My feelings about the JWs have changed drastically though in the last several years.  I married into a family that is basically JW.  When I first met my husbands family they seemed warm and caring, I thought they would accept me unconditionally,  I found that they only way they would truly accept me was if I converted to being JW.  I also found that when I did not convert to being JW my husband who was raised JW became very critical of me. My husband was in the process of becoming fully JW when we met.  He was having a JW Bible study and since we were getting serious I sat in on his study for several months.  I did not convert though and they must have suspected from the beginning that I would never convert.  The man conducting my husband's Bible study warned my husband before our marriage that marriage outside of his JW faith was bound to cause us problems.

Though I had been married before I never knew a marriage could be so plagued with problems from the start.  For the first several years I walked on egg shells never knowing what would set my husband off.  He was restless and moody and very negative.  At first I did not associate his mood swings with his JW beliefs.  But as time when on I did, I also noticed he was more moody and critical of me after being around his JW family.  After more time I also noticed that his family took an active part in trying to cause marriage problems for us.  His family would tell him he should not listen to me in family matters.  They would tell him that since I was not in the truth that he should not let his own wife influence him!

After several family crisis with his family I believe my husband began to question some of the JW teaching and their affects on his family.  He quit having his JW bible study about 4 years ago. He still struggles with guilt over this from time to time, but has come along way in leaning how to function without the WT.  We as a couple still struggle because the JW belief system is still so deeply embedded with in my husband.  I know as time goes on and he functions in a normal relationship for once in his life he will continue to grow as a person and spiritually.