5/29/98 i gave my doggy a bath. i'm so proud of myself..she smells so good..in a dog-like way. and i took her for a walk. makes me feel good because i am sorta her original owner..she's my dog..and i hardly take care of her. she loves my dad more..i can accept it..i ignored her for most of her life. i thought it was cool when i was 4 to take care of a cute 4 legged furry thing. the trend slowly passed...but i still love her. sometimes i love her more than some of my family members...which if you're a normal reader..you'll know who.
man, i should be busy tonight. i should have gotten something together. but the whole day was sorta wasted. i thought bryan was mad at me...and he thought i was mad at him...so it turned into this whole crossfire deal. jules, zoe, and ed are all not on. they must have gotten something to do. lucky ones.
i have this strange feeling that bryan reads this...so i might be moving again sometime soon. bryan, if you do read this...leave now. it's enough to even come to my page but to read my journal?? that's wrong...i put a lot of private crap in here...haha amazing how i can share my 'private' stuff with the entire internet community...but byran's different. he has to guess what's going on in my mind...not just read it like it's a goddamned instruction booklet.
party on sunday...in a way, i can't wait. i think it'd be cool to hang out with everyone...and tom's(andra's "man") mom is so funny. she cracks me up in a second. mostly sexual jokes and stuff...but that's the strong point in my sense of humor.
i'm such a horrible person sometimes. i ruined bryan's day, i yelled at my grandmother, i got a D in geometry..and i've been beating myself up for that one. i'll probably be getting a C in that class...figures. i really want a B...i really need a B. my grades are suffering so much. i used to be a good student..good grades..the whole shpeel. now...without my grades...what the hell good am i?
