Pre-Wedding Rant

Well, I went to the meeting for that psych experiment- it consists of having a cotton swab in your mouth for ten minutes each morning and filling out a chart at night. Easy. So I'm doing it.

I bought a ticket to see a play Thursday night- "Spent"- sounded wacky! And I found out in solar system that I can take the final early- on Wednesday or Thursday- so no test on my birthday! Whoopee!

Man, am I procrastinating. On homework, on paying CD bills, on packing (well, I packed my clothes so far), on taking notes . . . fun fun fun, you know.

I do not want to go to this wedding. Everyone here will be at Picnic Day, there's all this fun stuff set up on the Quad now for it, they put out a huge thing about it in the newspaper . . . I wanna go, dammit! I don't want to go watch two schmucks make the biggest mistake of their lives! When people hear me say that I have to go to this wedding, they think it's something to (ha) look forward to. I don't think so.

Not only do I hate weddings in general (boring, no one to talk to but relatives, etc), and I'm kinda uncomfortable at family weddings (I love to dance, but won't at any relative's wedding, because no matter how good I am I know I will be made fun of for YEARS by Uncle Bruce, Ron, et al. Yep, everyone's a dickhead), but this is the first one I've ever had to attend that has such potential for disaster.

Here's a history of Ron's dating life: His first engagement was to Sabrina, a lovely chick (now married, sigh- we miss her), they broke up because my aunt (who like I said, hates all of Ron's women) was being an ass. However, after they got engaged, Ron started to act like a real dick to Sabrina, embarrassing her in front of everyone a lot more than he normally makes fun of us. Watching him is probably one of the reasons why I, if I ever have a serious boyfriend instead of semi-serious or fling, will not go to any holiday meals at his house, and won't invite him to mine (unless, yeah right, we were engaged and I had to).

4 or 5 years ago he started dating Laurie, who at first we thought was really weird because she never talked (something else I'd probably never do around someone else's relatives either- had to meet about half of The Moron's at his graduation party, that was a thrill.). They broke up and got back together a lot (another coincidence), and her family was real rude to him when they were off. But when Ron hit thirty, (according to my dad) he started feeling like there was no one else left out there at his age, and Auntie Dolores was bugging him, and he's gotta start having kids sometime . . . so he bit the bullet and proposed for the second time. We all noticed differences between the engagements- Ron announced it on his own to everyone at Christmas (Sabrina's B-day) the first time, he barely said anything about it the second time. And pretty soon we got to hear of the fighting they were doing over wedding plans . . . and eventually they broke that one off, to all our relief.

Then we heard that Laurie hadn't given the ring back, and was still wearing it. Pretty soon they were back together, although Ron pretty much wouldn't talk to her at family gatherings. Then at Christmas this year (man, the holidays are rough) Laurie had to force Ron to tell them the engagement was back on for the third time. He really didn't want to tell them. But it was announced . . . April 18, and Ron was selling his house (a fight from the second engagement) and moving into hers until the house they were buying together was ready. By New Year's they were already fighting at our party, Ron yelling at her to "get over it" every time she objected to him doing something like kicking the cat.

By Justin's christening a month later, Ron had moved out of her house and back into Auntie Dolores's. And yet, the engagement stayed on. And remained on. And, to my utter disappointment, is still on!!!!

I'm sorry, but how can I pretend to be happy about this? They are so going to make each other miserable. I'd be willing to bet money that they'll be divorcing sometime within the next five years. I'm still hoping that when it comes to the "I do's" Ron will chicken out and we can end the farce once and for all. My mother will probably have to hold me down when it gets to the part about "any just cause" (she's said that I have to keep my mouth shut). How I'm going to fake happiness for people traveling down into the pit of disaster I don't know.

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