Friday, September 12, 1997 -- The Week in Joe
Maggie, Kapua and Dickens are all playing together now, with a minimum of hissing, and most of that is 'play hissing' from Kapua.		This has been a topsy turvey week for me, starting with the Microsoft interview, an aborted interview with another company, and two interviews at a local bank through my current company. All I can do is breath a sigh of relief that the week is almost over, even if things are going to settle down much. One thing I forgot to mention on Monday...I watched that show Ally McBeal (probably misspelling it, I'll check it out later;) I knew I'd like the show from the beginning, when she was discussing the forces that brought her to where she was today. She said..."So here I am, the victim of my own choices..." It reminded me of the time when I had to go to Dad for serious help, and I told him that I knew I'd created the problem because of my own choices. Dad just sat back, and changed quickly from angry, to well, shock. He paused, and told me that he felt so much better when I said that. And that he was willing to help. I was more shocked Dad didn't know I felt that way. We make choices every day. Even the most basic choice: to live that day through. Certainly, it's not usually a conscious decision, every day, to live. But it is a choice you have every day, and because of that, what happens in your life because of it, is your responsibility. Some philosophers (like Sartre) have then gone on to give you the responsibility for everything that happens around you (because you didn't stop it, or failed to). That's a lot of responsibility, and I'm not sure they are right. The one thing I do know is, I'm responsible for my choices, including my choice to not choose. Which is usually how I get into trouble. In the closer of Ally McBeal (remember, we were talking about TV) she talks about how she never quite grasps simplicity, or success, that the struggle dealing with life was what she really liked. The striving was the important thing. Azura kept looking over at me, and saying, "Did they give you right to base this character on you?" I just grinned, and said, "Well, all it means is that there are more people like this than just me." Keeping it interesting... Generic Joe's A Typical Male