(1:16am EST) 7/13/98
hmm..here i am...1am...chewing winterfresh that has lost its flavor a long time ago, thinking about how lonely i feel, listening to 'clumsy' by our lady peace repeated over and over and over, wearing great sweat pants, a sailor moon t-shirt with my brothers ski sweater over it, and typing about my life/non-life. whichever suits me.
loneliness can be a sane person's worst nightmare. well...if you can clinically call me sane..i guess you could..most of the time.
i went to the amusement park with lola. i had lots of fun...riding roller coasters left and right....but the water park... :(
there were so many good-looking lifeguards..and all i could help but think is "man, i'd never have a chance with one of those guys unless they were blind". ::sighs::
maybe i should just be thankful that bryan is interested in me..but i have the thought in the back of my head...what if while i'm with him...i miss out on someone else? i don't really believe in the soul mate thing...but i do believe that you meet that special person eventually...and it's up to you to make things happen...not for a twist of nature to occur and BOOM! you're married to the person.
anyways, i think i did really bad on the SAT's. thank god you can take 'em again....
