4/21/98 well, today i went to nyc! it was so cool...i loved it the minute the bus entered into the huge crowds of taxis and flippin' off people. haha i found it all amusing. we were supposed to stay in the museum...actually they never said anything about going out...so we took advantage of this lack of information and took it upon ourselves to "take a journey" through the streets of new york. new york has an overly odd smell to it...jules is right...it does smell of piss and cigarettes.
well, i'm still confused about my feelings for bryan. i dont' know if i like him or if i hate him. i mean, he's alright to talk to, but when i compare him to some other guys, he just doesn't even challege some. like, i need a guy that can talk...have a somewhat intelligent conversation with. and some of bryan's qualities bother me. right now, he's good as a friend, until he's around some other girl and i get insanely jealous...it always happens like that. i'm mad...not mad as in angry...mad as in nuts...loco in da cabeza or something. well, i don't want to stay on long enough to where bryan comes on and he messages me...
