sickening. so we are left alone with death, and that will bring us suffering. the act of letting go is the act of killing that which is dear.

in need of a few bucks, i grabbed my bird by the neck, took it to a pawn shop and got enough money to buy chicken for lunch. Don't complain to me that i'm mean, if i was, i would have fried the bird instead.

What's wrong with going 15 miles an hour on a street with a speed limit of 50. Doesn't the sign just set the maximum speed allowed? Aren't we allowed to go slower than that?

A small puddle of water surrounds a pile of sweet candy. Ants are introduced. How do they get the candy? They build a bridge. Not strong enough. They also drink the water. Go down stream or some place else and release the water. Wouldn't know unless u actually observed one! Hehe.

8/28/01

With you, I see myself dying,
With you, the world fades by,
With you, my last words are full of hatred,
With you, my last words are full of sorrow,
With you, my last words are full of anger,
With you, my last words are full of pain.

And as I see myself from a distant,
I realized how you and I are one,
I see with open eyes,
You are my shadow.

8/12/01

I will not put my tube where it doesn't belong.
-Chem teacher told a student to write that oon the board

7/27/01

like a banana, we all wish to be peeled

why not steal a kiss from a monkey,
or burn a piece of the sky,
why not take a pinch of dirt,
or a cup of burning sorrow,

why not tear a sheet of ice,
or rip a layer of the ocean,
why not wash the desert sand with fire,
or cut the reaching hands of trees,

why not raze a whole forest
to worship the god of creation
why not slaughter the lives of locusts
to honor the earth and sky

7/26/01

Oh, the memory i hold within,
does it not change through time,
the truth known now,
fabricated by the mind,
a world written on the face,
effaced and scarred,
the world becomes buried.

Space contained in a grain of sand,
Changes destiny infinitely,
Oh how do the things we hold so dear,
become so superficial,
life in the back of your hands,
does it not carry a great burden,
on those who hold it deep within,
for life upon a golden feather,
does it not wander away?

live as if you would die the next second. Hahaha, screaming abjectly, hahahaha.

i am too young to eat grass (die)
having to check your food of poison,
having to lock your doors,
having to watch your back,
having to isolate yourself from contaminates,
isn't fun.

the genetic disorder of a man and a monkey, we assume the monkey caused the mutation

i don't know much about my past
so i make it up
sometimes i wonder what is my real history
i don't know much about my family either
i lead a pretty sad life u know
not knowing who i am

7/25/01

How to become a man. First, get a sex change.

Killer marshmellows, love them, hate them, die by their sides, become earth and sky, they are still here to live by

imagine that, those people determine the fate of their childrens with some machine that generate some random names, it is the children who have to live with those names for the rest of their lives

That which is poetry,
That which is art,
Cannot be measured through time and space,
Infinite,
Yet within bounds of human recognition,
As simply there.

7/24/01

The wishing well,
filled up with coins,
those pollutants,
make the magic in the wishing disappear.

How fortunate for others to be able to come home,
How much does it take for people to see,
I am not an animal,
with geniune feelings and emotions,
I am me,
without a home to come home to.

Hahaha, my life is a joke,
Born and bred by my creator,
left alone by my guardians,
I am a rejected experiment,
They let me be this way,
But it is not them I feel hatred towards,
It is I, the other self of me.

7/22/01

And it is with those whom we fear, that we trust the most.

I am to be the tears formed in my eyes rolling down my cheek.

Human insights are too profound to be relevant.

For those of you who think that chaos is too uniformal, try smattering your head into a sidewalk. If the randomness of the dispersion of blood isn't enough to open your mind, maybe your mind is already open.

7/21/01

At 12 I watched the butterfly hovering by
I counted 3 shades of gray,
And I saw my life slipped through my eyes,
The stream of conscience stopped breathing,
5 minutes after I have passed away.
Oh how sorrowful it is to live through your death,
without knowing how you died.

Ain't love a dagger in the heart. The feeling is mutual.

We seek answers from those most clueless of the problem.

7/19/01

I have been pondering about life and death. What is there besides... Life is nothing more than the residue of early decay.

Hope feeds on those that need it the most.
Fear gives others sense of being.
Ah! The joy of being in the present time,
Even if it is when we are dying.

The grass is greener on the other side. But how do you know which side you are on.

Threads of fate. Oh, how i long to cut thee...

7/17/01

Induced hallucinations. It helps you deal with loneliness.

7/13/01

Not until recently did i realize what the clock hands represent. The long is for the minutes and the short is for the hour. The way i was taught was to memorize every possible position of the hands. It really is inefficient, trust me.

it's not like you trust me over yourself

know that the forbidden fruit contains pesticides

7/9/01

No, it's not like taking candy from a baby. They do bite and scratch.

I have just recently finished rewriting my history. Sorry it took forever.

6/11/01

If a picture is worth a thousand words, why is there a need for the captions?

ah, the feeling of getting hacked twice in a day! Nothing is more enjoying.

6/10/01

There are tons of people we should thank:
We should thank burglars for telling us the weaknesses of our home security,
We should thank hackers for showing us how our computers are insecure,
We should thank teachers for letting us know how stupid we are,
We should thanks parents for bringing us in a world full of misery,
We should thank police for making us safer drivers,
We should thank _______ for _______________________________________.

6/9/01

Too busy, be right back......................

6/8/01

We all spin webs of deception. It is the fool who become entangled in his own web.

As a generation, we have a responsibility to breed better humans for the survival of our species.

The prints of time will always live on in our memories just as those imprinted in stone and concrete.

Why do people wish to see the future when almost everyone forgets the past.

If I am handed a suspicious piece of candy, should I eat it or not? If I do and it is poison, if I don't and it is not?

How come people don't make candy canes during the summer? Luckily, I saved a batch.

6/7/01

Many things bring back memories. All things to me bring back sad memories.

I'm a failure at all things im good at.

We seek our destination only to discover that we have already past it.

We laugh to cover our cries,
We cry to cover our intention,
We lie to cover our faces,
We bribe to cover our crimes,
We kill to cover our tracks,
We use white-out to cover our mistakes.

6/6/01

Communication is the art of lying.

We all need to be deceitful. That is how we show our authority to the uneducated.

You can reach out with a closed hand. It only depends on how big of a fist the other person can grab.

If I should fall tomorrow, I would know with confidence that I have not fallen today.

If I become rich, I can honestly say that my wealth comes not from my skills, but from my luck.

6/1/01 - 6/5/01

My brain stopped working! Sorry for the delay.

5/31/01

Don't be skeptical and think that eye drops are contain only water. Your eye may develop infection if you tried a substitute tap water, freaking superglue, lemon acid.

Don't let anyone convert you, be it your gender, religion, or preference of male or female!

After burning down your house accidentally, remember to save the gasoline used to lit the fire. Gasoline prices are getting really high.

5/30/01

Stupid proverb that says, "the journey is worth more than the destination". This discourages us making teleportation devices.

How can we become good leaders? By following others. Man, I keep on getting lost.

What's scary isn't finding bones buried in your backyard. What's scary is that it's from a human. Don't ever act like your dog. It's scary what you may find.

What is perfection?
It is cutting the grass blade by blade.
It is drinking water drop by drop.
It is reading and analyzing every letter.
It is cleaning a noodle bowl in a restaurant by good will.
It is green diamond, black jacket, deep pockets.

Why is it that people assume that all bad things are caused by the devil? Can't it be caused by the the gods having a little fun?

Just because...
you are ugly...
you are deformed...
you are hopeless...
you are crazy...
you are clumsy...
you are stupid...
you are insane...
No matter what you are still my anh em (brother).

How come stuff like shoes and kleenex don't come with instructions? Not all of us are rocket scientists, you know.

5/29/01

How the hell can you give birth to yourself?

What's cool about babysitting is that you can brainwash the children. They are so gullible. Tell them that their parents died or that their parents left them for good.

My wardrobe consists of nothing but winter clothes. Guess what I wear in the summer. My jacket

If people can see the future, why would they want to change it?

Children are taught not to play with matches or fire, instead they should be taught how to play with them wisely.

I am inhuman not because I have chosen not to learn, but because I have chosen to forget.

5/28/01

We learn from the mistakes of others, never from our own mistakes.

Why are dogs and cats treated even better than humans?

Secrets are meant to be broken. Otherwise, why would anyone want to entrust them on others?

Too bad i have to think. Can't wait till those AI's replace my brain.

Why do children learn about sharing? How does that help them in real life.

5/27/01

i'm not only a chicken, i'm a chicken inside an egg shell

Even in death, I pollute the world. I become the breeding ground for microbes and bacteria.

Save the rainforests. Make posters of awareness. Spread the message.

I have lost my house key. If anyone find it, please return it to me. The address should be on the attached tag.

What kind of world do we live in. An infected man, goes to restaurant and wait for someone to choke on their food. That way he can do a mouth-to-mouth and spread the disease by transfer of fluid. He can't be blamed for helping people.

I always root for the losing team.

I hate playing games by myself like tic-tac-toe cause i always lose.

5/26/01

What difference does it make how we aquire knowledge? I rather upload my knowledge than to learn it the hard way!

Today, i erase my past and ban the existence of all my previous friends, family members, gods.

I have wasted more than 10 years of life. Can't wait to screw the rest of them.

My life hurts because off all the responsibilities i have to hold. I give up. Remembering my name is enough. Remembering my family is too much.

Distant moon, how i wish you go away. I want to spend more time with the sun.

We are scavengers.
We hunt and exploit everything that we find.
We thrive on others' weaknesses.
We laugh at others' miseries.
We flourish at others' failures.
We prosper at others' misfortunes.
We live at others' death.
We laugh at others' cries.

We should ban all fairy tales, because they brainwash the minds of our youths.

Life teaches us not to trust anyone, no matter how close. Not friends, family members, and most certainly, not even ourselves.

What good is it to lead an honorable life? You can lead a deceitful life by being a hypocrite, get away with it, and have an honorable death.

There is a cost we must pay for having civilization: free will.

We are all betrayers. In time of crisis, we will even agree to sell out our family.

5/25/01

i can rip out my eyes for u, offer my brain, but i gotta sleep too

i like sun burn, it makes me tan, i hate being pale as a ghost

i enjoy having a stalker, it makes me feel important

i always credit my anh em. they are a big part of my life (not necessary the good part)
-for my anh em who keeps on bugging me to pput something on the page about him

im disemboweling myself cause my stomach hurts. you can thank my anh em.

5/24/01

What star is the song "Twinkle, Twinkle little star," referring to? I couldn't find it yesterday night. I'm really confused. Help me!

I just had a brain transplant. The procedure was quite simple. I'm pretty sure I survived.

Is a rose pretty because of its thorns? Or is it the rose that make the thorns ugly?

Plastic bags do cause suffocation! Wish I knew that sooner.

5/23/01

purity comes from the mind and not the body.

my name is terrafusion. dont confuse me with the human behind the keyboard. i tell him what to type.

Hey cool, i can poke my eyes 8 times before i start to cry. Gonna practice and break my record.

The best view of a human is from the inside. Isn't that how we are taught to judge people. Just cause i got no guts and an abnormal heart, doesn't make me less of a person.

Why grow up and lead a miserable life when you can just die without having to go through that experience?

by the way, i think performing these experiments on my eyes is the reason why i wear glasses.

schools should prohibit:
paper because they cause bleeding,
pencils because they cause blindness,
girls because they excite boys,
boys because they gross out girls.

5/22/01

I am not a liar. My version of the truth has not yet been accepted due to lack of proof.

I fear the dark more than light. Isn't the light blinding?

What is there after death, after hell. Don't tell me we stay there forever.

All of us should get a brain transplant. But isn't that really getting a new body?

What's cool is that your brain doesn't have any sensory nerves. Imagine puncturing it to your heart's delight without feeling pain.

Ouch, my eyeballs hurt.
-Desperate cry of a boy
Stop puncturing them then!
-Response
I'm not puncturing them. I'm trying to take pencil lead out of them.
-Response from boy now gushing with blood aannd tears

For some weird reason, i'm afraid that the world will end billions of years from now when the sun explode instead of being afraid of dying tomorrow.

i can tell when i want to go to sleep when my eyes burn and i have to repeatedly puncture it

how come they don't have names like October and December, instead only names like May, June, April, July?

5/21/01

To my enemies: Go home!

To my friends: You guys are now my enemies!

What happens to the person you look up to when you grow tall! They look up to you.

Suppose we are actually living in hell, how can we tell!

If I know when I am going to die, I would commit suicide just for fun. It'd be unsuccessful but at least I can cheat death.

5/16/01

If the gay population ever outnumber heterosexuals, then they become the norms. And what do we become, social outcasts!

Wearing necklaces and chains is an invitation for strangulation.

I look for imperfections in everything I see. Is it because I fear of seeing something perfect?

I look for ways to count my years. Guess how many days I have left?

What would be cool is that someone wrote "# of days till school's over:" on the board on the first day of school.

5/15/01

If you find a roach, breed it and then infect your neighbors.

I have become one with a book, can't wait till the end where I die.

Evolution is so cool: Relatively peaceful species of mocking birds become vampires because they were thirsty for water. They found a substitute: blood. At first they only widen the wounds of other animals by pecking on the flesh. Then they started creating the wounds.

I am you from the future. Prepare to die.
-Day of Liberation

Hunting is a bad game. It kills innocent animals for fun. Let the prey have a fair shot too. Hunt humans instead because they can think.

We were born deprived of blood. We suck it out of others to survive.

We are nothing but a living grave. Our body holds remains of carcasses.

About the theory of evolution. We mistakenly thinks that apes are our fathers, but in fact, they are our brothers.

We have the technology to destroy a whole planet. Yet we are willing to be the test subject.

Which is better, eternal harsh rule, or swift annihilation?

5/12/01

Let me be the light to guide you, no matter the destination.

If I could go back in time, I would kill yourself, so that I wouldn't be born. Am I considered a murderer? I consider myself my savior, because I would have prevented myself from actually growing up and be able to go back in time to kill.

If I was a billionaire, I would burn all of my money just to mess up the economy.

People are so dependent on almost everything now. One can't even remember time without a watch, a date without a calendar, a page without a bookmark, etc.

I have given you everything I have, now I have nothing left to give. Yet you want that too!

Not only did you take my heart, but you plan on eating it too.

5/11/01

I want to be a living clock. I will devote my time to counting seconds.

My mind is corrupt,
My body is ill
My life is miserable
My spirit is damned
My essence is impure

I live to die again.

What accomplishments have I made to the society? Am I that insignificant?
-Mind of a little boy

5/10/01

Self-mutilation lets you cope with being sexually abused.

How should I talk to myself, as another person and addressing me in third person, as having two personalities and adressing my self as two, or as being aware that i'm talking to myself and addressing myself as 'self'?

I declare my body officially unoccupied, a brain wanted!

5/9/01

Oh, i needed your help, but you have stolen my brain too.
U are a really good friend.

too bad we got electricity, cause i want to be the person that light up the street lights. It takes the whole night to light up the candles, and the whole morning to blow them out.

my life is so dull. i can't even poke my eyes out with it.

if money grew on trees, deforestation is a must.

how can we justify living? by lying to ourselves about our true worth.

which is worse, killing an innocent animal, or killing an innocent animal and then eating it?

if life is as simple as 1, 2, 3; who needs calculus?

5/8/01

When we knock on the door before we enter a room, we are not being polite. Rather, that is a sign of our distrust in each other. When we knock before entering, we aren't waiting for acknowledgement to come in. But instead, we are saying, "I don't trust what you guys are doing behind closed doors. So I'm gonna give you a few seconds to cover up your improper actions and then I will enter."

We are all accidents. We weren't created because we were wanted. We are nothing more than a lab experiment.

What contributions haven't we given to science? The only thing we have left is our soul. Even that is being probed.

You ever wake up on the wrong side of the bed and went back to sleep to getting up correctly?

You ever wonder what superglue feels like if you put a drop on your eyes? I learned it the hard way.

Man, I keep on choking on my saliva. It sure doesn't taste minty.

all the preparation in the world won't help me cause i'm ultimately flawed.

5/7/01

Depend on others because we can't depend on ourselves.

We are born not free, but enslaved. What different does it make if our names were numbers. That's how everyone is treated no matter what.

When i look up, i cry cause i'm not going there,
When i look down, i cry cause i'm going there,
When i look back, i cry cause i already gone there,
When i look forward, i cry cause i'm not gonna get there,
When i close my eyes, i cry cause i'm already there.
-It's hot where i'm going

Stupid movies always saying how "if only he had a heart" or "heartless" murderer. It's the brain that controls emotions of love and hate. The heart just pumps blood.

I see myself in the mirror everyday with disgust. My mirror better be cracked, cause if not, i don't know how else to justify living.

5/5/01

It's not my fault that I have no guts. I was disemboweled years ago.

The theory of evolution does not state that man comes from monkeys. It states that man and monkeys come from the same ancestor.

We are children of the stars. Look up and remember your ancestors.
Note to astronomers: Stop looking for imperfections.

My taste buds rules. Extreme taste buds all the way!

What laws are there to govern our desire to act according to our free will? Apparently all of them.

The mind of an adult: the world exists
The mind of a child: the room exists
My mind: I exist

Through civilization, humanity hides its deceptions.

Disfigure yourself so that you can say: I'm ugly by decision and not by nature.

Life isn't fair. Well, mine anyways. I didn't choose my own name, nor my date of birth.

There are no more unique thoughts. All thoughts now are merely old thoughts recycled.

5/1/01

i'm too chicken to get a girlfriend, perhaps i'll get a chicken

If you lose a child, breed another one.

i am like jello, too soft and squishy, people step on me

I feel like dirt. People step on me. I want to be quicksand.

I wear my jacket cause it makes me hot.

If I go to hell, I am well adapted.

A file can make a knife sharper but it can never be sharper than the knife.

Civilization makes us evil. A woman kills her husband to be with another man because that society did not allow her to get a divorce.

The higher you set your goals, the less you achieve.

Basic discrimination isn't learned, it is rooted in all of us, we learn to mask it. If we fail, then we are biased; if we succeed, then we are hypocrites.

Humans are all biased; even from the moment we are born, we have looked at our ugly parents with discrimination.

The higher you set your goals, the less you achieve.

I have no emotions. If a family member dies, I apply artificial tears.

4/28/01

You ever wake up and realize that you weren't asleep. Or how about waking up and realize that you are still sleeping.

when i sleep, i think about never waking up. Is that considered having suicidal thoughts?

i have a stupid dog, i beat it at chess 2 out of 3 games.

i used to be able to stare at the sun for like 20 minutes, now i can barely do it for 5.

Here is my poem to my girl friend:
If you are a piece of shit, then I am the fly that hovers around you.

I take a nap before I go to sleep.

4/22/01

Green Diamond how I love u
Tis GREEN and GREEN and GREEN
oh, the grass cannot be as GREEN as u on the other side
Stand by and by,
You live with me even when memory fades
You should be etched into stone and honored,
let u be immortal, surpass the infinite time
the calc is not worthy of your presence
no words can describe your perfection
except GREEN DIAMOND...
forever u live cuz u rule
oh i dream of u even when awake
i call your name with reverence and awe
GREEN DIAMOND
let your name be heard loud and clear
cuz u rock my world
my world rocks because of you
you can replace the sun
with your greeeenish, hypnotizing rays
your greenish grooviness, can't be compared or measured
i worship u oh GREEN DIAMOND
oh where are u but etched in my mind
supreme ruler of the universe
oh i worship you
even 2nd, shift, and alpha can't compare
u rock my world

i am puzzled
i am confused
where is my home
oh don't leave me here alone
i am scared when night comes
i hide behind my face
my tears hide with me
no one knows who i am
no one cares!
abandoned, forgotten
i have lost my name

how does man live?
if not through war, then plague
if not through ignorance, then stupidity
if not through drought, then famine
if not through corruption, then avarice
if not through terror, then fear
if not through evil, then malice
if not through lies, then deception
if not through chains, then cages
if not through hatred, then anger
if not through desire, then lust

4/15/01

whatever one wants, one gets by some means, whether be it unjust or immoral

one needs no other to hinder development but oneself, therefore the culprit of one's own destruction lies deep within the shadows that one wears

i eat with my ID on, i sleep with my ID on, it helps me know who i am

Must our actions not be mirrored physically

Thinking highly of oneself reeks the desperation of being thought of highly by others.

Illogical reasoning reminds us of our limitations.

Be not what you not want others to be.

You are nothing but a mere human, and me, i am nothing but a pure essence.

the mind wants to know stuff that it doesn't know, yet once it does, it wants to forget

by banging on your head you slightly increase your chances of brain damage thus increasing your chances of conjuring up irrational thoughts. it's best if you do at a 35 degree angle from your temple to the surface

i speak what my mind thinks up, not what i truly mean, for my thoughts change through time

4/10/01

I do prepare my clothes at night
wear them when i sleep
just in case of fire
i can get out looking like myself

Indeed talking to yourself is cool. I can talk to myself through IM

so how to get ear wax out of your ears? half the time you don't need to, it does it itself by natural process, or you can tilt your head and drip in hydrogen peroxide or ear drops until ear is full then tilt out the liquid, twice a day for best results

please do not use a Q-tip, especially in your ears
-A message from your eardrum

we all relate back to elsewhere, and from elsewhere to nothingness

why should we remember junk information like our names, birth date, family members' names, age, address, phone number, it clogs our brains.