Thursday, June 18, 1998
8:45 AM
Seems like this week has really disappeared on me... you might have noticed the last bit of my last entry was rather distant; Jev and I were having some major communication problems, and I didn't want to get into it at all. I ended up writing a private entry for myself, by streetlight coming in the window after we'd gone to bed, and eventually, we got things sorted out.
Tuesday I just worked on my cross stitch most of the day, and then we went out to dinner at Ricky's Rice Bowl, looked around for a while at Borders books, then went to CompUSA. I bought a solitaire game there, and wound up playing that all day yesterday. I didn't even go downstairs and eat lunch, which turned out to be a dumb thing to do. We went to the Hard Times Cafe for dinner (their menu consists of chili, served about a dozen different ways), and while it tasted good, it wasn't really the best thing on an empty stomach.
We ended up coming home a bit earlier than we might have otherwise, when my body started paying me back for the abuse: a caffeine withdrawal headache, an upset stomach, and just generally feeling stuffed and yucky. Jev hunted down a convenience store that carried 3 Musketeers and bought me one of those and a bottle of Lipton raspberry tea, which took care of the caffeine problem, and then a couple ibuprofen relaxed me enough so I could sleep.
Yes, I'm eating lunch today, and making sure I get my diet Pepsi fix!
After stormy weather at the beginning of the week, it's been nice the past couple days. That is, if you don't mind temps in the mid eighties and a dash of humidity thrown in for good measure. I mind, but I'll live. I like my sunshine, but I'd be much more comfortable if it were about ten degrees cooler. What can I say, I'm spoiled!
Before my stomach got the better of me last night, we did make it to Computer City, and I saw a graphics tablet I'd love to have. I didn't want to spend my cash on it though, so I think I'll call Mom after a bit and see if the VISA bill has come in yet. If it has (it should have), I should know if I can afford to charge it for next month.
11:25 AM
ARGH! I'm having a bad computer day! After finally finding a CD with IE 4.0 that would actually install, it still didn't install it correctly. *sigh* I think I'll quit while I"m still ahead.
7:30 PM
We're not talking again. This time because I contradicted what he said. It wasn't intentional, and I think he mistook what I said, but I apologized anyway. He's mad, and I'm getting tired of having to be the one to figure out how to fix what's wrong, or to bear the blame. Mostly I'm just tired.
It seems like we've hardly gone a day without getting upset with one another, and I don't know why. I don't think we had any problems when he was in Missouri with me, so what's wrong now?
The cold, logical part of me says I should call and find out how much it would cost to change my booking and go home sooner; this weekend, if possible. But, of course, another part says to go down (he's watching TV in the living room) and apologize again and get this all worked out. I really don't know which side to listen to; I know that what we have is something special and I shouldn't just throw it away, but . . . It's been really frustrating lately
