MY
LIFE...as
of now, 20th april
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You, you idiot
You treat me well while alone
You don't see me otherwise
Anything suggestive is only circumstance,
Anything celebratory is solvent in sense.
You suck big time
But who is there to blame
A friend? of whom which
expectations and obligations
are there to choose from?
giddy headed with admirers
I cannot blame her weakness.
Him, can i blame him
A friend? of whom which
Strange and estranged,
Rude, coarse and polite
Insensitive or blunt
Blatant or explicit
characteristic would it be?
friend, or flirtatious user.
Circuitous lust
begets lust redirected, begets
misery.
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Disclaimer: that wasnt a poem. i don't(cant?) do poetry. My friend
Yen does poetry, and she does it unbelievably well. The kind you read and
understand, the smooth sharp kind that translates its meaning by words,
instead of attempts at words. I'm doing a page on her stuff, and eventually
it will materialise. :) Patience will prevail. no one else can stand the
wait. haha. sorry.
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The indented thing above, like i said, wasn't poetry.
i know better than to call it that. don't know what that makes it then,
call it a cryptic translation of a personal matter. Isn't it intriguing.
bleah. don't figure it out if u don't know what im talking about. It makes
me damn confused.
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The holidays are over now. :) as earlier predicted,
didn't do much by the way of work. heheh. its tempting to say that the
week 'went by so fast', but shan't. cos its a cliché, but mostly
cos it didn't so much go-by-quickly as happened all at once. I slept and
awoke with utter disregard to the time, now, night happens at 5.30pm, i
starved, i overate, i learnt to play pool, i got sick in the throat. the
week-long whirlwind of wanton weariness. Im glad school's starting again.
Order has its place, like there is no creativity without boundaries. Without
restriction, its all just so much rubbish. either that, or pure creation.
But its probably safe to say that privilege belongs solely to God, as it
is.
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Im rambling i think. Don't really know exactly what to
write about this time, just felt like typing out something...there're so
many emails that've collected over the past days, im too tired to answer
them, too tired to read the papers too. I just want chicken porridge. Yum
yum. Shall approach my long-suffering mother/cook later. I also want a
pool table. So i can practise and get so good at it i can show off and
act hip. lemme tell you what i want, in no particular order:
1. a pool table
2. to see Beck live
3. a sony playstation
with VCD add-ons
4. a mutual attraction
5. a talking hamster
6. an entire winter
wardrobe from dkny/cK
7. my old figure back
8. some answers, to
the weirdness that is my present life, and the chem tutorial i haven't
done.
9. a delightful singing
voice
10. chocolate chip cookies. the
soft kind.
I tried a pina
colada the other day, i cant remember when, the entire past 7 days(ie.
nights) are, in memoriam, blended in with each other and somewhat indistinguishable.
Anyway, the pina colada was nice stuff. It made me red, since i cant handle
alcohol so great, but it was nice. Like baileys is nice and smooth, but
i prefer the haagen daaz
ice cream flavour. :) maybe its just the thrill of knowing its sinfully
bad for you, that makes the liqueur more enticing than the Obviously nicer
ice cream. hyuk.
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Right. here's something to write about. Sometime
before easter, i came across these 'easter eggs'..not the kind you eat,
these are like little 'bonuses' in software programs. Something about the
programmers leaving their mark in the software. Like you might remember
the one that got massmailed some time ago, the evil satanic one in MS Excel?
there's more~! heh. some are quite cool. I'll list some here, and there
are urls on the stuff.
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Windows 95
- Right-click on the desktop
- Select New folder, name it "and now, the moment you've all been waiting
for" (minus "s)
- Right-click on the folder, Re-name it "we proudly present for your
viewing pleasure"
- Rename again, to "The Microsoft Windows 95 Product Team!"
- Open the folder. See the names float past. not very exciting, but
fun enough. :)
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Microsoft Excel (i like this one)
- Create a new workbook
- press F5 and enter X97:L97 and click OK
- press the Tab key once
- hold down Ctrl and Shift and click on the Chart Wizard button on
the toolbar
- you should get a flight simulator game, left mouse button to accelerate
fwds, and the right mouse buttons to slow down, then move bkwrds. moving
the mouse forwards makes u dive, while backwards makes you climb. There's
also a flat mound of grey stone which has the developer's names scrolling
on it.
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Word 95 and 97 (i cant get this
one to work, maybe you can)
- Open a blank document and type the word 'Blue'
- Select the word, go to the Format menu, select Bold and change the
font colour to Blue
- Click OK and insert one space after the word Blue.
- Go to the Help menu, click About and click on the MSword logo in
the upper left corner
- A pinball game is supposed to appear. Use the Z and M keys to control
the flippers.
- press ESC when done.
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Some urls with more of this stuff:
The Easter Egg Archive
The Easter Egg Page
Hacker's
guide to Navigator
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Right, they're fun things to do if u're bored enough.
:) right now, im tired and hungry. my brain's zombiefied so i'll be smart
and leave it here. To those people to whom i owe mail, patience is the
key...eventuality is almost a certainty. apologies et all. and to Darren,
Happy Birthday you poor little sexually deprived boy! now you can drive!!!
and Drink! and go Zouk! and pick up cheo bus who'll nurse your ego while
u drive them around in your various cool cars...not to mention your dear
friends....(hint hint)
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On the quest for the perfect cookie,
Till next time/space/6th dimension,
Don't forget me.
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Here's something Yen wrote,
for you to read first.
The scream gathers in you,
a kaleidoscope of violent vomit colour,
harsh echoes scraping raw the throat
and searing the chambers of the heart:
this storm of blackness, roaring to break
free of the skyseams and hurl the waves
against the smooth implacable rock faces.
Nailed to the crucifix of your yellow
walls you whimper, lick your blood, moan
for an anodyne and an end: the blessed
relief of supernova. The silent swollen
tamped-down rage breaks the white spaces
on the knife''s edge of sanity.
Brilliant innit?
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