A single uttered word from my mouth
Sets off the howls and moans
In ironic testimony
As I continue on my route
A single spoken syllable of sound
Shatters the haughty silence
Of contemptuous glares
Unleashing two she-hounds
A geyser of laughter that won't subside
Dislodged from my gut
By a frenzied flash of indifference
Follows me in my casual stride
Diary:
desecrated
its fresh white
pages
with nothingness
poured out in streams
of regretful words
pushed them
through my veins
through my pen
out onto those
pristine sheets
squeezed
each thought
between those
evenly spaced
lines
defiling
with the resonance
of my empty
soul
pretty pictures
stare from its cover
with children's eyes
masking
the blackness
with bright colors
saccharine sweetly
gazing back
forced myself upon
those neatly bound
pages
regurgitated
secret angers
from within
consuming their simple
joy
in all things clean
drenched
each crisp page
with the stench
of dark crevices
of the heart
drifting
floating listlessly
from depression
to apathy
unloading
the weight of
one hundred
silent sins
of the soul
bravely they shouldered
burdens
not their own
pushed out
to form
coherent scribbles
that mar
these sheets
pages consumed
by blackness
testimony to
each moment
of self pity
becoming part
of my soul
casting them aside
with disgust
newly directed
on innocent
fibers
once their virgin
whiteness
shocked my eyes
bore through
my flesh
my soul
to send their
message of hope
into the dark
now blackness
repulses
still stare at
pretty picture
regarding me
with death's eyes
painted across
its cover
serving as
a gateway
a mask of joy
to hide
despair
leading to
the ugly innards
of my mind
demons
from my gut
devour the purity
once found
in clean crisp paper
Bic White-Out
its liquid purity
mocks my every mistake
single fumbled marks
misspelled words
and other minute miscalculations
its perfection condescends
my clumsiness
pristine glaring whiteness
hides yet cannot irradicate
each error
super smoothness
glides effortlessly
shading paper
with fluid camouflage
smudging for spite
to further mock and condescend
my every flaw
aware of the contempt I hold
urging my frustrations
with its liquid purity
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