July 6, 1999

Confession

I apologize for the growing gaps in the time I send out these mailings. I was home for the holiday weekend and though I could have gotten access to e-mail, I just didn't try.

For those who might not have noticed, it has been increasingly more difficult for me to pen these daily thoughts the last few months or so. The original goal of this list was to finally put to paper or electrons the various madcap or deep philosophies and theories I had formulated about the world. As it turned out, I began recording more of my daily experience. Those are what mattered the most to me at the time. My griefs, my joys, my suffering, and my hopes were what I wrote about.

Life has the habit that the more you think and care about it, the more difficult it becomes. There is always a lot on my mind, but not always enough to talk about. Some nights, I really do write Diogenes, but I don't send them because of their too personal nature.

Tonight, I am confessing that on July 31st, the Diogenes Mailing List will come to an end. My reason is not for the difficulty I face. I would like to keep writing these. My true reason is that I will be spending my next semester of college abroad in Budapest, Hungary. I will be leaving in early August and the end of July just makes it a nice time to end.

The list will actually stop a month shy of its first year anniversary, so I will not let it just die away. From tonight to the end, there will always be a Diogenes, come high water, Y2K, hell, or the unlikely chance that I get a date.

Enjoy these last days and I hope you stay with me to the end.