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February 16, 2000 |
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Gwen called me today. She's cool. I like Gwen. Technically, she called my phone number and left a message. Luckily, I got the message very quickly. The message was something like this…
Hi Frank. It's Gwen. Just called to say hey. Don't call me back unless it is within the next five minutes because I'm going to sleep.There you go… there's something to boost your self esteem. Your friend calls you for the first time in months and can spare her last waking moments of the day to give you a call so you can talk for a handful of minutes. Yes, this indeed gives me the warm and fuzzies. Maybe I was in a particularly bad mood… I don't know, but she has left messages like this before and it hasn't really bothered me. I don't know why it bugged me so much today.
Okay, you people out there… Would this bug you?
What's funny is that I didn't realize that I was that irritated to begin with. I chatted with her for a little while. She asked me to tell Ted to call her the next time I see him. Apparently there were some news about her father, which Ted hasn't responded to in e-mail. There's a bit of history between them that I won't get into.
There were two instincts taking over here. First, I normally don't like to meddle in the relationships between friends of mine. I figured that if they're having problems, it best to let them work it out. I didn't want to be involved. She wasn't sure if she had the correct e-mail address, so I sent her the correct e-mail address. Other than that, it is between them. Second, I understand that people have different tolerances of how much they're willing to share. I was concerned about her father. It sounded serious, but I didn't want to pry. She didn't volunteer information and I didn't ask. It's not that I didn't care; it's just that I figured that she would tell me when she's ready to talk to me about it. It would seem that she's not.
I suppose I was hurt and was being a bit hostile with her… not screaming or anything like that, but certainly a bit snappish and terse. Although I only noticed when reflecting back. I didn't like myself that way. It's not me. I'm not precisely sure what it was. I suppose that maybe it was a reaction to my feeling dumped on… maybe I was rebelling to many years of passivity. I can only speculate; I have no answers.
She had to go to sleep soon, since she was having an early day tomorrow. I let her go.
The DVD player that I ordered on Sunday is in. I figured that I would pick it up in the evening, after work… well, in the evening anyway. Actually, I'd have a number of errands to run tonight. I did swing by Circuit City to pick up the DVD player, but that was it.
I also went to pick up Len's birthday present. I ended up driving to Alderwood Mall to get to the other The Store of Knowledge, and luckily they did have this item. It was a bit of a task carrying it around, especially since I also stopped for dinner. Ever try to carry a tray of food and a large box? Good heavens! Why?
February 16, 2000