by Jennie Alibasic
© 1996, 1997, 1998 deanna@kajen.com
April/May
April 29 1997
I started to wear gothic makeup in public. I confronted my agoraphobia, and put a big smacky smoochie mark right in it's monster kisser. WeEEee! Not to mention I look smashing. or scary. I like it. Reowr.
Sunday, May 11.
Haha! I saw two hilarious movies, Celtic Pride with Dan Akroyd, Daniel Stern And Damon Wayans, and Happy Gilmore with Adam Sandler. These might not be the *best* movies in the world, but they saved the day...they were SOO dumb and funny...Sheesh. Ok, some ranting:
Damon Wayans -
He's the reason I got my left ear cartilage pierced. He
wore this earring thing, probably a clipon thing, In 'The Last BoyScout', and
I just got HOOKED, so I went out and got my ear pierced. This is now where
I wear my precious frog.
Adam Sandler - I cannot even TELL you how hilarious he is. I remember obsessing
a bit over him some months ago when a channel aired an ep. of Saturday Night Live,
and Adam sang the Mother's day Song,
and I just FELL for it/him. *grin* It's just that pathetic look on his face
or something. heheheheh.
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If we go to jail I'm gonna be one of them born again
christians..coz...Nobody wants a born again christianistic bitch!
-Celtic Pride
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Yer gonna DIE clown!-
I eat shit like you for breakfast!
-You eat SHIT for breakfast? -
Happy Gilmore
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Ran into an old friend..it was supposedly by accident, but it was a semi arranged thing..I knew she'd be there and such. It turned out to be quite fun, talking to her and a new friend, Maria, but I noticed how way out there she is..sheesh! She's very into New Age nowadays but..I dunno. It doesn't feel like she means it. She's excited because she got her life crystal from the Crystal Master, which I won't say much about. It did provide me and Maria with lots of material for laughing and mocking the New Age business quite a lot though *grin* Don't get me wrong here, I am not anti new age, anyone who knows me also knows that I believe in lots of things, and I enjoy reading about such things, because I feel it creates new ways of thinking and how I react and treat/perceive other people, but I'm not very fond of the tacky side of it I guess...You know, the side that's just there for the effects and to be different. Crystal Master..heh.. my fave joke about it's been immortalised forever in my new sig.file (well, or till I get bored and stop using it;):
****ChoccieAddict**Spod**Pervert**Veggy**Toriphile**IceCreamLicker(tm)**
'Is that a crystal in your pocket, or are you just *very* happy to see me, Oh Master?'
I changed the look of the option page here, and I think it looks great now, with everything listed so one can go directly to whatever it is one dares to go to. before I had such difficulties arranging the pages so people'd find things, now it's all listed and such. I feel so productive. Heh, who knows, maybe I'll even have energy left to clean up me room *grin*. Oh, and like a good idiot I skipped the science test, and didn't turn in my paper on Online feminism. I'm sure my teachers love me. Really.
Um. Ok. Lemme think. I can't remember ANYthing really, I don't think I did anything productive at all. I DO remember spodding a lot though. Oh, and this was the day the world saw the birth of my mental penis. *grin* OH, and I saw Tin Cup. yet *another* golf movie. Interesting week. Happy Gilmore was of course, way funnier, but Tin Cup was.. charming. Way predictable, but I could actually stand Kevin Costner as opposed to usualy. Well worth seeing for the goooorgeous looking Renee Russo though =)
HAH, lazy day! It's been a wonderful summers day here in Ronneby, and I feel so out of place it's ridiculous. I go through this _every_ spring, dammit. You see, there comes a time, when everybody else just knows that it's appropriate to start wearing skirts and shorts and gorgeous dresses, and I end up looking extremely strange in my black pants and t'shirts. Apparently that day is today. Now, I guess this wouldn't be a major thing, except I am unable to get a tan, have never been able to, which means I couldn't wear shorts and skirts even if I'd own any, or want to, because frankly, my white legs' look scary. On the OTHER hand, I really really want to show off my tattoo. *sigh* Savour this moment, oh stranger, for it isn't often I actually am bothered by such an issue as to what to wear. Ah well. Won't be online till tuesday due to a holiday, and for once I feel ok by that. Interesting.
Tuesday, May 20.
Song of the past due days: Ghost, by Indigo Girls.
*sigh* The past days've been strange. Very strange. I don't know how else to describe them. So I planned for three really lazy days, with absolutely nothing happening,¬right? (Well, to an extent nothing DID happen...) Something odd happened though. As I was ready to go to bed sat. night to watch some of the movies I had, I saw someone familiar walking away from my neighbours house. It was this guy, whom I'll, um, refer to as 'D' (hehe, always DID want to have some situation where I'd get to refer to people by letters or code so to protect them ;)
Anyways, it was this guy with whom I used to be real good friends with. In fact, I used to have quite a crush on him, but that was _years_ ago, before he turned into a heartthrob or something. (I'm NOT exaggerating, a girl I used to know referred to him as the next Brad Pitt, and almost died when she heard I knew him.) Ah well. I went out there to say hi, and we ended up talking for some hours, until it got freezing, and rather late, and so he got to come into me house so we could talk some more. And then we ended up watching 'Stolen Beauty', which is a gorgeous romantic film,but..hmm..not quite right for the situation.
Ah well. We kept babbeling, and talking old memories from school, and he of course chose that moment to say he used to have a crush on me. HAHAHAH! How's that for irony, eh? Nevermind, he was only about 5-6 years too late. *grin*
We laughed a bit about it, and then we got sentimental, and then the movie added some and ooooh boy, things could've gone real wrong, but then I could hear that my brother came home after being out partying, so we both decided it was best he went home. Yes. And, um, that wasn't all, but a girl's got'a keep SOME things to herself, eH?*huge grin* (hahaha, I wish I could hear what you were guessing really went on. I swear, it probably wasn't half as much as you think. But plenty. Heh)
Other than that, I um..spent most of my time watching movies. A LOT of movies. The list's here:
And that's it for today. Except I'm getting a bit depressed I think, and I'm having trouble going outdoors. *sigh* I thought I was getting better. Blah. I'm over the goth makeup phase, I'm just sticking to very dark red lipstick, because it suits me for the time being. Please please PLEASE I hope it won't get much worse. Blah. I sound like a psycho, don't I?
Wednesday, May 21.
Hum Hum..de dum..I didn't go to class today at all..blah, which is so dumb, coz I skipped my science test for the second time in a row. I'm sure the others in the class hate me by now. WeeE. I've started to take these loooooooong mornings all to myself though, and I quite like it =)
I get up at 9, waddle upstairs to catch the ending of a rerun of Cheers, then there's an Oprah rerun that I watch while flipping over to a norwegian channel with reruns of the Ricki Lake Show. Around this time I start thinking about breakfast, even though I'm rarely hungry that early (half past nine is EARLY dammit :P), and since we hardly ever have anything that's very inspiring, I always end up having chocchie milk and toast with butter and orange marmalade.
Then at 10.20 there's the Jerry Springer rerun, and at 11 there's the rerun of the show 'Sisters', which I absolutely adore, not coz I can identify with any of them, I just love the way the 'young' versions of the characters are woven into the reality, it just gives that special feeling to it..yummie.
Then there's only two things left really, I go to Nickelodeon (shuddup) and watch 'Clarissa explains it all' and 'The adventures of Pete & Pete', very adorable shows. AND I just discovered that Rachel Sweet sings the Clarissa theme song, and she's one of them unknown to the public stars I adore (ever since I saw her in Sing..*swoon*!)
And that's my mornings. I hope you feel better now knowing what a lazy couch potato tv addict I am. Oh. I saw Sgt. Bilko tonight btw with Steve Martin...hmm..I dunno. He's done the charmin' liar act a bit too often.
Thursday, May 22.
Romeo & Juliet, Cover by the Indigo Girls.
YES! Yeyey! I'm having a great day for no apparent reason at all! Ok, first of all, the Jerry Springer show this morning..SHEESH! The theme was 'Your boyfriend is really a girl' or something like that... and they weren't kidding! It's one thing to feel you should've been of another gender, but these boys (that was genetically speaking girls) ..they got themselves girlfriends, and didn't tell them about it. Blah. It was real sad, coz you could see how hurt all of them were, and they were really young so I hope they get the help they need.
I know yer supposed to frown at talk shows, but to be honest, most of us can't help but watch them...I know I can't. My favorite is the Oprah show, I guess it seems classier, or with a bit more serious intent, and it features such diverse guests and subjects, and if it weren't for that show I would've never started to read Toni Morrissons books, or known who Maya Angelou is etc. I've really learnt a lot through that show, and without it I would've never become this interested in psychology, how people behave towards each other and such.
It's SUMMER, and I don't even mind today!=) I was almost gonna wear a skirt too, only I didn't want to cause any car accidents with the sun hitting my pale white legs and shining in drivers eyes. SEE? I'm a nice human, thoughtful etc of others ;)
*dancin'* Today's my last day in compuuuter class, I know I probably flunked the test and'll have to take it again, but at least it's prachtically over. Sadly enough this means I won't see Maria as much, but we have email etc, and I'm still keeping some cds and books of hers hostage ..muahauha.
OOoh, I knew this was a good day! I just talked to my best irl friend Ninnie. This might not seem very strange, but I haven't seen her in WEEKS..it's not coz of anything really, we just never remember to call, and she's graduating in a few weeks so there's lots' of parties for her to go to just like I had last spring. We just made plans for having a celebration evening though, we're going to McDonalds and eating till we drop and then we'll watch movies at my place and taaaalk talk talk. It's real sad, coz I might not be able to be there the day she graduates like she was for me last year, coz I have my TOEFL test scheduled the same day, in a town some hours away, and I might not make it back, which SUCKS BADLY! BLAH! 'Nuff babble for today thank you very much!
Friday, May 23.
Song of the day:
(It's really FootLoose with Kenny Loggins but I can't seem to find
the lyrics)
Today is PINk day Boys and Girls! Just coz today I'm really lost
in the 80s again. European VH-1
played them old videos all morning, and so I got inspired.
PINK lipgloss, sloppy hairbun and my tacky huge plastic blue and pink
glasses says something, right?
I don't have much to say though. I stayed up half the night and read two Maya Angelou books, and thought about people.
People are strange..' Dah too bored to quote.
I'm just gonna sit here and..um..wait for the time to pass so I can decide if I'm going to McDonalds to try their new veggieburger out..doesn't that sound like fun? I haven't been there for ages so oooh..I'll pig out.*grin* There's just something way YUMMIE about fastfood, isn't there? I mean, I know, it's not very healthy, and if we saw what really went on behind the scenes we'd throw up, but still. It just TASTES good to be..bad. I guess that's the problem with being good. It's just not fattening and bad enough for ya or something. Oh great, now I'm really hungry. I'll go be bad then.;) See yee munnay..
Saturday, May 24.
Ahh the good in life. I bought vanilla ice cream, almond fudge sauce and other yummie stuff yesterday, but as usual, when it was time to eat it, I couldn't have much more than 3 spoons before I started feeling sick. Such is life, too sweet sometimes. I saw the movie Jack though, and OOOH I cried SO much. Muahauaha, I feel much better now. Really. And I'm in some sort of strange timewarp, coz I do my make up as if I was Brigitte Bardot, with thick black eyeliner and a lot of mascara, and then just some lipgloss. With my sloppy hairdo, and my tacky HollyWood sunglasses I look...weird. Yah yah. Such is Life too y'know.
Oh Julieeeeeet..when we made love you used to cryyy...blah, that song is still stuck, it's just sooooo great. Which is why, instead of writing moron things here, I'll go home and scream along. Yes. Take care =)
Monday, May 26.
Yes. good Weekend. and JASMIN called me sunday...GOD she baffled me! And we talked for a while and I miiiiiiss heeeeer so much =( And I spent this entire day online, I got up at 7 and went to school coz I thought I'd be a good student and write my english term paper. U know, sort of good idea seeing as today's the last day to hand it in.
Of course I ended up just talking to people at CN, and so at the end I just stole an entire essay on the Black Panther Party instead of writing it. Now I have to get a copy myself and read and go look up all the difficult words that I don't really know but used in the essay so I can pretend that was all my doing. And I listened to several ppl tlaking about their papers. I heard about Dragons, Elvis Presley, Bruce Springsteen, HIV, Lower Manhattan, the Russian Japanese war in 1904, and maybe something else that I forgot about.
I also read 'Beloved' and another Toni Morrison book, and am reading her book 'Sula' tonight. I'm just inspired I guess. And tomorrow I shall create 'Ask dear jennie', where you people can ask me for advice on things, which I know yer dying to.
Now I must go ride my bike home. the bike my dad fixed. I haven't ridden a bike in a year, and was doing fine walking, but now that i got it I don't wanna walk anywhere. i wodner what'll happen the day I get a car. or a license. Fear me, for I am Strange Womyn.
Friday, May 30.
HIiI! Dah..I have been meaning to write every day and then not remembered till the last minute. Anyways, I think I got the Dear Jennie section done so..go ask :P
Wednesday I had a veggie burger at McDonalds, and I tell you, you'd be surprised at how yummie they are! I've totally pigged the past days, but I think last night was the worst. Ah well, I'm cramping, I'm allowed. I went into this new candy store and got white chocolate, chocolate puddings, mixed candy, sourcream and onion chips, and DR PEPPER, which isn't all that common around these parts.
How my mood's been/is, as spoken of on CN:
> CuRiouS tells you 'HEY! why are you ignormign me?? ;)'
You emote 'aLanis grins, coz I'm in a lousy mood and therefore sparing u?' to CuRiouS.
> CuRiouS asks of you 'where's my insults? put-downs?'
> CuRiouS grins.. you're ALWAYS in a shitty mood ;)
You emote 'aLanis laughs, I am?' to CuRiouS.
> CuRiouS nods.. except when you're being nasty.. coz your'e ahppy then ;)
Gee, I sound so wonderful. I'm cramping and bleeding, WHAT DO YOU EXPECT???:p
Saturday, May 31.
Song of the Day: Shiny Happy People, REM
Haha, I'm pretending I'm Kate Pierson, thus allowing myself to yell PEOOOPLLLLLEEE everywhere I go. Namely the library. OH how they love me there.;)
Ok, last night I ate a 7 lbs watermelon. Honest (believe me, it was _expensive_!) I think I'm done for the summer, heh..it's strange, I used to *live* on that stuff, but now I can barely eat a mere 7 pounds without feeling nautious. Odd. And I find myself sprinkling olives on food and sandwhiches, something so utterly ridiculous it's unbelievable. I highly recomend bread with olives and lots of cheese thought, that is, afetr you nuke it. Try it. You'll either throw up, or like it. OR you can try my *special* sandwhich, the one I invented the day my moms boyfriend was at our place and I started to hate him for no good reason. Anyways..take bread, put some butter on it, lots and lots of pickles, even more cheese, nuke it, eat it. I call it a low budget veggy burger.
My Whore Code 1.0:
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And the Superhero generator made me into a hero. More specifically:
The weird Blood Valkyrie
(Blood-valkyrie, Bloodvalkyrie, Valkyrie
Blood, Valkyrie-blood, Valkyrieblood)
Weapon: Blood Shotgun
Transportation: Valkyrie Ship
Source of powers: Mutant Unknown
Fear me.