. . . s o s l e e p + d r e a m o f l o v e b e c a u s e i t ' s t h e c l o s e s t y o u w i l l g e t t o l o v e . . .
Regret: Robin.
This is probably my 2nd biggest regret in life (1st being never having been able to see the Cure live). It's so difficult to know someone that is so close to what you want, and yet know that you're so far from what they want. But after meeting a few boys like this, you kind of start to wonder: "Is it me?". It can't always be them. It's impossible. Then I try so hard to be what they want...It never works...I think I'm just one of those people that's sort of left behind I guess. Watching the people around her finding other people around her, and still waiting...always waiting...I kind of wonder sometimes if I'm trying too hard, or not hard enough...everyone says it happens when you give up...but I've even given up on giving up. I just want to know why it's so hard for me when everyone else finds someone with ease.
Regret: Tim.
This one really messed me up...I don't know why. Well, I do, but he really shouldn't have. One of those boys that makes you feel like you're all that matters to him...but then, when things start to get too serious, they start to turn things around and say that you're pressuring them, or that you're obsessed...
But, because of Tim, I've learned that all people are the same: not trustworthy. I've learnt that it's better to stay away than to get too close, because I'll *always* get burned. I've learned that EVERY boy is the same, with a different face. They all lie...But not just boys, people in general, they all lie. You can't trust anyone, except yourself. Never let yourself trust anyone, because you'll always be sorry.
. . . s o s l e e p + d r e a m o f l o v e b e c a u s e i t ' s t h e c l o s e s t y o u w i l l g e t t o l o v e . . .
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