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Smith vs. Smith Main Page The Arrest
Part 1-Before the Arrest The Explanation
Part 4-My Side of The Story The Outcome
Part 6-Outcome of the Case
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Part 6 - Outcome of the Case - The Letter The Letter
Mom,
I don't think it is fair that I am, and always was, the only person that ever got any kind of punishment. Just because I am a girl is not a valid excuse.
It's kind of pathetic that she has to criticize me just to get her own way but oh well. I'm just wondering exactly how she figures I don't get punished. Didn't I get arrested? And it was for something I didn't even do. The reason she always gets punished is because she's a bad, bad girl.
You never want to hear my side of the story and you always deny that your son does anything wrong. When ever we are together anymore, we fight because, as always, I did something wrong. No matter what I do, it is not enough. I don't mean to compare, but it is kind of hard not to when you treat the two of us so differently. He can treat you like shit and you will love him even more. It is not fair.
My sister is such a little crybaby. She likes to manipulate people by crying and making everyone feel sorry for her. The reason nobody wants to hear her side of the story is because it's always a bunch of BS and lies. She doesn't understand what truth is. The difference between us is that I will always tell the truth no matter how much trouble it gets me in or who it hurts. That's why I would have admitted it if I had been beating her but I wasn't. It's kind of funny how she says she doesn't "mean to compare" and yet this entire letter is comparing me to her...hahahaha. Oh, it's not fair she says...well life ain't fair so she better get used to it.
I would never dare to treat you the way that he treats you. He calls you names, makes fun of you constantly, makes everybody miserable every chance he gets, yet you still treat him ten times better than me.
Funny, since every day I hear my sister calling my mother names that I can't put on here due to the profanity value. And miserable??? Who caused the most misery in my house? Yup, it was pig vomit.
He hasn't worked in over two years, yet you keep supporting him. He is doing nothing with his life and refuses to get a job and keep it, and still, that is ok with you. Every time he fucks up, you say, "That's it. That is the last time," yet you give him another chance. Even though I haven't worked in a few months, I have a reason. I am trying to get a job (that I am not going to walk out on in a couple of days). I do so much to try and please you. When I remember, I do things around the house (not just for money like some people). I don't expect money for stuff like that. Every now and then, I will ask you for money, but that is because I am not working. When I was working, I always paid you back. Unlike some people, I don't have my mommy and Grandmother giving me money left and right for every little thing (car insurance, haircuts, play money, new battery for my car I never even paid for, lunch every Thursday, new clothes Every time I get a new job, and anything else I would ever want). You can say this is just jealousy, but it isn't. I wouldn't want to live like a bum that had to depend on everybody else for money. Now I know you are going to bring up college, but if you remember correctly, you paid for someone else's college and still would be if he hadn't of dropped out. Hell, if he was in college, you probably would have told me that I couldn't go to college.
This is so funny. I quit Ponderosa in February of '98. I've worked at 6 places since. Sure, I haven't stayed at the jobs for very long but some of that was due to depression and some was due to psychobitch getting me arrested. Now it's funny because she has dropped out of college, hasn't had or even looked for a job in over a year, and is constantly bumming off of people. She didn't work for a few months back then because of her "fake sickness". She still has yet to look for a job...this is part of her hypocritical side. Her chores...she doesn't do anything around the house unless she wants to go somewhere or needs to borrow the car. And then she goes into me getting handed money...HAHAHAHAHA!!! When I went to college, my parents paid for the first year, which I finished. The third semester, I paid half of my life's savings to go and yes, I quit, but it was my money. Then I spent the other half ($1600) on people who I thought were my friends, a mistake of an ex-girlfriend, and even my sister. She, on the other hand, got people to pay for her college, which she attended for 2 months and quit. And this isn't community college like I went to because I didn't want people spending tons of money on me for a big school. No no. She went to Rutgers! So my gram, parents, and other relatives dished out thousands upon thousands of dollars for her to go to Rutgers and she drops out. Then she took the money that was refunded, which was thousands of dollars, and spent it on herself. She has a friend who has a rich daddy so she doesn't have to work and she gets tons of money which she blows on my sister. And her boyfriend blew money on her all of the time. So, despite what she wants people to believe she has been supported much more than me in her life. The car insurance should have also been paid by her b/c she was using it and she was the idiot who was driving my car everywhere and anywhere when the battery died. Jealousy...that's an understatement. This girl hates me because she isn't as good of a person as I am.
It hurts me so much that you restrict me so much more than you ever did him. When he was 18 and 19, he used to just walk out the door and go wherever he wanted, whenever he wanted without any curfew or restrictions. He used to go out with his ponderosa friends and walk in at one or two in the morning. Did you ever ground him? I know you will say you don't remember that, but that is only because you were in bed.
She knows how to stretch the truth. I was 19...almost 20 when I went out with my friends. When she wrote this, she had just turned 18, which is almost 1 and a half years. Plus, I'm alot more mature and responsible than her...not to mention trustworthy.
And the way you say that you get in trouble by "everybody" for not grounding me is totally hypocritical. I remember you giving me a speech about family and how family matters should only stay between the four members of our family. Well, I am one, you are one; that only leaves two more. I don't think two people would qualify as "everybody", unless you are telling other people about our family matters. I know you will probably get mad at me for writing this, but it is the truth.
Family matters? Wasn't she the one who made a big spectacle by getting me arrested for something I didn't do? I thought so. OH NO! I guess posting a "family matter" letter on the net is probably going against those rules, huh? Tough!
I just want to hang out with my friends and do stuff that other "normal" 18 year old do. Just because Jason wasn't a normal 18 year old kid that hung out with friends, went to the beach, slept over friends houses, I get punished for that. I know that I came home late the other night, but when I came home at 12:30 earlier that week, you didn't have a problem with it. You knew where I was and what I was doing, so what is the problem. If you would have said that coming home at 12:30 was not acceptable and you didn't want me to do it anymore, you should have told me that and I would have been home by 12 the other night. I know you use the excuse that I am a girl as a substitute for you don't trust me. I am 18 years old and I make my own decisions, hopefully the right ones.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!! Sorry, just laughing at the remark about making the right decisions. More of her mind manipulation and trying to sound like a good girl.
One thing that I do before I decide to do something is think about what you would want me to do. You opinion of me is very important. The last thing I want to do is hurt you. I know you would do anything for me if you had the money, and I realize that are money situation is tight. That is why I am getting a job for two months. It doesn't matter that I am sick.
Hahaha.....she's really funny. Sick? Yeah, she's sick...in the head.
We need the money, and I will do whatever I have to do to help. I know you do care about me, but you get kicks out of pushing my buttons and making me made. If there is the slightest inkling of a fight, it will escalate into an all out battle. I don't understand. I know I am a lot like you, and that just makes it worse. I don't know what college is going to bring and I don't know what friendships I will lose over the next year. Tracy and I have spent the forth of July together for the past 5-7 years and it is really important to me that we spend it together this year. I know you may not understand that, but it is important to me. I guess that is pretty much all I have to say.
I know I may have gone a little bit overboard with this letter but all of the anger and frustration building for the past year just made me do it.
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