now's the time when this will turn to fruit
all the poppies gonna push up through
and i can see the ground below
the places that i know, disappearing
and i can see the winter fade
i don't feel so afraid, it's clearing
what a feeling
what a feeling
life is only half way in our hands
years have passed while i was making plans
and i could never find the words
i always felt absurd and always outside
but now i know i shouldn't care
there's a song already there
waiting inside
what a feeling
what a feeling
and i can feel the clock unwind
the parts of me i tied are running
and all the birds are in my head
the laughter that was dead is coming
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oooooh, what a feeling.
well, i did it.
i told bryan again how much i like him... and practically begged for another chance. but i did it the cowardly way. i wrote it in a note... had it all set to give it to him... boosted myself up to the state i needed to be in to give it to him.... and then as he passed me in the hall... i just let him go.... he went to his locker.. and was swarmed with freshmen all around him. ugh. so aggravating.
so when i got home, i went to the computer, wrote him an email with the same exact stuff.... sent it.. and thought that he probably wouldn't read it 'till sunday...he hasn't come online a lot lately. but.. he read it. figures.. the one day he decides to come on. arrrgh. oh well. at least it's out. this is my final time.. i mean, if he rejects me now... i'm through. i'm so tired of getting hurt. he doesn't deserve all of this unrequited devotion.
he read it, but has not responded... so maybe i have my answer already. or maybe i'll never know. aye.
i was having a good day too. i went with lola to the mall to pick up my paycheck... she took me home... i got tutored... and then she picked me up afterwards and we went over to a friend's house to watch baseketball. it was so funny. road kill on tape... that's hilarious... god.. how cruel tho. hehe... it was still funny. you could tell they were fake animals anyways. ;)
i'm impatiently waiting for a response of some sort. but maybe his ignoring the email is a response. maybe it's a no.
