well.. hm. i think as of january 17th... bryan and i are together...
let's see... saturday the 15th, we were hanging out at my house.. and we kissed when he said he had to go.. and the next day we were at my house.. and it went a little further.. but it was soo nice... and i think that i really really really like him... not that i didn't before..
so much has happened in this past week and a half that it seems like it's been a year... we're moving so fast.. and i don't think i want to slow down at all.. but i can't help but feel that i'm annoying him.. i'm always touching him.. and i always want to kiss him.. and just... everything.. well.. not everything.. but you know.
right now, we're just babbling to each other.. and it's good clean fun... but i just feel unsure about myself when it comes to guys...
i just keep thinking that i'm a huge pest.. and i asked him if i was annoying.. and he said no... my dog might be annoying.. but not me... and i think i even annoyed him when i asked him if i was annoying... arrgh.. i dunno. i'm just an affectionate person i guess.. and i don't know if he likes that or not... he never says anything... but then again.. neither do i. but yeah.. i'm happy. i'm good.. it feels great to be with him.. he's made me so happy in the past week.. and i wonder how happy i'm going to be a month.. or a year down the road... assuming that we last that long.. and we can survive the separation of college... even though i'd probably come home, like every weekend. NYC isn't THAT far away from where i live.. and i want to go to NYC so bad... ugh.. anyways.. i think i'm falling in love with him.. but i have no idea how he feels.. i mean.. i know he likes me... and i dont' want to push him to feel anything for me.. i'm not doing anything to pressure him.. at least i hope i'm not... ugh.. i'm babbling.. look at this.. i'm making a fool of myself!! .. okay.. bye now.
