the blonde
i look in the mirror some to make sure i am sane/ bloodshot eyes look back at me/ the pressure on the
blonde has been weighing on my brain/ do I really have to see/ oh god I think they're on to me now/ i
didn't do anything but I feel guilty somehow for the blonde breaking down on the stand with her head
in her hands/ attacked by a man/ how hot does the shower need to be/ excuse me/ her skirt came down
about to her knees/ and her make-up was dark/ and her shirt had no sleeves/ but this jerk is wanting
me to believe any woman that breathes is asking for sleaze/ applaud when they say boys will be boys/
and agree with them when they say girls will be toys/ just nod as if you don't really care if she wore
underwear or braids in her hair/ how hot does the shower need to be/ excuse me/ how hot does the
shower need to be before she's going to feel clean
falling down a crystal staircase
never meant for this to happen/ never meant to be gone so long/ i feel your presence likea shadow/
reminding me what i have done/ a burning head of memories/ a broken body at my feet/ i never
meant for this to happen but i had to fill the cavity/ i have never known this life to be fair/ but i have
chosen to live in disbelief/ all i've ever wanted was something real/ something that i could touch/ all
i've ever really wanted never wanted me/ a victim of a broken heart/ never meant to see/ a victim of
a broken mind/ you were never meant to be with me/ falling down away from nothing/ falling upwards
through the void/ an emptiness that goes unnoticed/ the ugliness you would avoid/ i have always known
how i could be free/ in your eyes i saw the hatred you held for me/ all i've ever wanted was something
real/ something that wanted me/ all i've ever wanted was you
you are not him
he would be a handsome man/ with strong hands/ he would have defended me/ you are not him/ he
would never let me walk through the city after dark/ he would have protected me/ you are not him/
he would be a decent man/ with kind words/ he would have respected me/ you are not him/ he would
wonder where i was/ every time i left the house/ i would have looked up to him/ you are not him/
daddy didn't want to have a girl so he had a little boy/ by the way/ i've never met him/ this is for the
dad i never had/ i didn't want you in my fucked up childhood anyway