Keeping Busy

March 30, 1998

Well, I've been meaning to do it for quite a while now, and I finally got a start on it today. What, you ask? I've started HTMLizing with style... a story that I wrote several years ago. I'm posting it on my Library site. If you want to take a look, the story index is here.

I had fun playing with CSS (Cascading Style Sheets), and it looks best in IE 4.0 if you should be so inclined as to look, but it should be quite readable in just about any browser. I started a CSS class last week , and while I've had them a bit before in another class, this one should be more in-depth. Anyway, I wound up researching a few things on my own that we haven't covered yet, and I rather surprised myself with the result.

Earlier this evening, the local station's weathercaster broke into the scheduled programming to announce tornado watches for several counties, including the one I live in. Right now there is thunder and lightning going on outside, but I don't hear any rain. As long as it doesn't knock me offline or knock out the power, I don't mind the light and sound show. I could do without the tornadoes though, if anyone upstairs is listening. Why of course, as soon as I type that, the thunder moves closer, and the wind starts driving the rain against my window... oh well. Gonna be an interesting night.

I finally decided to do something about my growing weight problem. I've gotten to the point where my brand new jeans are getting snug (I do believe I'm hearing hail), and I really can't afford to grow out of all my clothes. So I've decided to try to watch what I eat a little better, stop eating at the computer alltogether, and start having meals out in the dining room instead of here in my bedroom. I'd like to start getting out and taking walks or something, weather permitting, it's just a little hard to drag myself away from the computer. Addicted? Not me! (Wanna buy a bridge?)

I did step on the scale yesterday, and I've gained some twenty pounds or so since I moved from California to Missouri, mostly in the past year. Not good when I was only 105 to start with. Mom was just saying the other day if I had my full height (5'4" instead of 4'9") I'd be just about perfect. But unfortunately, I don't have those extra inches, so I'm more than a little 'cuddly' this way. Jevim doesn't complain, and he's said that he doesn't want me doing this on my account, but as of late my knees have started bothering me, due to the weight I'm sure, and I want to do it for myself. Wish me luck! Most of all, wish me stick-to-itness!

Well... the storm passed as quickly as it came, and I and my computer are no worse for the wear. It was actually quite a nice day today. The sun came out for a while, and things are starting to turn green again. The daffodils have bloomed, and the lawn had grown enough that Mom called the lawn man to come mow it this afternoon. It looks like spring is really here, but knowing Missouri weather, we may just get one more dump of snow before it really turns warm.

Today was a good day, and I hope tonight is as nice; it's a pleasant change after the past week or so. Jev and I had some misunderstandings last night, and getting them all sorted out was not fun at all. I still feel bad about it, since I was the one who started the whole mess, but I can't undo the past, and he hasn't said anything at all about it this evening.

There were times last night when part of me just wanted to let it all go; when it hurts that bad, sometimes I don't see the sense in hanging on. I came close to dropping my connection a couple times, but I didn't, and he eventually told me just what he was wanting, which I couldn't figure out.

Well, I just shared my last couple paragraphs with Jevim, and tried to discuss things with him, only to succeed in upsetting him. *sigh* He'd had a bad day, which he hadn't told me about, and my attempt at discussion apparently felt like the last straw. I have such a knack for bad timing. Anyway, I think things are once more on the mend, and tonight's somewhat spoiled evening is 100% my fault. Of course, last night is probably about 95% my fault too, so I'm not sure if I'm getting better or worse.

Enough about that. Like I told Jev, there is just a part of me that wanted some answers and some ideas of how to prevent another repeat of last night, to give me some sort of emotional armor. His response was that probably the only real solution would be to be able to talk things out face to face, which is terribly hard to do when you're about a thousand miles apart. Admittedly, talking on the phone might have helped, but it's very hard to understand someone when they are trying to talk through tears on the phone, and I think we were both in that state last night.

See what a wonderful life I lead? Long distance relationships definitely have their ups and downs. Would I give it up, though? No way!

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