We never know when tradegy or hardship are going to strike. And it is impossible to predict the effect it will have on our lives. It is even harder still to know how we will handle ourselves when put in such situations. However, it is at those times, the hardest times, when we really learn of our own integrity, fortitude, and inner strength...



I MISS YOU

I miss you...
God, I can't believe I miss you so much.
I miss how we used to run,
and leap, and chase butterflies.
I miss how we used to like to
lay in the water and kick with all our might.
I miss, how together we would tumble in the grass,
and then roll over and point our toes towards the sky.
I miss just standing... and watching children playing.
I miss lying quietly with you at night
before the days when you were stricken with pain.
I didn't know how dependent I had become on you...
your ability to pick me up when I was down;
to carry me when I was weak;
the way you got me where I needed to go, despite myself.
I didn't realize how much your being sick was going to affect me...
I now call on my hands to be more nimble
than they are used to being.
I ask my eyes to see where they are
not used to looking.
I depend on my ears to alert me to
that which used to go unnoticed.
I rely on my brain to examine, evaluate,
calculate, and plan every minor detail in a way
that I can consiously comprehend.
And I pray that my soul will give me the
courage to move on...to continue... in your absence.
Who knew one's leg could affect so much?
Who knew it would be missed so terribly?
It does. It is. I miss you.

Copyright ©1999 Bonnie S. Pease


Prologue:

I was involved in a very serious motorcycle accident in June of 1998. And yes, it was my right leg that was affected. I did not lose my leg...I was very fortunate. However, the damage that was done has permantly changed my life. Therefore, I grieve not for the loss of limb, but for the loss of a way of life to which I was accustomed. I WAS very lucky. The doctors told me I would probably recover 90 to 95 percent of what I had prior to the accident. They were pretty close. It has been however, a long and grueling road. And grieving WAS a part of it...as it is part of healing.

If you find yourself faced with tragedy in your life...tragedy of any nature...allow yourself to feel the pain, the grief. For it is in feeling it and facing it, that we find the strength to begin to let go of it. And it is only then, that we can truly heal.



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