I
am 27 years old and I live in Copenhagen, Denmark together
with my girlfriend and our 2 cats.
I worked as a 3D animator for a big animation studio,
but in the winter of 2000, after 5 years, i quit my
job and ventured into the sweet life of freelancing.
And i love it!
It is more work sometimes but in the end it is a lot
more rewarding being your own boss!
The dressing up thing started about 4 years ago - i
suppose i would have started sooner or later, but my
girlfriend triggered it by painting my toenails blue.
It was quite exciting and one thing led to another and
suddently after some months i had purchased a wig, shoes
and everything. Looking at myself in the mirror and
seing someone else... not entirely me, but definately
someone i wanted to get to know better.
It
really is strange isn't it? Mixing a little bit of femininity
into some men, and making them do irrational things like
dressing up in girls clothes. There is probably a set
of explanations somewhere, but anyone trying to dechipher
them has not been particularily convincing in my eyes.
I do not claim to know why it is so much fun to dress
up, and I have spent many hours trying to figure out what
could cause it, just to find myself even more confused
and further from the anwer.
The easy way for me was just to let go of it and let the
desire drive me. I have had lots of fun dressing up, and
i no longer care that it might be considered weird or
unnatural
I
do this thing once or twice a month. Some people
ask me why i dont dress up more often, and tell
me that i look pretty so i should dress up all
the time. Dressing up takes a lot of your own
attention and the sensation is very intense -
not something you just ignore, and when i'm in
the girl role i find it difficult to concetrate
on anything else than being a girl.
When I dress up i find myself quite useless at
doing the geeky things i do when i'm in plain
clothes, so if i dressed up all the time, i would
never get to do the really funny things like programming
computergames, 3D animation and drawing. Dressed
up i just sit and chat on the net with other trannies
:-) Fun but not very constructive...
Another old picture
People
dont know this. The only person who knows about my transvestism
is my fantastic girlfriend. She accepts it and has no
problem with it - I consider myself extremely lucky to
have her - I have chatted with so many girls that live
a secret life in fear of being discovered by unknowing
wifes and friends. I can only imagine how difficult it
must be to tell a wife or girlfriend about this - for
me it just came by itself.
I suppose my girlfriend didnt really know what was coming
when she painted my toenails blue... neither did I, I
just knew that i had to go further with it.
And then theres the whole "going out-issue"
I guess that could be a possibility at some point, but
i never really liked going to discoteques or bars as a
guy, and i dont think i would be more comfortable as a
girl there. Some people say that it is completely different
when youre out as a girl, but I dont think i'm ready for
that yet. We'll see what time brings.