I had quite a weekend and I'm definitely gonna write about it, but to keep some of you satisfied until I can get that done, I figured I'd share two songs that played a little while ago as I was driving to Blockbuster and back again. I've heard them a lot on the radio in the last few months and while I'd never even paid much attention to the actual verses, the refrains were full of meaning, or sometimes even just one line here and there.
Before I get to the lyrics themselves, someone seeing my site for the first time commented that in my journal I quote others but not myself. I put in song lyrics but don't explain my reasoning or the relation to my current life. I tried to explain to him why that is, but was actually at a loss for words. But I've realized that the audience for my site has changed over the years. In the beginning, no one I knew saw it. It was an anonymous piece of the web. It was intended for the people out there who were like me, who felt like there was nowhere to turn and no one to understand and no one like us.
But now, my friends have seen it as well as their friends and in a few cases, people who I didn't want to see it. Some of my friends even read it regularly. So I can't use real names or even expose myself too much. (Okay, okay...I've crossed that line quite a few times, but you don't know how many times I've held back because what I wanted to say wasn't meant for everyone to read. Or it's stuff that I wrote so long ago that it feels somewhat safe to post now.) All that is to say that a fair (or even a good) amount of what I write will not make sense to half the people reading this. But that's okay because the people things are intended towards should understand. If they don't catch the reference(s), then oh well, because no doubt I'll bring up the subject later on. On to the lyrics...
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
Sometimes people get me wrong, when it's something I've said or done
Sometimes you feel there is no fun, that's why you turn and run
But now I truly realize, some people don't wanna compromise
Well, I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies, and
Well I don't wanna live my life, too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
Well, I'm so tired baby
Things you say, you're driving me away
Whispers in the powder room baby, don't listen to the games they play
GirlI thought you'd realise, I'm not like them other guys
'Cause I saw them with my own eyes, you should've been more wise and
Well I don't wanna live my life, too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
I don't know why I did the things I did
I don't know why I said the things I said
Pride's like a knife, it can cut deep inside
Words are like weapons, they wound sometimes
I didn't really mean to hurt you
I didn't wanna see you go
I know I made you cry
But baby
If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
I'd take back those words that have hurt you
And you'd stay
If I could reach the stars
I'd give them all to you
Then you'd love me, love me
Like you used to do
If I could turn back
My world was shattered, I was torn apart
Like somebody took a knife
And drove it deep in my heart
When you walked out that door
I swore that I didn't care
But I lost every thing darling then and there
Too strong to tell you I was sorry
Too proud to tell you I was wrong
I know that I was blind, and darling
If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
I'd take back those words that have hurt you
And you'd stay
If I could reach the stars
I'd give them all to you
Then you'd love me, love me
Like you used to do
If I could turn back
