y wife told me that
she had a strange dream last night -- so strange that she wondered if it
really was a dream.
She saw someone -- looking like an angel, with white clouds behind him
-- giving her a heavenly revelation -- she said that his words were, exactly,
"If Elwood wants the job, he can have it." When she first told me,
I thought it was pretty funny -- I can imagine the same angel that announced
Jesus' birth and resurrection would be talking to my wife about a stupid
job.
But then again, who knows. After all, she is pregnant, and she's
been under almost as much stress lately as I have been about the whole
situation, and of course that's not good when you're carrying a baby.
Maybe she is supposed to know that everything is going to be all right.
For all I know, it was the baby talking to her. Or Satan.
Sometimes being a Christian drives me crazy. It would be so much
easier to say "there is no God", and that's it. It would certainly
explain the state of the world today. But it's a lot tougher to look
around at all the horrors, and wonder why God lets it go on. Or,
on a more personal note, why He says "ask and it shall be given you," but
I've been waiting five years to be given a real job. And if I ask
these kind of questions, I feel guilty, because how could I possibly understand
the workings of an omniscient God?
Here I am, trying to compare myself to God -- as if I weren't feeling
puny enough in the first place.
