Catching Up

February 11, 1998

Things with Jevim and I are better... I was an emotional mess all day Monday because he never got online until evening, and I thought maybe he was avoiding me. But we talked again Monday night, and he told me that he had had 2 families after him when he was young, trying to "recruit" him, and so he thinks of Christianity as a cult. The cult part didn't sit very well with me, and he tried to explain why he saw it that way, but I was being stubborn and bullheaded ("Okay, fine, Christianity is a cult, so that makes me a cult member"), and he wound up running offline.

Unlike him though, I grabbed the phone, headed out to the living room (Connie was still here and in my bedroom), and called him. I don't know how long we were on the phone, and I don't know how much I said or that was heard through my sobs and tears (I get really upset when I think I am losing him), but we eventually got things sorted out... he says he thinks he can get used to the idea, but it's going to take some time.

I'm not going to push him on the matter, I just didn't like the way he pushed me away when I said the "C" word, and that had stopped. It hurt that he would think I would let that come between us, that he wouldn't take my word for it when I promised I wasn't going to try to convert him, and that a year and four months (according to him) of being together wasn't enough proof. I guess it's just going to take more time.

Anyway,... Connie and I were lazy bums yesterday because I was tired when I got up in the morning to chat with Jevim, and I never got a chance to go back to sleep, because Connie was up by time he left. We had rented 4 movies on Monday, and only watched the first one, Contact, the night before. So we watched movies, and ate, and cross-stitched, then Connie ran the movies back and we came back in my room to watch Babylon 5 and for me to wait for Jevim.

Jevim and I chatted on and off til midnight my time. He was working on wiring a project for one of his classes, and was away from the keys most of the time, but I kept him company, or tried to. When he said he was going to stay up and try to finish his project when it was already midnight here, I told him I'd talk to him in the morning. When I got up this morning, I had a message from him written around 2:15 his time, saying he was done and going to bed. Much to my surprise, he was online when I hopped on at 8:30 his time.

Connie had to go home today, so she packed her things while Jevim and I chatted (he had a 10am class today so he didn't stay online terribly long), then I got dressed, and she ran me out to the bank and the post office, then brought me back home and came in so I could give her some photos I wanted her to scan (actually, I forgot to send some to Jevim in his package today, so hopefully he can see them this way, until he gets here in March. Or maybe I'll just send him a couple in a card.

Once Connie left, I didn't know what to do. I wound up taking a bath, but didn't even have the energy to wash my hair and all that fun stuff, and I didn't feel like reading the book I'd brought in with me. I crawled out, played a bit more Civilization II that I had fired up when Connie left, had some lunch, then went to sleep. I woke up about an hour ago, when I dreamt that I got an ICQ message saying Jevim was online. Sure enough, he was.

I've cleaned out the four litter boxes, fed the cats, gotten the mail, and put some dishes to soak thus far. I still have a lot to do, and I haven't even considered tackling the homework I am so far behind in. It just feels like this great big barrel is rolling down the hill, threatening to overtake me.... it was worse before I did the few chores that are now done... but I think I can make it if I just tackle a bit at a time.

I just now realized I still need to update my Money file with all the money I've spent this past four days. Way too much, but I figure I probably won't spend very much the rest of the time Mom is gone, so it's no big deal.

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