Sometimes one doesn't know how to get through the day...

First, I always, always try to remind myself of the fact that IT WILL GET BETTER! If I can't remember those four words, I ask someone to spell them out for me. If it was as easy as all this, we would, of course, not feel as bad as we do. During my bad days, I can not see any trace of light anywhere, I can not even imagine how things could possibly be different than what it is now. How could it, when the dark thoughts in my mind concern things that will never change?

I'd guess (I am not there yet), that the key is to look at things from a different angle, in a different light. Of course, I can not do this right now - but I can say to myself that EVEN though things will not change, I will be able to live with it in a whole different way than I do today.

Having done this, I'll consider whether I feel like talking to someone or not. I usually don't... So what I do is:

Get connected to the internet.

Chatting is for me a great way of communicating when I don't feel like letting anyone see me... There are thousands of chats, but I have mainly used:
RFSL's chat A chat mainly for gay people
Yahoo's chat A chat for anyone- there are lots of "rooms"

I also sometimes feel like reminding myself of that fact that I am not alone by reading message boards where I can also post a message if I feel like it. There are all kinds of boards for anyone. I have visited some anxiety and gay-oriented boards, for example:
iVillage a very nice anxiety-oriented board.
RFSL's boardA so-so board, as everyone seems to know eachother...

There are some homepages made by people like me:
Vivi's homepageShe writes her diary every day and has lots of links to pages.

Baking or cooking sometimes makes me feel good.
I just put it in the freezer and enjoy it when I regain my apetite... This is my favorite recipy of "kanelbullar":
Kanelbullar, mums...

Turn on the TV.
I record high-quality programs such as episodes of Frasier, Spin City, the Simpsons, Sex and the City... It's always great to have a few hours of taped comedies! And, of course, you can take a look at Xena (click on the bomb to take a look at her and get some links).

Go to the gym.
Well, one has to have quite a lot of energy for this, but afterwards, I often feel a lot better!

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