Dear God,

I have so many unanswered questions that I can't seem to answer myself. I know that everything that is happening to me is happening for a reason........I just pray to you that you will help calm my pain and anger and also that you you will be with me through everything. Because I can't get by on my own without you..........

I also thank you so much for bringing Denise to me for my best friend. I'd be in alot worse shape if I didn't have Denise here to listen to me when I cry. I just hope that I'm being a best friend in return to her. I pray that you will help me handle this situation in the best way I can in the most mature and responsible way. I pray that whatever it takes for me to get through this, I'll do it no matter what it is.

I realize that you have much better plans for my life that don't include pain or anger. If I just keep that in mind then it will get me through anything. Give me peace in my heart so that I can be calm and rational about things. I pray that I won't act on my emotions and do something stupid. I pray that through this you will make me stronger and help me to control my emotions.

I'm so thankful that I am able to sit here and explain all my problems to you (even though you already know everything). I'm sorry for having had and still have doubts about what's going to happen. Because even though I may not like what happens, there is no way I can change what actually does happen. Once again please ease my pain and work everything out according to your will.

Psalm 57:1

Have mercy on me, O God,
have mercy on me,
for in you my soul takes refuge.
I will take refuge in
the shadow of your wings
until the disaster is passed.

Psalm 15: 2-5

He whose walk is blameless
and who does what is righteous,
who speaks the truth from his heart
and has no slander on his tongue,
who does his neighbor no wrong
and casts no slur on his fellow man,
who despises a vile man
but honors those who fear the Lord,
who keeps his oath
even when it hurts
who lends his money without usury
and does not accept a bribe
against the innocent
He who does these things
will never be shaken.

Psalm 16:2

You are my Lord,
apart from you I have no good thing.

Psalm 18:2b

My God is my rock in whom I take refuge.
He is my shield and the horn of my
salvation, my stronghold.

Psalm 18:28

You, O Lord, keep my lamp burning;
my God turns my darkness to light.

Psalm 19:14

May the words of my mouth
and the meditations of my heart
be pleasing in your sight.

Psalm 23

The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not be in want,
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
He leads me beside quiet waters,
He restores my soul.
He guides me in the paths of righteousness,
for His name sake.

Even though I walk through the valley
of the shadow of death
I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.......
.......Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life and
I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.