20 June 1999

For this entire month, I found it very hard to work on 'DI' ('Divine Indulgences' - what this homepage used to be known as) anymore - oddly, I was overcome by an overwhelming disgust over the period of my life when I was associated with that scumbug of a man. Yes, I have gotten over my misery, pain, desolation, despair, anger and outrage even. Now, I either get nauseous thinking about what happened or I just feel sorry for him - that he has to deal with his narcissism and psychological disfunctions and live a less-than-fulfilling life until his demise. I don't envy him this kind of horrible existence. But what's most important is, I can detach myself from the past and have learnt tons about deceitful, evil people as well as the love of God, family and friends from what happened. Though I have lost a lot of material things and my savings and income from the 'domino effect', I have new things and more importantly, a new life to look forward to. :)

Well, here I am again, stronger than ever, ready to take on the challenges of being a nurse. I thought it'd be interesting to keep an online journal documenting a student nurse's journey so you can be with me as I slowly wade through the obstacles, the challenges and the trials. Wouldn't it be interesting to read of my first time in the ward doing my rounds, my first encounter caring for a critically-ill patient, and my first time in the operating theatre? :)

I knew that when I was surfing the web for information on nursing and how a nurse's life would be like when I was considering nursing as a career, I'd wished there was a site with an online journal kept by a nursing student but I never found such a site. So, I was wondering, why not start one myself? Besides, I was getting a little tired of the style I used in 'DI', which I increasingly found to be too gaudy and fussy for my liking. :P Plus, to me, it was 'messy' ... and I hate being disorganised ... so it was a natural thing to revamp it totally and at the same time, keep and continue with what's worth it and trash the undesirable features.

So, what do I have... 1.5 weeks till nursing school starts on 1 July. :) It's an exciting period for me! I've gotten my schoolbag ready, I've bought my 'Back to School' wardrobe, I'm still scouting for a suitable wallet because my current wallet is too large and somewhat inappropriate for school (looks too 'corporate'-like!), and I've even gotten my hairstylist to modify my haircut a bit because I'll be tying up my hair more whilst in school. Wow... the last time I french-plaited my hair was when I was in college, which was... wow! almost a decade ago! I don't want to stick out from the young crowd on campus like a sore thumb so I have to try and look young again. (Most of the other students on campus would be 17 or 19.) The encouraging thing was, I wore one of my new outfits to church yesterday evening (I prefer to attend the Saturday evening service as it is less crowded) and my friend complimented me, saying that I look 22! Wheeee!!!

For all you know, being older and more experienced and ahem!... worldly-wise (gee, somebody is being modest today! :P) than my faculty mates can have its advantages too. I just have to stop thinking and feeling 'old' because hey! I'm not 'old' really. And anyway, you're as old as you think you are. :)

I've been trying to read some nursing texts that I've gotten hold of these past two or three weeks and all that has done so far is to make me realise how tough school will be. And I'll have to remember all those anatomical and medical terms and be able to recall them at a split second. :P Oh well, I have the interest and the determination and anyway, there's a Chinese saying that goes something like "Diligence can overcome obstacles faced by the less-intelligent".

I've got the combination to my locker already! Sometime this week, I might make a trip down to school to explore the campus, visit the library, test out my student card (a.k.a. Smart Card because it can double up as a cash card), and maybe even, take some photos of campus to post here.

There are so many privileges of being a full-time student in a government institution and one of which is discounted travel on the public transport network. I've already bought my monthly bus-stamp for July and next on my list is a monthly MRT Concessionary card for Tertiary students. Whee!

I'll sign off here. I want to work on getting more links up on my website as quickly as I can. I hope you like this new look! And I hope you'll continue to stay around and be with me in spirit as I embark on a new phase in my life. :)

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