other people's perceptions
About all you can do in life is be who you are. Some people will love you for you. Most will love you for what you can do for them, and some won't like you at all --Unknown.
something rather amusing happened to me today, and i couldn't get over it for a while. it has left me giggling and shaking my head ever since.
i went out to dinner with some family members tonight. we were discussing different cousins and aunts and uncles in the family, and ourselves, and relationships.
someone mentioned offhand that they thought i was the most independent of the female cousins, and the strongest. i looked up in surprise. they went on to say that i would never end up with a man like my Aunt M.'s husband C. or my cousin A.'s husband J. (both mysoginistic men, rednecks, and control freaks). they said... oh.. they would love to see some man order me to do something cause i would tell them to shove it.
i just laughed and laughed. it is true that to my family i must seem independent and strong willed, because of my past. they think i spent years as an office manager in a big company downtown (while i was actually a collared slave), they think of me as a strong woman who stands up to domestic violence (because i volunteered and was an advocate for the battered women's shelter that helped me escape my former Master).
they would be so surprised to see the real me. it is true that i can be strong. i was a debate champ in college, the only female on the team with a bullying, woman-hating coach. i suffered through mainly cause the guys on the team all became incredibly protective of me (it is a pet theory of mine that men can "sense" submissive women somehow, even men who aren't in D/s and become protective of them). i didn't bow to family pressure and marry straight out of highschool, but the main reason for this was my fiancee died when i was 19, and then i got involved with my r/l Master. were John still alive things would be decidedly different, i'm sure. but that is one topic i don't like talking about *sighs*.
anyways, it is just that to them, i am this fierce, huntress, Diana (greek godess) type woman, and i am not. i don't know how they see that in me. anyways, it gave me quite a chuckle. other people's perceptions can be so interesting.
be well and happy til next W/we meet --di.