3.feb.99
I need a spare girl.
I feel I need some new (old) experience. For example I can do something with my old acquaintance. (Good idea). It hardly can be done in the town. It has no sufficient romance to her. And I'm getting too romantic too. I guess a country inn will not be enough. It must be the sea. But it mustn't be a summer sea. I would like to see winter on the shore without ado and with a touch of detachment.
The problem is I'm not greedy but I don't want to have a cancellment with my money already invested. And there is no question about money. (I'm not greedy, I told). But I feel no need in TV in the rooms (TV for two days? - Immoderation). And I don't feel any need in the first class airplane tickets because I don't know difference between these classes. (What is the better, first, business or econom?)
I concocted two plans. First, I must secure my old acquaintance then to buy tickets and so on together with her not leaving her alone all trough this time. Second plan, I must to find a spare girl for this trip. If my old acquaintance is refusing to go with me in the last moment I'll engage a new one. I can't say this idea scare me or make me feel ashamed. No, it doesn't. But there is easy visible hurdle to get this spare girl in use. And it must be not paid girl. At first I abhor to pay for something. (I never paid even for Internet in my life until today). And secondly, if she was paid I would have temptation to simplify whole business and haven't the trip at all. Although, I'm sure there are many girls who will never take money but can die for such romantic tricks. (I hope I will tell about such one later. When I started kidding her about sea she sad: "Shut up, Igor." (Igor was her husband) She was too moved to saw the difference -) ).
So what can I do?
3~7.feb. I decided to abandon whole idea (and her) ultimately. (As a matter of fact, she refused me before my start.)
8.feb.99 Probably everyone needs only summer sea. (And she and I and anybody else.) I understood this reading A.A. Milne "Once on a Time".