The Boyfriends
Steven and I just recently had a big fight...It was heartbreaking because at one point we were so grumpy at each other I thought we would never talk again. But after much fussing ,screaming, stomping and crying we talked it out and I think we have a better understanding of each other and will be stronger for it. He really is a great guy.....when he isn't being a butthead that is!! lol
I have a few of what I call my "boyfriends". Men I talk to on a regualar basis... and wouldn't mind meeting. I don't have anything to hide... but I wouldn't embarass them by putting their names in here... only Steven knows who they are. Ummmm let's see....there is T, J, Bear and Cuddles. Ooops I guess that is more then a few! Well considering the millions of people online five isn't all that bad! hehehe
T is my share guy... J is my toot sweet guy.... Bear is my out of reach guy and Cuddles is my hillbilly guy.
T is the one I am probably going to get to meet first. I am very excited about it... He is a great guy....all the girls I share him with agree! lol We have become closer lately....talk more....he lives over seas so we are really restricted by the time differance. But he gave me his work email and we send little notes through out the afternoon. Lots better then having to wait till past midnight to talk to him a few min till I pass out at the keyboard.
Untill recently Cuddles and I only talked in email... he FINALLY got his puter online. It is great to talk to him in realtime. What a guy!! I haven't seen a pic of him yet....but he is wonderful. Very thoughtful..sweet... ohhhh I could go on forever about him. Cuddles has a hillbaby that he lives to love... I can tell just from the things he has said in his letters that he is a great daddy.
You wouldn't believe me about J....I have never met a sweeter more...hmmmmm just dont have words to describe him... any girl that catches that boys attention will be extremly lucky!
I'm affraid I can't bring myself to share Bear with you right now.
Well I guess I really put my foot in ..errr my fingers...hmmm I really put my keyboard in my mouth this time!
The cyber world is such a wonderful/horrible thing. There is so much good... all the info you can find....meeting new people..the ease of correspondince. But just type one tiny thing wrong and you get system errors.... cant find website messages... but in my case it caused the loss of my best friend.
The idea was for me to write kind of an appology letter to Stevens girlfriend and try to get along better with her...for Steven...but I goofed up in the wording somewhere...ohh I know where... cant help but to know when there was so much bickering about it later. Well anyways it caused enough of a tiff that he is now not talking to me any longer. The really sad thing is ... I really LIKE his girlfriend..think she is a real sweetie... but she and I just couldnt get it together where he was concerned. I guess there is nothing but to just wait and see if he will forgive me....it really WAS an accident...a typo
In the mean time I wish them the best together.
Well it seems Cuddles is having a really good time with his ICQ... I can barely get him to talk to me anymore. I am a bit hurt... but I know he has to have other friends and all. And it is even good for him and I am glad he is talking to others. I just wish he had a bit of time for me. Selfish I know ...but I miss all the emails... I think I will just start emailing him again and see what happens.
Yipppeeeeeeeee!!!! Steven is talking to me again! He said he couldn't stay mad at me and he knows I didn't do it on purpose...yadda yadda well all that is important is he is talking to me again!
Well I guess I am having boyfriend problems... just seems to be to many!
Trav and I have been getting pretty close... he is a wonderful man... and we plan to meet before the month is up.
I am very excited!
He sent me the sweetest bouquet of flowers for my birthday. It about broke my little heart when they started to wilt. But I pressed alot of them and I am going to use them in a upcoming candle making project!
So about my man problems.... See my Canadian friend is coming to visit me this month too! He is another wonderful guy. See my problem? I can't even tell you which way I lean... I need to meet them first.
Ohhh I have to tell you about my cyber sweetie guy! Hockeypuck...what a guy! He is so funny... we are getting to be best of buds! I am very comfortable with him. I don't have to worry about Puck... we know where the other stands and are just friends.
We spend alot of time teasing and playing... we seem to have the same sense of humor. I feel lucky to have him as a friend... he has become a dear confidant! love ya babe!
I have to tell you about "My Canadian"... He called me about two weeks ago and said something about how I haven't mentioned him on my journal for a long time. Well darling that is because I just didn't know what to say! You know what is going on ... Another reason is my feelings for George... and I didn't want to hurt him by talking about another man.
Girls, my canadian is a big handsome sweet...sighhhhh he is just a great guy! And he has this deep soft voice....wow!
I said before that I had mixed emotions about his not coming to visit me ... Between he and George I kinda felt like it was a race to my house... and whoever got here first got the "prize".
While I am a bit sad that he and I didn't get to meet... I am quite a bit relieved too.
I feel very lucky to have met George and how things have worked out between us, I love him dearly... But BammBamm darling I have wondered, once or twice...
Well George has come and gone again...
We had a wonderful visit... went to the coast for a few days. It was so lovely there... but the best part was the company!
I can't believe how things are going between us. He is an incredible man.