for my birthday, my friends surprised me with a big of a party. we had fun drinking and stuff.....lola and luna got me a pair of cool pants... i got money.. which i've already spent...and i got a rock from the riviera from zoe. :)
oh did you hear? beanie babies are gonna be gone soon! or at least i hope. yay!
i am no longer an employee of pacific sunwear. i quit. the manager was a major asshole. he was like.. a woodstock reject or something... god i hate has-beens.
bryan and his girlfriend broke up.. yay! i'm glad about it... i hope that bryan is better off.
i start school back up in like.. less than a week. in a way, i'm excited... cause it'll be my last year... but in other ways.. i'm wishing i could go back to the beginning of the summer... god no... back to last summer... maybe i could change the way i acted with bryan...
speaking of bryan...
i had emailed him one friday night.. saying that if he had nothing to do saturday night to give me a call... i went online saturday.. talked to him.. he hadn't said anything about going anywhere with me.. so i figured he was busy.. but i got offline.. and like.. 5 minutes later he called me... we talked for ten minutes.. then i asked him what he wanted... and he said that he was gonna ask me wheni was online, but i signed off too quick...so, i guess i initiated it sorta-kinda... but he called me. :)
so we went out bowling... we played two games... he beat me in both.. my high score was 105.. his...193. lucky jerkface. his fingers started to blister... and mine started to hurt cause i always throw the ball funny.
the whole time... i just kept thinking how perfect things would be. like... if we were together.. this would be THE perfect date...PERFECT.
anyways, after we left the bowling alley... i let him drive my car... oh.. i drove by the way.. hehe.... he drove us to a cd store... and looked at games.. and cds... and i followed him around..
i drove to his house... right when i turned onto his street i was like, "to your house?" and he said "i guess...unless you can think of something better." something like that...
i pulled into his driveway... and i decided i wanted to drive his car... i got in.. adjusted the seat and rear-view mirror, cause i'm like.. way shorter than he is... i love driving his car.. the pick-up is so much better.. and the brakes work good... i dunno.
i started driving.. didn't know where i was going. he suggested going to get ice cream.. i didn't see anything wrong with the idea.. so i drove towards the place... i saw my friend paul in the car next to us.. but that was after making fun of the kid in his passenger seat for his hat.. i had no idea who it was till bryan said it was him... haha.
i made it to the ice cream place, parked(horribly), and we got out and went in...
we waited to be seated... but i saw a girl i knew from school. i didn't really know she worked there... i said hey.. did small talk and stuff... she pointed out her car that was parked in the lot.
we sat down and looked at the menu... we both got the same sundae... reese's pieces sundae.. yummy. :)
bryan had to go to the bathroom... he always seems to go to the bathroom when we go there for ice cream.. haha.. but i only have 2 instances to base this conclusion on.. it's not very reliable.
he came back and i joke around with him about washing his hands... we got our sundaes... and attempted to make a dent in the huge things.... eek. it was a big sundae.. i felt like i was gonna be sick...we talked about college... and then about tying cherry stems with your tongue.. lol... don't ask..
we finished and then got the check... it was like... 8 bucks or so... he payed... i left the tip...
it could have been SUCH A PERFECT DATE. but it wasnt'. ::sigh::
he drove his car home... but that was after i had to search everywhere for my keys... they were in the backseat of his car. a duh. so anyways...we got to his house.. his mom was outside waiting with the dog... i think she was looking at my car.
his mom is so nice.. i mean.. i only got to talk to her like.. a total of 3 times..but she just seems like such a great person..
i got out of his car... said hello and smiled... and then told ryan that i was gonna go home... got in my car.. beeped the horn.. and left.
he left his bowling ball in my backseat. so he called the next day and i took it over. it's funny.. i got all excited because he sorta called me out of nowhere... but it was just for his ball. i was going out with another friend anyways.. but when i dropped his ball off..i asked him what he was doing.. and he didn't know.. so i said i would call him before me and my friend actually went to the movie. eventually, i ended up back over there with my friend in the car... so i just stopped by. he said that he was gonna go to his friend's house... or something.. and i was like, "you don't want to see the movie with us?" and he said that he wanted to, but he had already had plans.. and i was like "well, ok... we've got the movie to see, and you've got plans.. so we'll be going now."
the whole the discouraged me.
but today i talked to jules... i haven't talked to her in such a long time! she's moving.. and is busy... we talked about bryan... and her boyfriend.. and moving... etc. she says that bryan and i have a lot of "sexual tension". and that he likes me... but there's just so much tension... she told me that i should ask bryan to the prom now. lol.. at first i thought she was just mocking me because i was venting.. but i think she was kinda serious. she said i should reserve him. :) maybe i will.. but he just broke up wit his girlfriend like.. 2 weeks ago.
ohhh.. i like him soooo much.
this saturday, lola got a bunch of people together, and hopefully, we'll go bowling.. that should be fun. i asked bryan if he's going .. he said "yeah, definitely." :)
and last night his now ex-girlfriend was yelling at him.. and they were fighting.. so he said to meet him to play blackjack on some game thing online... we played for a while.. but then i went broke.. and he got tired... and he was like.. "im' soooo tired" so i told him to go to sleep... he said that i would get mad at him for leaving....but i said.. "since when do you care" ... i forget what he said after that...
oh well...
i'm scared... one day he's gonna find this page... and what if he doesn't like what he reads. what if he's reading this right now!? i want him to like me so much.. i'd give anything for him to like me back... ::sigh::
