(5:58am EST) 7/10/98
wow...i've neglected my journal. oh well. you'll live, i'm sure. me on the other hand...i'm not so sure. i've had such an unbearably shitty week. i don't feel like discussing it...but it involves bryan coming home...and me being a bitch...and him being an asshole. almost makes me think we're perfect for each other. i'm sorry to say it, but sometimes i wish he'd go away for good. i don't feel like talking to him sometimes. i want to just come online..check out a few pages, sign a guestbook or two, chat with lola, andra, luna, trent, trace, jules, zoe or whoever else is on...and then leave...
hmm...there's a birds' nest in our hanging plant on our house's porch. it's so cute..we have to take the plant down to water it and the mother bird hovers close to the plant...making sure we dont touch her eggs.
i am so not into taking the PSAT's on saturday. i want to just be a vegatable. today i'm going to an amusement park with lola...i tried to get a hold of more people to go, but lola and i always end up having a good time.
since i've neglected to actually write something meaningful for the past...MONTH....i'll try this time.
i'm going to make this entry a sort of tribute to my close friends...
----lola
you know you're cool. hanging out with you is always fun. we go through male problems together and just badmouth 'em after we're done being depressed.
----luna
haven't seen much of you lately. i hope you're doing well in your school thing. and i know you have a test this morning so i wish you luck. you're one of the nicest people i have ever known...you let me eat all your ice cream. :)
----bryan
through all the good and bad...you are still and hopefully always will be a good friend to me. i put you through shit...and it's hard to talkto you because of certain circumstances...but i love you. a friend love. :) not that kinda thing. and even though you're probably not gonna read this...at least i hope you wont...and if you do you know i'd kick your ass....i want everyone to know that you're really sweet...just maybe not for me.
----andra
jeez...complaining and whining... :) your two best skills. hehe..nah i'm only jerking yer chain. you've become a great friend this year...we've hung out...discussed all sorts of things...painted nails. hehe.
----jules
i haven't seen you since my dance recital. figures that once my friends get to come see me, i fall. oh well... i really do miss you. we never talk anymore...we're going to drift...i can tell.
----zoe
i haven't really talked to you either...you probably won't read this... ugh. you are a really smart and special person...and you deserve everything that you will earn...you've been a good friend...and hopefully still will be in the future.
----trace
hey bub. haven't talked to you in a while...you talk to sean yet? garsh..you better soon...before he gets hit by a bus sorry... you better talk to me soon.
----anyone else that might feel left out
if you're reading this, you're already great in my book.
