In Memoriam
C.T.W.
Sometime Trooper of the Royal Horse Guards.
Obiit H.M. Prison, Reading, Berkshire,
July 7th, 1896
IV
There is no chapel on the day
....On which they hang a man:
The Chaplain's heart is far too sick,
....Or his face is far to wan,
Or there is that written in his eyes
....Which none should look upon.
So they kept us close till nigh on noon,
....And then they rang the bell,
And the Warders with their jingling keys
....Opened each listening cell,
And down the iron stair we tramped,
....Each from his separate Hell.
Out into God's sweet air we went,
....But not in wonted way,
For this man's face was white with fear,
....And that man's face was gray,
And I never saw sad men who looked
....So wistfully at the day.
I never saw sad men who looked
....With such a wistful eye
Upon that little tent of blue
....We prisoners called the sky,
And at every careless cloud that passed
....In happy freedom by.
But there were those amongst us all
....Who walked with downcast head,
And knew that, had each got his due,
....They should have died instead:
He had but killed a thing that lived,
....Whilst they had killed the dead.
For he who sins a second time
....Wakes a dead soul to pain,
And draws it from its spotted shroud,
....And makes it bleed again,
And makes it bleed great gouts of blood,
....And makes it bleed in vain!
Like ape or clown, in monstrous garb
....With crooked arrows starred,
Silently we went round and round
....The slippery asphalte yard;
Silently we went round and round,
....And no man spoke a word.
Silently we went round and round,
....And through each hollow mind
The Memory of dreadful things
....Rushed like a dreadful wind,
And Horror stalked before each man,
....And Terror crept behind.
The Warders strutted up and down,
....And kept their herd of brutes,
Their uniforms were spick and span,
....And they wore their Sunday suits,
But we knew the work they had been at,
....By the quicklime on their boots.
For where a grave had opened wide,
....There was no grave at all:
Only a stretch of mud and sand
....By the hideous prison-wall,
And a little heap of burning lime,
....That the man should have his pall.
For he has a pall, this wretched man,
....Such as few men can claim:
Deep down below a prison-yard,
....Naked for greater shame,
He lies, with fetters on each foot,
....Wrapt in a sheet of flame!
And all the while the burning lime
....Eats flesh and bone away,
It eats the brittle bone by night,
....And the soft flesh by day,
It eats the flesh and bones by turns,
....But it eats the heart alway.
For three long years they will not sow
....Or root or seedling there:
For three long years the unblessed spot
....Will sterile be and bare,
And look upon the wondering sky
....With unreproachful stare.
They think a murderer's heart would taint
....Each simple seed they sow.
It is not true! God's kindly earth
....Is kindlier than men know,
And the red rose would but blow more red,
....The white rose whiter blow.
Out of his mouth a red, red rose!
....Out of his heart a white!
For who can say by what strange way,
....Christ brings His will to light,
Since the barren staff the pilgrim bore
....Bloomed in the great Pope's sight?
But neither milk-white rose nor red
....May bloom in prison air;
The shard, the pebble, and the flint,
....Are what they give us there:
For flowers have been known to heal
....A common man's despair.
So never will wine-red rose or white,
....Petal by petal, fall
On that stretch of mud and sand that lies
....By the hideous prison-wall,
To tell the men who tramp the yard
....That God's Son died for all.
Yet though the hideous prison-wall
....Still hems him round and round,
And a spirit man not walk by night
....That is with fetters bound,
And a spirit may but weep that lies
....In such unholy ground,
He is at peace this wretched man
....At peace, or will be soon:
There is no thing to make him mad,
....Nor does Terror walk at noon,
For the lampless Earth in which he lies
....Has neither Sun nor Moon.
They hanged him as a beast is hanged:
....They did not even toll
A requiem that might have brought
....Rest to his startled soul,
But hurriedly they took him out,
....And hid him in a hole.
They stripped him of his canvas clothes,
....And gave him to the flies:
They mocked the swollen purple throat
....And the stark and staring eyes:
And with laughter loud they heaped the shroud
....In which their convict lies.
The Chaplain would not kneel to pray
....By this dishonoured grave
Nor mark it with that blessed Cross
....That Christ for sinners gave
Because the man was one of those
....Whom Christ came down to save.
Yet all is well;he has but passed
....To lifes appointed bourne
And alien tears will fill for him
....Pity's long-broken urn
For his mourner will be outcast men
....and outcast always mourn.
V
I know not whether Laws be right,
....Or whether Laws be wrong;
All that we know who lie in goal
....Is that the wall is strong;
And that each day is like a year,
....A year whose days are long.
But this I know, that every Law
....That men have made for Man,
Since first Man took his brother's life,
....And the sad world began,
But straws the wheat and saves the chaff
....With a most evil fan.
This too I know and wise it were
....If each could know the same
That every prison that men build
....Is built with bricks of shame,
And bound with bars lest Christ should see
....How men their brothers maim.
With bars they blur the gracious moon,
....And blind the goodly sun:
And they do well to hide their Hell,
....For in it things are done
That Son of God nor son of Man
....Ever should look upon!
The vilest deeds like poison weeds
....Bloom well in prison-air:
It is only what is good in Man
....That wastes and withers there:
Pale Anguish keeps the heavy gate,
....And the Warder is Despair.
For they starve the little frightened child
....Till it weeps both night and day:
And they scourge the weak, and flog the fool,
....And gibe the old and gray,
And some grow mad, and all grow bad,
....And none a word may say.
Each narrow cell in which we dwell
....Is a foul and dark latrine,
And the fetid breath of living Death
....Chokes up each grated screen,
And all, but Lust, is turned to dust
....In Humanity's machine.
The brackish water that we drink
....Creeps with a loathsome slime,
And the bitter bread they weigh in scales
....Is full of chalk and lime,
And Sleep will not lie down, but walks
....Wild-eyed, and cries to Time.
But though lean Hunger and green Thirst
....Like asp with adder fight,
We have little care of prison fare,
....For what chills and kills outright
Is that every stone one lifts by day
....Becomes one's heart by night.
With midnight always in one's heart,
....And twilight in one's cell,
We turn the crank, or tear the rope,
....Each in his separate Hell,
And the silence is more awful far
....Than the sound of a brazen bell.
And never a human voice comes near
....To speak a gentle word:
And the eye that watches through the door
....Is pitiless and hard:
And by all forgot, we rot and rot,
....With soul and body marred.
And thus we rust Life's iron chain
....Degraded and alone:
And some men curse, and some men weep,
....And some men make no moan:
But God's eternal Laws are kind
....And break the heart of stone.
And every human heart that breaks,
....In prison-cell or yard,
Is as that broken box that gave
....Its treasure to the Lord,
And filled the unclean leper's house
....With the scent of costliest nard.
Ah! happy day they whose hearts can break
....And peace of pardon win!
How else may man make straight his plan
....And cleanse his soul from Sin?
How else but through a broken heart
....May Lord Christ enter in?
And he of the swollen purple throat,
....And the stark and staring eyes,
Waits for the holy hands that took
....The Thief to Paradise;
And a broken and a contrite heart
....The Lord will not despise.
The man in red who reads the Law
....Gave him three weeks of life,
Three little weeks in which to heal
....His soul of his soul's strife,
And cleanse from every blot of blood
....The hand that held the knife.
And with tears of blood he cleansed the hand,
....The hand that held the steel:
For only blood can wipe out blood,
....And only tears can heal:
And the crimson stain that was of Cain
....Became Christ's snow-white seal.
VI
In Reading gaol by Reading town
....There is a pit of shame,
And in it lies a wretched man
....Eaten by teeth of flame,
In burning winding-sheet he lies,
....And his grave has got no name.
And there, till Christ call forth the dead,
....In silence let him lie:
No need to waste the foolish tear,
....Or heave the windy sigh:
The man had killed the thing he loved,
....And so he had to die.
And all men kill the thing they love,
....By all let this be heard,
Some do it with a bitter look,
....Some with a flattering word,
The coward does it with a kiss,
....The brave man with a sword!
Bibliographic Notes:
First published in 1898, as a book.. The first six editions were published under the pseudonym of C.3.3
(Wilde's cell block number at the gaol); later editions added Wilde's name.The "C.T.W"; of the dedication, and the subject of the poem, was Charles Thomas Wooldridge.
