I had left him unwillingly that morning, and I remember it all too clearly. We had not wanted to part at all, but I knew my mother would really go crazy. She already was anyway, if you know what I mean, but still...
What is still on my mind, however, and always will be, is how he kissed me before I left, it was a long and sweet kiss, full of love that I knew he felt, too... it was a kiss I know I'll never forget, for it would be one of our last ones...
Hearing my mother scream for an hour or two was nothing too nice, but I had gotten used to it, she had been doing it all my life, anyway. As long as I kept quiet, and nodded in the right times, she'd eventually calm down and go about to her own things, which she did.
I spent the whole day just sitting outside, thinking. I wanted to go to see him so badly, but my mother was watching me, as I knew she always was, and this time she had really gotten angry at me coming so late this morning so I didn't think it would be very easy to get to him. But anyway, he had told me to meet him in our place the next morning at dawn, and his serious blue eyes told me he really meant it and was going to be there this time.
I felt a hand on my shoulder, and I looked up. Nick was grinning at me, and I smiled. I watched as he sat down beside me. "What do you say we go race down to the beach?"
I shook my head slowly. "Sorry, Nick. I don't really feel like it today," I said, smiling apologetically.
"Oh," he said, looking disappointed. I felt bad, but it was true, I really didn't feel like it, my mind was too busy thinking about Brian.
That night I couldn't sleep, I don't know why, but I had this awful feeling in my stomach that wouldn't go away. When I could see the beginning of the light of dawn, I felt so nervous. Was it that I thought he wasn't going to show up again? Maybe, I wasn't sure myself, anyway...
I climbed down the wall from my window to the ground, and my heart was beating so fast I almost killed myself by not holding tight enough. I could not even keep my mind on something like that...
I started to walk, heading towards the cliff, then I broke into a run. When I got there, it was empty...
I looked around silently, but he was nowhere in sight. You'd expect me to go running back home crying, but I didn't. That feeling in my stomach told me that he didn't forget, that I had better go to his house... now...
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