bryan is back with his girlfriend. deep down, i think i knew it was gonna happen. i just wanted to deny it. i got mad at him.. he never really responded. he said he was going to respond. but he was tired of responding to "emails like that" and that "he didn't want to give the same answer yet again". so i guess in that subtle little way, he's saying that he'll never like me.
he's so hung up on his girlfriend that he can't see anyone else. it's sorta how i see him.
i told him that i was sorry for being a burden. he said i wasn't. i said i probably wouldn't see him over the summer....and that i was tired of making a fool out of myself. he said that i wasn't making a fool out of myself.. and that we'd see each other because we both have passes to the amusement park. i didn't talk to him for a week... completely ignored him. i wrote to him and told him that i was sorry. he read it and didn't write back. i wrote again asking if he wasn't accepting my apology. he asked, "why are you apologizing for liking me?". he just does not get it. i know i still like him... but i'm not sure if it's that same kind of like. he's not the same bryan. i guess we're still friends... but i'm not going out of my way anymore just to talk to him. i don't need him. if he wants to get together over the summer, it will be because he initiated it.. not me, at all.
on another note.....
i went out to dinner with my parents and brother for father's day. we went to the olive garden. it was weird.... our waitress... she was the homecoming queen when i was a freshman. amazing where she ended up.... i said hey.. and i dunno if she recognized me or not... oh well.. prolly not.. but whatever..
i have to start packing for my trip to europe. :) i'm so excited now.. i want to go... i want to get away from this state.. and the people(okay, bryan)... i want him to wonder where i am. ...haha.. as if he would. whatever.
