The Shining Darkness of Stan's World

Your Smile

Like the kiss
of the first rays
from the morning sun,
Your smile.
Hammering sunshine through my heart,
Your twist of lips,
And sparkling eyes,
echo of foreverness.

Moving On

Taking some small pleasure in the pain, I sit, shivering naked in the moonlight.
A vibration of soul in an ever expanding universe.
It reassures me that I am alive, And though alone,
I will endure.

The Long Walk

Ghost, spirit,
Winter's flame,
Dry crack of breaking bone,
On a cold crisp morning.
Slashing thoughts
Striving to feel numb,
A cold fire that creeps through me,
I wrap myself in old furs,
For this long walk.

Thoughts of Suicide

Glittering pain,
Cracked skin of molten lava,
Covering my soul,
With a great nothingness within.
Who can hear the endless echo of my heart?
How do I escape from that great dark beast,
Chained to my soul?
I can feel its pull,
Great wrenching tugs,
With the strength of madness.

Will it take a flashing blade,
A streak of shining steel,
To pierce my chest,
And release the emptiness?

Thinking Too Much

Seeds sown by some ancient god,
In the garden of my mind.
Sprouting flowers of wild passion and tender love.
Too often there comes a fire of rage and jealousy,
That I put out with a stomping of thoughts,
Until there's nothing left but ashes.

Drowning Love

The mad dance of careening thoughts and emotions,
Culminates in a languid liquor.
The journey ends, as it always does,
At a fog-cursed beach.
Beneath the mist,
A dark sea of hope and despair.
The pounding surf,
echoing the pain in my heart.

Closing my eyes I take a deep swig.
And walk towards the sound of crashing waves,
The dull roar promising an end to pain,
inexerable apathy.
I surrender,
swallowing rapture a mouthful at a time.

By Myself

Standing alone,

Always alone.
So rare to be touched.
To feel the outside world,
In this body of stone.

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