Ok. I have something to clearify. It seems me making my whorecode public've gotten some silly side effects. Hehe, especialy when a friend of mine, David, posted the decyphred code to a private mailinglist.*grin* See, i didn't mind at all, in the sense that the people that got it are some of my best friends, but I guess I hadn't realised that anyone'd actually take the time to decode it..heh. Therefore I'm gonna explain a bit where it comes from etc.
I only frequent one news group, and that's rec.music.tori-amos (rmt-a is what we usualy refer to it as). I've been reading it ever since november of last year, but I very rarely post, so my existance isn't very known there. However, the reason I stay there is because unlike many newsgroups, it doesn't just strictly hold to info and talk about Tori Amos. This news group is populated of some of the most intriguing people I've ever *met* so to speak, online. There people talk about *anything*, and often it get very personal. People share their most intimate thoughts, talk about thier sex life (or just sex in general), views on issues within society, post poetry, speak out about personal experiences of abuse etc. I stay there because it's a very openminded newsgroup, and I learn *a lot* from these people about things I'm curious about, may it be hetero/bi/homosexuality, pregnancy, male/female views on things, Tori Amos, food, literature etc.
In rmt-a we have a several women (and men!) that are very open about their sexuality, and therefore one of the regulars took it upon her to write a Whore Code, which is much like the Geek Code, the Goth code etc etc. The word/meaning of whore's often discussed, but in our book, I bet it's not quite as sure as the general publics view (i.e simply a prostitue/sex industry worker), and rmt-a is filled with people who proudly call themselves whores (I among them). Hmm. I guess what I'm saying is, I'm not embarrassed, ya'll thought I was a pervert anyways ;)
I WENT to the park and I saw Ninnie in her promdress and hairdo and all the other beautiful girls! I must say I'm so proud over the fact that I know this wonderful pretty creature that is my best friend Ninnie I could burst buttons if I was wearing a shirt! I must have taken a BILLION pictures of her, and as soon as I can I am scanning one/several and will put them up here for everyone to see and aaaaaw at, because she is SO pretty!
Reminder how I looked last year:
Scared now, aren't yah? I'm gonan go home and put that dress on, because I *want* to and I feel like I actually look ok in it..I remember my prom last year..I felt like Cinderella. First time I ever wore my hair ina fancy do, wore a dress and makeup in public etc etc.. I shocked people...everyone was going 'ohmigod you look so GREAT!' *sigh*
However, I found I wore more spectracular makeup to the park, than the ones actually going to the prom who had spent HOURS with hairdressers and makeupartists. And both Ninnie and I agree, I could've done more fun things with her hair, for free. OH..upside to everything, she didn't have a proper necklace, so she borrowed the one I wore to my prom..it's a beginning of a tradition me thinks.;)
That's all, I'm off to pretend I'm a gorgeous looking person!
God I can't get that song out of my head! I'm sure it's because I caved in and bought the single, and have been playing it every now
and then, but still! it keeps rotating, but I never get the'Mmmbop
I'm so SUNBURNT! OK, today was the day when Ninnie (who had a fantastic time at her prom btw ;) was gonna get publically humiliated by the younger students in
the annual senior student graduation humiliation games. In case you haven't heard of them, I'll brief ya:
Well. As it turned out, Ninnie wasn't with her class, she was too late to participate..well, so she claimed *sigh* her classmates were 'martians', dressed in green and silver, and she DID wear a green shirt, and I rushed and bought her a cheap silver masquerade mask to
wear but she just wasn't in the mood, so we just followed her class around...which was FUN, except one guy carried a tape player around, and it played Spaceman by babylon Zoo over and over and over and ove...it got hypnotic with the rythm changes etc..heh. I got to be an honour member or something so..
that felt fun, but NONE of the games were as the ones I described, which we had to undergo last year. I think it's coz people complained that our games were WAY too gross, and should be toned down or something...instead of an eel, they used a popsicle, no dip yo face in weird stuff no nothing.
Blah. The younger generation's are such wussy ppl ;)*hide*
I'M SO SUNBURNT! I'm weraing shorts to flaunt my tattoo though, but my ARMs are soo burnt right now, and my cheeks are pinkish. Blah, I'm ok by it though, coz it'll go away in some days as usualy, as I don't ever get tanned, and I got this burnt last year on this day too so..heh..
TOOooOoOMORROW..is...TOEFL test day. *sigh* Today I have to go buy lots and lots of flowers for Ninnie, and then tomorrow at 5.30 in the morning I'll leave the flowers at the train station, go down to Lund, try and find my way, take the test, get back till 2, get the flower, ride my bike and HOPEfully be able to catch Ninnie
before she and her classmates go around town in trucks etc to celebrate that they've graduated, and sing indecent songs. It's also the day my mom and granny and aunt leave for Turkey..I just feel weird. I mean I have a JOB on monday! "you'll do fine.."..shuddup..I'll try and survive =)
Yes, I went and did my TOEFL test. Yes, it went well I think because most of the questions were RETARDED..(hehe, and when I get the score back saying I FLUNKED, ya'll'll know what that says aboyt me and my ego ;) *sigh* I dunno. I had a REALLY really great time yesterday, but I don't feel like writing about every teeny little thing here,
coz really, who GIVES a damn?
It's like I have this big list of things I WISH I was doing or had the talent/intelligens to do, but I don't so. OOOH this is getting so whiny =) I'm gonan go hooome and watch my movies, and think and read a lot, and maybe I'll have soemthing to say on monday, at least about my new job ..take care, whoever's reading, and don't upset your closetmonster :P
I'm just so tired. So very tired. It's like, there's a billion of reason why I shouldn't be, and I'm not physically, it's not that, it's just like something in me's not clicking right and I've yet to discover what that is. But first, the trivial stuff:
I feel like talking about boys. or males. Whatever. I just dunno. I mean, once I get outside of this town of Ronneby, I see guys everywhere that are quite cute or whatever. But here. I just can't bring myself to like *anyone*. At all. They're all jerks and dorks and real dumb people, and no I'm not exaggerating.
I mean, I'm serious, they're _all_ blahy! This town's got 30, 000 ppl! Amazing, isn't it? Or my standards are just so damn high ;) NO..I don't ask for much.. I'm not even asking. I'm too wrapped up in myself, I know. OH OH, I'm a LONER! HAHAHAH! Don't you love when people say that? I just think there's a real big difference between people who really don't mix with people, and people who
really like other people, but just can't seem to find any where s/he is. Did that make sense? No. Ok. Ferget it. I'll rant more tomorrow, I've spent hours ranting in emails and guestbooks and gossips as it is.
It's quite fun though, because I get to sit in the principals office, and use his computer. People seem to think I *know* things therefore, and when people my age walk by they sort of look in at me the same way I'm used to looking into *almost* important people's doors. Or maybe that's just me.
You know, I really must say this: Working isn't at all how I thought it'd be. I mean, yes, my boss's kind'a blahy etc, and he has _awful_ artwork on his walls (except for this charicature someone's made of him, it's such a spitting image..) People pretty much leave me alone, and that's ok. I eat as irregularly as I did before too so..I DID bring some
choccie crackerwaffle things, coz they looked at me in an odd way yesterday when I didn't have any lunch, but they might've just been looking at my hair..who knows?
The reason i didn't post yesterday was coz, frankly, I was too wrapped up in other stuff. Our school hosted this IT-fair with seminars and work shops etc yesterday and today you see, and well, I really didn't have anything to do so
I was told I could wander around and help where ever people needed me to. Therefore I ended up by this puter where a web cam was attached, and got to use something called NetMeeting. Sort of like Cuseemee or something. I look SO weird movin' around in front of a camera like that.
At first we (me and the guy that was *supposed* to be at the puter) couldn't find 'any' fun people that had vid cams to talk to. After two hours, I was basicaly paging people randomly..and whoa. The miracle occured. Travis in Utah
answered. (and Travis, if yer actually reading this, HI, and, um, you better e-mail or I'll stalk you. You know I will ;) Muahauah. He's adorable (haha, watch him BLUSH now ;) with great hair and a supercute cat Nicodemus. We talked for, um, 4-5 hours? (well, what can I say, it's not like I had anything better to do, and he said it was either talking to me or watching Scooby Doo. I Beat Scooby Doo! Yey!;)
It was real fun, and I was just sad that I was too busy guiding a group of 15 year old girls around the fair today to get to do it again. Heh. It's, y'know, FUN to see the people you talk to, that's all. Blah.
OH I redyed my hair. it's now just red with black patches. Looks hilarious, I'm not used enough too it to know if I like it yet or not. And my grandma turned 80 yesterday, but she's not home till tomorrow, so we'll save the family gathering till then, which means I hafta get home NOW and start baking some choccie muffins. ENVY me ;) (I'll post the recipe tomorrow, you'll LOVE them choccie muffins =) OH..
song of the day is that Beach >Boys song: 'Aaaruba, jamaica, oooh I wanna take ya to bahama, nananaaa, coome on pretty mama'. Kokomo or something. BYE!;)
I forgot to mention it yesterday BUT! I'm on _Adam Sandler's_ homepage! I'm *so* freaking excited! Well, actually it's not like I'm mentioned or anything but..Ok, Adam has this thing where fans get to send in their jokes and they might end up in the jokes section. Now, if they're *real* good, they'll end up in the real jokes section, for all time. Some weeks ago, you know, when I really got Adam obsessed,
I sent in some jokes I've gotten through e-mail and...one of them's on the permanent jokes page! He, or whoever does it, rewrote the joke somewhat, but I'll post both versions in here. DAMMIT, I'm excited! *sigh* *laugh* That must be a sign that we *are* gettin' married, right?;)
*sigh* I'm at my job and..it's so BORING! I mean, it's nobody's fault, it's just a real boring job, typing in every class and every teachers fall schedule. "It's a boring job but somebody's got'a do it.." heh..but WHY ME?*grin* It wouldn't be so bad if this office didn't have this real ugly painting that's across from where I'm sitting by the computer..it's seriously ugly. It should be BURNT. And yes, the job is so boring I just might ARRANGE that.
Today's the last day to send in my grades for swedish applications, AND to send in my application to get a study loan for abroad I THINK. I'm gonna call and check, coz I need this done =(. I'm SO fucking lazy I should be HIt real hard over the head, but on the other hand, it probably wouldn't do any difference. I only have to work half day today anyways, coz since we're gonna celebrate my granny when they come home from Turkey, the principal's been a doll and given
me half the day off. YEY ;)
Now if only this puter had telnet so I could spod, or at least do my e-mail. Hmmmmmmmm.
OH SHIT! Hahha! I got an e-mail from Adam Sandler (I wish at least, who knows), coz I sent a bunch'a funnies yesterday too, and also said that no one'd believe that it was my joke and DOH! I got this answer back:
Well tell them to PTHO(Pull There Heads Out) and view the document source.
Ok, so when u DO that, u'll see:
OK, someone PLEASE hit me real hard in the head now, ok? Coz that just was so....wow. OH and I got the school guidance counselor guy to help me out with ym applications, and he said I shouldn't worry coz they always grant loans etc so..WHO said Friday the 13's a bad day?HMM?
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I DID put on my dress yesterday but..blah, just felt really really silly, so I quickly changed back to my t-shirt and pants...oh shit! Notice
how I keep blubbing in them dots in everything I say. This is very scary, coz i used to ahve this typing disorder where I couldn't use paragraphs OR finish
a sentence, I just let it drag on and on and on and on and on and o..you get the picture. Hmm. Actually, I liked that disorder. Think I'll start with that again.
I had Pink Champagne. My best friend Ninnie graduated, and at her place her parents served (coz they have a restaurant) a wonderful dinner, with pink champagne and white wine and red wine and beer. AND soda :P Ninnie was SO purtty, she wore almost the exact white outfit that Tori wears in her video for 'Winter', which's hilarious, since
Ninnie's hair's long and bleached, so she looked like Tori Amos body and style of moving, wiht Pamela Anderson's head onnit. VeRy WeIrd ;)
Saturday, 7 june.
My mom and granny's gone. It's so quiet at home. I LOVE it. Hehehe. I rented old movies I haven't ahd a chance to see/wanted to see again, such as Buffy the Vampire slayer and Hear my song and UHF, that Weird Al yankovic movie. Coz he's so funny I wanna drop laughing on my fanny. Heh. My friend jasmin's got an offer to write a BOOK, and she's *thinking* about it..like DOH! Go write!
Jasmin, you can DO it so dammit, do it, coz you can =))) Blah, I wish I could. Ah well. My job starts at monday, and I still dunno what to do there. Sounds intelligent, eh? That's ME, muauhauah. And I think my Aziza is leaving for Egypt morrow..OOh I can't stand the thought..she betetr find a way to keep in touch through e-mail. I dunno WHAT's wrong with me today. Everything's
going great, people are nice, I've had fun, I have some money, I have a job for a month, and I still feel really really lost. Blah.
Keep the boys spinning in their own little world..
Heh, I'm a bad girl, I'm writing this while I'm supposed to be working. OooOh. Guess that makes me a real net addict since I can't even telnet on this puter (yet..;) Anyways. Today I really am a secretary. people keep stopping by giving me messages for the principal. I'm GOOD though, even though I don't have a clue what to do.
Right now I'm putting up all the teacher's schedules. GOD I could do some severe damage to the teachers I reallyreally hate..*chuckle* Of course I am way too good to dare to do that..eheheh. How Sour.
YO babies!*grin* This is so funny, I thought no one read this thing, and yet today I had two e-mails wondering if I was ok and wondering why I didn't post yesterday. (so Yah, lookie here, Mike and Tessa, I'm alive!;)
Friday, 13 June.
Song of the day : Etienne, By Tori Amos; Y KANT TORI READ. "my" joke on Adams Page
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