I'm Sorry

It never ceases to amaze me how I can take a bad situation and make it worse. It seems to be a talent these days.

There's so much I need to say and I don't know how to say it here, other than to say that I'm sorry. I was just trying to avoid...everything and so I tried to laugh it off, not even realizing what I was doing. But I wasn't drunk. I don't think I was even tipsy. My insides and my emotions were all screwy on their own, so I think I tried to use the excuse of alcohol as a shield.

I'm so sorry

And yes, I want to see you this weekend. I need to see you this weekend, even if it's for too brief a period of time. I just hope you still want to see me.

I just need to find the lyrics that are floating through my head right now...these aren't them, but they'll have to do for now 'cause I have to get ready for work. :-(

Adia I do believe I failed you
Adia I know I let you down