4/10/98 well, through this life that i have been through...i've determined a few things. one of them is to never get your heart involved with anything. anyways, i know you like my new look for this page. it's much more easier to keep up. not so many prissy little pictures of fairies...i kept the old entries like that tho. i figure...why mess with the past? and besides...you can see an improvement between what this page is now and what it was. so...what else would ajay be doing at 5am?...sure as hell not sleeping! oh well. it's enough gratification to see if this page actually looks good. bryan..hmm..that's another thing. i used to think that i'd love this guy in a heartbeat...but now i'm not so sure. he's good as a friend...but i'm not sure if i want to screw up our friendship and make it more. jules says it's obvious that i like him...wouldn't it just be so goddamned ironic if he liked me right when i started not liking him? that sounds so middle schoolish...but i can't help it. i'm way afraid of change...and even more afraid of rejection. bryan is very cool...and maybe in a few years...he'll be attractive to me again...not that he isn't now...but i like him as a friend. anna and jules said that we would make a cute couple..but that just makes me feel even weirder. so i've made a list for you all to follow religiously..if anyone reads this hehe..
1. Never involve your heart where it shouldn't be
2. Love someone for who they are and not what they could be
3. Listen to yourself and forget about opinions of others
4. Never say anything that you'll regret...and if you slip...be sure your knees are in good shape cause you'll be begging to make things good again
5. never eat something with mustard and then take nyquil...bad combo
6. get sleep...it does help, ya know
7. drink milk...it's not so bad with some chocolate syrup
8. cherish friends while you still have them...one day you will be in a nursing home and wish that you still had your best friend to talk to...chess gets boring alone
9. people with tattoos aren't freaks...they're just expressing their personality on their skin
10. never use one of those little pink razors with the daisies...they can kill your legs
11. and finally...just relax :o)
