but it has gone from me to you. thought you'd take care of it, as i had done, but now you've got two hearts, and i have none.
(9:55pm EST) 8/4/02
i haven't written in forever. i dont know if a switch inside me turned off or what. maybe someday i'll let someone that i really care about read this. but then again.. i might be closed off from everyone forever. for the past two years i've been in manhattan. art school. graduated. now i'm going into accessories design. i was going out with a guy named mike. 6'4... strong. i used to be able to look into his eyes and see everything that mattered to me. for the past ten months or so, i stared into his eyes.. believed he loved me. yeah.. we had our break ups. our fights. but after we fought i always still felt safe in his arms. sleeping so calmly with him next to me. it's been a month since i've even seen him.. and now that everything has happened, i think it's going to be even longer.
this isn't much of an update. i still feel as if i haven't changed. i'm the same boring person i always have been.
