6/6/98 aaaah. yesterday was nice. we(bryan, andra, and moi) went to see the perfect murder. the movie sucked, but i had a nice time. bryan grabbed my hand...and it was just...nice. sweet...almost perfect, even. he did this thing with his thumb...he like ran his finger up and down my hand. it sounds sorta disgusting when i say it, but oh well. i felt bad that andra was just sitting there the whole time...but she said not to worry. tonight her and tom are having a little night alone..which got screwed up at the last minute. tom's truck broke down and he had to come later...which means that andra's parents will be home. bummer. until now, i haven't talked to bryan all day. i missed him.
things at school are hectic again. a lot of shit has been happening for a numerous amount of reasons...i really don't feel like typing it...it's not even worth a thought. i just hate wasted ambitions for school and for family. everyone but a few people have been pissing me off lately. and i wish i could say i didn't care and shrug it off, but i'm not able to do that.
i got the new smashing pumpkins...adore that is. a lot of good songs..in fact, most of them are great. "tuesdays come and gone, restless still i drive, try to leave it all behind, fallin', fallin' out of sleep, fallin' fallin' with the leaves, i go crawlin', crawlin' over me. once upon a time in my life i went falling. Mother i hope you know that i miss you so, time has ravaged on my soul, to wipe a mothers tears grown cold."
i also got my own 'surfacing' cd so now i can give zoe back hers. i also have to give zoe back her austin powers tape. oooops. i've borrowed it for a long time. ugh...i always forget to give things back...
