So ya wanna know about Transition?
Well, I began transition just under a year and a half ago. I was working for a major restaurant chain as a line cook and decided to transition on the job. It was by no means easy. Line cooks tend to be part of an "old boys club". As a rule it's hard for a woman to make it as a line cook. For a male to female transsexual, it is a herculean task. After I got past the "personal question" phase (Are those tits real? Do you stand up to pee? etc.) and the "it just gives me the willies!" phase, I still had to deal with the ordinary sexism. Dig that, after the majority had accepted me as a woman, they wouldn't accept me because I was a woman.
One of the most wonderful days I have had was the feeling when I first filled my prescription for Premarin. And a few days after that I noticed that I was able to deal with issues that I had been completely overwhelmed by in the past. It was like I finally had the right tools to begin to fix what was wrong.
One of the hardest things has been being patient with my progress. Waiting for the changes to take place. Waiting for doctors to be willing to write letters testifying to what I already knew. But the struggle to begin my transition had tempered me. It took strength, but I had it.
If you watch the talk shows, it is easy to get the impression that one day you just wake up, and you look like the person you are inside. Nothing could be further than the truth. If this is your path, you must be willing to lose everything and everyone in your life. You must be willing to subject yourself to name calling, harassment, and threats. Not to mention painful surgeries and lifelong medication. It isn't easy. It isn't quick. It isn't fun. I did it because I could no longer live a lie. I couldn't pretend that I was something I wasn't.
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