Who Am I Today?                        Written by: Mandy Mae Hinson

I've just been diagnosed,
They tell me there are three of me.
How will I ever know?
Who I'll be?
I will wake up each day and hear myself ask,
Who am I today?
Am I going to be the happy one?
The one that is funny and full of fun?
Or am I going to be the sad one of me,
The one who stays in bed?
My body will feel like lead.
I won't want to move,
I just won't be in the mood.
I won't want to think at all,
I'll just hear myself telling me I'm nothing, after all.
Or am I to be the angry one?
The one full of anger,
The one who thinks violence is fun?
I don't like that one,
I never know when it's come until the damage is done.
I don't want to hurt anyone.
How will I make plans ahead?
Not knowing who is in control of my head?
What will I use for an excuse to back out of plans?
Because if I tell the truth,
No one will understand.
I'm working hard to stay in control,
I want to stay in the happy mode.
When I can't take control,
I hide like a little mole.
Just wanting to sit in my own private dark hole.
Will there ever be a time,
When I'll be able to truly say,
Who am I today?
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