February 17, 1999

Maturity

I did something I thought I would never do today. I dropped a class. Sure, it was only a one hour elective, but it was too costly to my limited schedule. Still, it was an act I thought I would never do. Giving up is something I do not do. When I have before, it was under duress and extreme circumstances. Even then, I would try my darnedest to fix things with whatever means I could. Today, though, I flat out surrendered without a fight.

I knew I had other activities and classes to focus on, but there was enough slack in my schedule that a bit of twiddling could have let me work on this class like I should have. It would have been rough, but I could have done it. However, I asked myself what value this stress would yield, and I could find nothing that turned a profit.

Even though it was failure, I accepted my decision. I am not a superhuman. I feel older today.