Sept. 17, 2001
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August 6, 2001
Life's a bitch. you know that?
you can feel one way and then find out that it is not reciprocated.
right now i just want this summer to be over so i can go back to school and be bitched at by customers that are paying WAY too much to be staying in a dorm room, and then by residents that don't realize the phone IS NOT FREE, that perhaps the TECHNOLOGY center deals with your internet connection, and that your trash doesn't MAGICALLY take itself out. that's why your ra's tell you where the freaking trash room is.
i'm hurt. i am SLOWLY trying to recover. this isn't going to be easy. no matter what.
everything takes time. time heals all wounds. blah blah. well i'm living in the right now and this time isn't healing. maybe a year from now but first you still have to go through hell.
"don't cry because of what happened, smile because it did." i can't right now. really i can't.
July 24, 2001
welllllllllllllllll another lovely day another person sitting on her behind. k you know the guy next to me has either drowned himself in cologne or drank too much and drowned himself in cologne. it smells like the second. ughhhhhhhhh
you know the people in the library do talk at loud voices... at least the librarians do. the other people whisper like you should. it bites cuz i usually sit in the magazine area so i have things to stare at when i'm doing nothing and the lady at the magazine desk is VERY loud "you want a computer when??" yeah... sure...
i made all these ASTUTE observations the other day and now i've forgotten them all. i have to get back to writing all my funny stuff down. my english teacher is so ... weird. for our final "project" she said that we can memorize two sonnets or a soliloquy or do a scene or write music ... blah blah stuff like that. today she goes "well you all have to memorize a sonnet AND the other thing" the entire class went "WHAT?!" because we thought it was two sonnets or this or that. she's always changing her mind. and today there were six some odd questions due from the reading and i did NOT hear about the assignment cuz i toddled up to the comp lab late yesterday cuz i knew the lights were out and i was sitting in the campus center. so i was sitting in class the mins before it started and FRANTICALLY writing my ass off. i volunteered to answer the question that i had the most detail on so she wouldn't catch me with something i hadn't finished. some people didn't get the bright idea of trying to scrap at least SOMETHING together. some of these questions can be answered through all the reading we did. *shrug* oh well.
we get our astronomy tests back on thursday, with a SLIGHT chance of it being tomorrow. he said a lot of the scantrons didn't read... i guess improper pencil use... well i've never heard any complaints... i've always used the same pencil and no one singled me out for it not being readable so i ASSUME it works fine. number 2 shnumber 2. just make your mark dark and fill in the bubble completely. come on you've been taking standardized tests since you were in the second grade. heck i remember taking one in first grade!
July 16, 2001
I'm sitting on my behind at the Sunnyvale library at the moment. i think this is now my favorite library. i used to like the cupertino one but that feels so sterile each time i walk in there. at least with big comfy chairs and tons of tables to study at, and of course plenty of magazines to read while i procrastinate is great also. so yeah if i'm not home and not out with vanna on a weekday i'm at the sunnyvale library. but hey sometimes i'll be out with vanna at the library. =) study study. the world will convert to a geekier way! bwhahaha! hehe. yeah i know i'm a riot. *grin*
i still need a freaking summer job. i went by ross when i went to office depot and they have a cashier position from 6pm-10pm mon through fri. we'll see. i'm going by macy's later today to see if they'll hire me on the spot. (hopes and dreams... hehe) its hard to find a place that will hire me for the summer only unless they are like completely desperate. *shrug* i need a job! or else when i get back to school i'll be begging people for shifts. 8 hours of doing nothing is NOT as bad as it sounds. that's 8 hours at 6.83 an hour, or if i'm working after business hours it's an extra .32 an hour. yeah pennies i know. but its like an extra four bucks per check and four bucks buys me lunch. =) aight my time at the comp is up. i should read and do my homework. if anyone still reads this thing... hehe its more for my own self indulgence eh? like my own personal journal of my life.
July 8, 2001
Well well. the summer is now in full swing. i'd like to thank my faithful readers, yeah probably all two of you. hehe =)
Yesterday mark mulder of the a's nearly achieved perfection as he allowed only one hit... one baserunner... faced one batter over the minimum in a spectacular spank job of the allegedly mighty arizona diamondbacks. woohoo! and tonite huddy also did a rocking good job. tomorrow zito will be on the hill for us. YAY! unfortunately its against schilling. grrr... for the giants, shawn pitched subpar today. i was in a little tiff on the giants board. he basically called me a snob for using real words besides "loser!!" moron. some people have no lives. then he was like "why aren't you back to defend yourself?" when i plainly wrote in my last paragraph that i was ignoring his sorry ass. i don't know why some people find it in their authority to criticize people at their jobs. they think cuz they paid 15 dollars to enter the ballpark they are allowed to call someone that has dedicated their life to doing something they're good at a complete loser cuz he's not performing up to the level of hall of fame pitchers. i'm tired of having to defend my poor shawn whenever some morons think that they rule all and can say whatever the hell they want. freedom of speech is one thing, but when you hide behind it so you can say cowards words, then you sir, are a moron.
summer school is progressing along rapidly. five more weeks left! my astronomy class is interesting in the fact that i haven't fallen into a long deep snooze yet. with the lights dimmed and watching films and demonstrations one would think that i would have passed out within the first ten mins considering the class starts at 715am. meanwhile my english class is covering books and poems that i read in high school english AP. woohoo review for me. back to shakespeare. ahhh... hehehe.
i need a freaking job. i have all this free time in the afternoons and nothing to do. i prefer office jobs but i'm having a hard time finding one! i need to go fax some resumes. i faxed like five resumes before i left school and only one place gave me a response and that was "no." boogers. at this rate, i'm gonna wind up working at the mall again. =\ the problem is i can't choose what mall. i really should work at like eastridge because its closer to home and all. we'll see. depends on the hours that i can get. right right. hehe. maybe... a return... to frys?! never... i doubt it. the people that work there now don't seem like as much fun as when i worked there before.
crap i write a lot. i'm gonna wind up on page three with my next entry. =)
June 26, 2001
ahhhh i'm back home. so much stuff has happened. lemme start.
on sunday me, arjay, kari and jason went to see rent. it's playing at the orpheum in SF. anyways its kind of a late wedding present for kari and jason since we didn't get to go to their wedding. *cough* hey i was in school! we had NICE seats. anyways if i'm singing "light my candle" a lot you can't say anything. i want the soundtrack now. =) coincidentally this past weekend was gay pride weekend in SF. a very interesting event if i do say so myself. the many different people saying to the world "this is who i am!" was great to see.
OUT OF SCHOOL!!!!! WOOOOOOOT! this quarter i got a 3.5 *brag brag* but then i only took three classes, and only two of them were graded. =) anyways i loved my history class as it gave me a flat a... =) hehe. i am officially a junior now. wheee......
i'm going to summer school at de anza, if i can get in. they screwed me over and put my exemptions in the wrong area so i couldn't enroll. waaaah. so i wound up on the wait list. i wonder if the prof will let me in. she's a little old lady... i hope i can. if i take this and the astronomy class, then i will have 100 units. in theory, i can graduate in five quarters. yes that's one asian am class per quarter. OI pushing it...
people need to learn how to respect other people's property. seriously i don't think i'm enough of a chicken to hit and run. some moron hit my car and ran. no note, nothing. thanks a lot. the damage was just scratches - if you paid me then i could have just gotten it fixed without ratting you out to the insurance company. yeesh man. are you really that scared? watch it was probably one of those riced up cars that hit me. sure you don't have money to fix MY scratches but enough to drop your car another inch and tint the window a tad darker while tweaking your car to make it go faster...
June 15, 2001, 8:ssam
DONE DONE DONE DONE WITH FINALS DONE DONE! *dance of joy* finals can go hide from me until... um... august. hehehe.
June 13, 2001, 6:17am
what is this "sleep" concept. HEHEHHEHE. i've been up since about 1pm on the 12th. final at 8am! *nervous* *reviews the eyes.... baahhhhhhh* i want this crap to end! end hear me! =)
June 11, 2001, 12:40am
I HATE FINALS
i had to get that out of my system. I feel slightly better now. NOT! I HAVE TO STILL TAKE MY DAMN FINAL TOMORROW MORNING! AUGH! *groan* *whine* *moan* *sigh* BLEAH. oh well.
Me am grateful for many things. me am grateful for me great english skillz. LOL. yes. my brain has antrophied. great i can't speak english but i can write antrophy. sure......
June 1, 2001
First off i wanna say I am up to 14 months now. =) *muah*
Aight now i tell about what happened when I went to go tape the price is right! Basically i didn't get on the show but someone from our group did and he won a brand new car! a 2001 mercury cougar! booya! it was so much fun! the studio is tiny! you think its humongous on tv but its SOOO small when you're there. it only fits about 300 people. it is SO freaking designed with a 70's style its almost hilarious. the bright colors and the drapes are all covered in the CBS eye. its almost creepy to see. its like a bad shower curtain. anyways its not very random. they actually do like a quick 10 second interview with you and then they choose based on that. if you do well you have a better chance of getting on the show.
driving on the way back we were on wilshire blvd and we saw two chicks in a bright red truck like totally tripping out. we were like "wtf" and they told us that NICHOLAS CAGE was two cars behind us. he was in a little black aston martin and talking on his cell phone. we changed lanes and slow down so we could gawk at him (yeah we're dorks whatever) and as he passed us we were like "HI NICK!" and he was like "hey" and then drove off as he was talking on his cell phone. pretty cool huh? as we got to glendon, we saw WINONA RYDER AND JIMMY FALLON walking along. kevin, the driver of our car started waving like a moron and going "HEY WINONA!" but she didn't hear us cuz she was on the other side of the street and like two lanes of traffic. it was pretty cool even though i had to get up early and i was working til 6am earlier that day. so at the very least i was EXHAUSTED. =)
May 19, 2001
aarrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhh. i scream. i whine. i pain. i sound like a bad shakespeare play. augh!
on peut dire "tout vaut la peine" mais je ne suis pas sur. je ne suis pas d'accord. j'ai voulu habiter dans ma chambre, pas de distraits, je peux utilisier les accomdations ni complications. mais je ne sais pas que j'aurai une personne qui peut me faire folle!
i love french. hehe *grin*
May 14, 2001... continued
Well I haven't been able to update my page as much as I wanted to. Basically I've been updating like mad my pictures and now I can finally get to my journal. This is what has happened. Apparently Yahoo decided that they don't like the UCLA dorms anymore. So for some stupid reason in the dorms we can't connect to Yahoo. Ok it doesn't seem like a prob for geocities right? I can access all the webpages. BUT I CAN'T LOG IN! That's because to log in I have to go through Yahoo! So the last few days I've been practically going nuts. You don't realize how much you depend on something til its gone. I used yahoo for weather, daily tidbits of news, etc. oh well GRR.
Anyways on to other news. I am DONE with midterms! YAY! i have a paper due 8th week and another exam 9th week but they are so completely doable. I'm so glad... hehehe. its already 7th week! holy crap! quarter going by so fast. actually that's a good thing. as for other things going on... hmmm... i had a nice talk with em over the phone the other day... always nice to talk to him. it seems that nancy has disappeared. perhaps she's actually studying?!?! oh my... hehehe.
dude i totally want van's de anza class. the pace is so slow. hehehehe. its bad though cuz you fall way too behind. but it must be nice to have a lazy ass professor. i had a few but i had good ta's so we didn't fall that far behind. (darn) its 4:30 in the morning and i'm at work. i guess i haven't had many issues or else i'd be writing like mad. hehe. well i can't wait for the end of the year so i can go home, probably go to de anza and work, and who knows what else.
Dude right now i've been talking to vanna about high school and our alleged senior goodbye rally. it was really annoying that most of the pictures wound up being of the junior class, since the jr class prez was the one that arranged the slide show. which shouldn't have been the way it was. tradition dictates that the sister class puts on the slide show because our sister class knows us the best. we've helped them along for two years and now is their chance to say goodbye to us. we did that for our sister class. i was nearly crying at my sister class' goodbye rally. this made me more annoyed. it can be argued its supposed to be a year in review but i spent four years at fremont and i would have liked to see four years of class of 99 pics up on those sheets. ASB was supposed to take the pics. like for example, sports. NO ONE came out to our tennis matches. its like we're isolated off in our tennis courts or something. which was wrong. its just that most of us have been playing on the team for years. it was hard for anyone to move up to varsity because the entire varsity team was class of 99 people. so that's why it may seem boring to some people. me and virge were on ASB, but most of the time when we wanted to take pics, we were also PLAYING! especially at the conference tournament. they also don't let you walk on the court to take pics during a game, because its wrong to disturb the other team during a match. as much as we would have loved to do it though... its still just wrong.
another thing that bothered me in high school was everyone criticizing ASB. i spent two years on that council and i personally worked my ass off. when things go off well, people don't say a thing. when things don't go perfectly, then they start to complain. i saw the "dark side" of asb. i had to live through it for a semester in a class with them. they say they are very open to change but when you try to change things they shot them down. the same old thing or else something new was always appreciated. i also couldn't stand that no one really gave a care about the commissioners. without the commissioners, a lot of stuff wouldn't happen in this school. but everyone thought that ASB did everything. commissioners were chosen based on their interviews and their potential. that's why i held commissioners in a higher regard. i respect the asb cabinet members that did their job. not those that can use it to their popularity. *sigh* you can work and work and no one can notice what the hell you did. but the minute you don't do it they whine. works for me. i had tons of other things i was involved in my senior year. mock trial went to quarterfinals for the first time in like 10 years... had to concentrate on the case. in debate i went pretty darn far in the congress tournament. on top of just plain schoolwork, i started working in march of my senior year and also my commissioner stuff. and for people to whine and complain bothered me immensely.