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Mirror, Mirror
Stickey Keys
Life is
Nameless
Today
The Wind
My Lover, My Friend
All for One
Thoughts
Child-Like (Forever Young)
Spirit of Fire
Jagged Echos of Silence
A Star
Behold
Dream
In Grey
Pierced
Nine Seven
Sometimes
Grandfather
A Dance
Big Eyes
I Shouldn't
Daddy
Forever Sleep
Love
Dream A Valiant End
Just a Word
a Ghost
True Love
Night
mom
My Angel Cries
I Still Believe
Last Cries
If I Could
Listen, Feel
of Friends
Cold November
Cross Roads
Blue
Boundless in Flight
RL
Found
Unity
The Spirit
Shaded
Thank You
Liquid Life
Color
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Mirror, Mirror
Looking in the mirror at a face I don't recognize.
The mirror doesn't lie but it doesn't show what I hide.
Painting a picture for you to see
on a flat, expressionless face stained with memories long past.
Haunting visions of a childhood stolen.
Sorrow of a little girl lost and confused,
erased of pain so that one may survive.
Searching to find the woman you see.
Putting together a puzzle, finding pieces scattered by time.
Believing it will all come together before the end,
like a star rising through the black of night,
strong and bright and true.
A future soon to be or distant--unknown.
Hope sustains while pain subsides.
This moment, this picture in the mirror is me
And I wonder, what do you see? ~fs
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Stickey Keys
Sticky keys. Sticky keys
They will be the death of me
Clicking, clicking right along.
Then beeping, BEEPING
I hate that sound!
Pounding, pounding to the ground
Oops...no more 'puter...no more song. ~fs
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Life is a puzzle. We don't start with all the pieces. When we put it all together, we're finished. ~fs
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Nameless
Faces in the crowd
like clouds in the sky
drifting by without a sound
changing shapes, smiles and frowns
a look, a wink, a whisper and they're gone ~fs
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Today
Clouded heart, clouded sight
I should not think today
I should wait for the sunlight
visions will be clearer then
questions answered or forgotten
pain will lessen as days go by
Time will bring perspective, an end
For now though, I breathe a heavy sigh
covered in a shroud of disbelief...why ~fs
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The Wind
Like a slap in the face, the wind knocks me back into steps I've already taken.
Eyes open wide now in this powerful wind.
It's my father.
In every gust that pushes against my body, I feel his arms embracing me and his eyes looking into my soul.
He is all around me now.
Leaves dance in swooping circles before flying into the sky.
Trees quiver in each wave and clouds sweep threw leaving blue sky in their wake.
I can hear his voice whispering.
I struggle to understand his words but streams of wind wash over me again and again,
pulling my hair from around my face, hiding nothing-exposing everything.
I breathe in until the air, sweet and pure, fills me completely.
Illuminated, I open my eyes and the wind quickly fades.
In a lighter step now, I continue, smiling
secure in knowing he will be with me always. ~fs
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My Lover, My Friend
You warm my heart
Bring light into the dark corners of my mind
Comfort me when fear takes over
Hold me tightly when I want to run
Feel the emotions that pour out of my soul
Love me without boundaries
You fill my dreams, my thoughts, my heart, my soul
You are each sparkle in my eye. ~fs
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All for One
An imperfect world
lines are drawn
voices not heard
visions unseen
dreams unopened
perfection we do not seek
It's harmony, a balance in this world
moving lines
trading voices
developing visions
touching dreams
give and take; working together
your life--our world
yesterday, today, tomorrow ~fs
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Thoughts
Thoughts like the air
Some suffocate
Some free
They can lift you up
or throw you down
Thoughts like love
need to be shared
Don't let them die
never to be known
Expressions of life
light and dark
passed on to you
and you and you
~fs
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Child-Like (Forever Young)
Innocence glows in eyes that sparkle
cookies for Santa and carrots for the reindeer
Wishing on a star saying, "Twinkle, Twinkle..."
Believing that tomorrow will always come
Lollipops, bubble gum, games of tag
playing, jumping, singing, laughing
bikes and dolls, marbles in a bag
toys and books and nursery rhymes
Their love and joy fill our hearts
we share in firsts; first snow, first park
dry tears that hurt, give kisses that comfort
We live through them; they live in us
giggles that draw a smile in you, stop and remember
life through a child's eyes
and live forever young ~fs
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Spirit of Fire
Want to know me
look into my eyes
Would it be seen?
Could it be felt?
depth of a plight
which holds me tight
words from my pen
like gold to friends
absorbing every line
glimpsing my time
and the heart that beats in me
Lessons not learned from one, alone
who lives in darkness; who speaks to no one
in this space within, no need to share
lips sealed tight, too much to bare
with so much pain and hurt in life
only happiness to be expressed
or not to be, in death ~fs
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Jagged Echos of Silence
So many feelings
sadness and sorrow
Wishing, for you, the best
For me, strength now and tomorrow
to go on as you would
like you know that I could
But part of my strength,
my will, lies within you
Because of what you think
your faith; your belief
It's unfounded, I feel
and yet, it is real
For what you've given me
I cannot explain
but I think that you know
And it's our friendship that grows
a part of your heart beats in me
within your grasp, you hold the key ~fs
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A Star
Is a star in the night
brighter than a star in the day?
always showing the same light
lost against the burst of one
Do you see one star or many
against the glow of just the one
each star burns just as strongly
it's the distance that makes them fade
Yet each star paints a bigger picture
without one, the picture is gone
it doesn't matter, they're far or near
All are needed to make the one
A star shining in the black of night
losing itself but still shining in the sunlight
Did you catch a glimpse, a twinkle in me
Make a wish and then set it free
~fs
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Behold
Hold onto that patch of blue sky
in between the clouds that drift by
Hold it close to your heart
the color of light we are a part
It's the love that feeds the smile
the sparkle that is the child
and the rainbow inside the bubbles
across the wind they tumble
fragile reflections all wrapped within
the purest image of us, that's given ~fs
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Dream
Feel the weight of the world upon your shoulders
the minutes that feel like days and hours that feel like years
sadness that pulls the smile from your face
that leaves you looking without seeing
expressions without feeling
words without meaning
searching for the light-living for tomorrow
hope that lies in dreams
but in the dreams when you awake
make them real, don't wait
~fs
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In Grey
The myst as seen across the lake
to one side, blue sky and sun
the other thick clouds of grey
serene, calm waters where they meet
Where am I? It's hard to see
in the center the storm begins
separate sides, each has a beauty
together they strike up anonymity
See the future now
and what it brings
find peace, tranquillity
and a happiness that is
The myst ~fs
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Pierced
Searching for my key to open the door
when the chain cut into my finger
it burned as it bled
fresh in my mind, I felt the pain
yet deeper than I thought
The edges uncleaned and jagged
drops like tears, fell to the ground
no minute to spare, have to keep going
so everything I touched, stained with blood
will it ever stop?
Time will heal
trying in vain, to hide and protect
attention that only draws focus
and the pain relived all over again
a memory now, a part of me, played And forgotten ~fs
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Nine Seven
Lives deep in my heart
losses dear and immeasurable
Thirteen of Five
a life gone
close in age, like a sister
sharing life's moments
laughter and hugs
She was a star, caring for all she touched
now in the heavens for all to see
her true beauty
Thirteen of Six
another life gone
young like a ray of sunshine
relating hard times to ease the burden
a bond unbroken
her smile, a glow to those around her
now a part of the sun
her beams warm all life
Six of Six
a woman I'd never seen
but felt her words as they graced my screen
her body fighting a battle
while her heart and soul filled pages
bringing people together and spreading love, giving hope
her only message, simple and pure
live in each moment, care for each life
love all...And *smile*
Time past, still brings tears
a heart that aches and hands that tremble
blessed with their memories, I carry with me
lives remembered
and mine, enhanced ~fs
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Sometimes
I think of you sometimes
you are intoxicating
I hope to see you
and when I do
I feel the smile
relaxed and peaceful
words we trade
like a game
and the smile remains
The game continues
whenever we meet
always by chance
verses flow with ease
one to the next
expectations zero
the joy infinite
and the smile remains
Effortlessly floating while
watching the screen
breathing in responses
overwhelming at times
but always wanting more
drawn to a friend
an essence that eludes me
in real life
and I think of you sometimes...And smile ~fs
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Grandfather
I miss you in every breath of the wind
your picture painted in my mind
I see your face and hear your laugh
I remember stories that you told
and the meaning you brought to my life
How could I have known the pain you felt
the disease that took hold of your body
tests and treatments, you were alone
the toll it took was plain to see
and yet you lived your life endlessly
Standing tall with pride and dignity
it was the way of the people
to walk among friends of Mother Earth
the tongue you spoke I wish I knew
I carry in my heart peace from harmony
your laugh and smile a part of me
How I wish you were still here
how much I want to learn
and hear the stories of before
I'd give you all my life
and hope that I can live as you
in your image, proud and true
The sound of the drums beat strong
I can hear them when the wind blows
the powerful rhythm of the song
It carries me back home
and I close my eyes and listen
to your voice as you sing to me
I love you Grandpa ~fs
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A Dance
Can I have this dance, you seemed to say
The music played; we twirled and laughed,
sometimes fast and sometimes slow
your steps I followed faithfully
Happiness that even made my heart dance
and when our eyes would meet
I could not turn away
entranced by you
and longing for more
Risk, I was willing
Was love blind?
you stopped to think
and then lead me to my seat
You turned and left, not looking back
Eyes reflect pain of broken hearts
I knew at once it was an end
the stroke it delivered
I did not think I could bear
not wanting to go on
Now I've healed and learned
a heart I can't protect any more
the joy that kept my feet from the ground
will be the memory I keep forever
and if asked to take the dance
I'd do it all over again ~fs
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Big Eyes
You don't need a license
or to take a test
to be a great parent
just give your best
love, kindness and patience
and always remember
how the world looked
when you were only two-foot ~fs
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I Shouldn't
It's not that I miss you with every breath
and every blink of my eyes.
And it's not that I think of you
every moment of every day
or that I long to see your face
around each corner
or that I dream of you
when I gaze into the blue sky.
It's not that I remember
every word that you spoke to me
or the laugh that made me smile
Comments that made me blush,
and a heart that races
with the sound of your voice.
It's not that I long to be with you
heart and soul
And I shouldn't...
But I do ~fs
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Daddy
I wish you didn't have to go
I look for your face in my mind
and every time the wind blows
I listen for your voice
I wish you could have told me
all the pain you felt deep inside
perfection drowned in a bottle
feelings that couldn't be buried
of being alone in a world
that didn't understand
and didn't seem to care
you were more critical of yourself
than anyone could have been
I wonder if you can see me
how do I know you are there
the feelings that you had
are the feelings that i share
the world will never know you
the caring, generous man
the heart of gold,
unexpressed
I have your eyes, dad
green like an ocean storm
and i can see what you lived
and feel it in my heart
the only thing that's missing, is you
i hope that i can make your difference
i help whenever i can
the world would have been a better place
and i would still have my dad
why did you have to go ~fs
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Forever Sleep
In this world alone
it becomes a dark place
and life loses it's color
words from friends get lost in the background
and more and more
drawn into the black
light shines on what i do not want to see
slowly in the gray
feelings numb when the pain comes
and the numbness stays
because it has to
paper-thin emotions bleed at the slightest touch
desperate measures
in hopeless moments
bring peace for a time
and complete darkness ~fs
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Love
Is it love at first sight
or is it always a fight
A storybook love
doesn't happen every day
or every other day
for some, lights flash
fireworks in the sky
in an instant it's known
for others it takes time
like making a fire
passions that burn too hot
fade into the night
eyes open to life
or you will miss it
stop don't search
love will find you ~fs
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Dream A Valiant End
It's cold
I just awoke from a dream
it felt so real
There was a man who possessed me
with his soothing manner and kind words
the world, it seemed, stopped spinning
only he and I moved round and round
I was delirious and happy
calm, complete and secure
I saw my face deep within his eyes
and his smile, so sincere
love I felt deep in my heart
beauty I'd never experienced
his words I believed
and I trusted him with my life
His gaze intense like he could see my soul
I had to look away
He is the alter on which I laid
and he carried me into the night
the time we shared, exquisite
hearts so close, they beat as one
when I was afraid, he held me tight
and i was lost within him
then appeared a door which opened
tears welled within my eyes
it felt so right
but it was not to be
i had to walk away
and there he stayed
and so I awoke
pain blanketing my heart
tears flooding my eyes
in the thread of life
we shared ourselves
for a time
but it ends there
the alter still stands
now stained with my blood
and with it remains
a piece of my heart ~fs
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Just a Word
what is love
can you hear
the word so much
it makes you feel
empty inside
and alone
not understanding
the meaning
the feeling
so nothing seems real
drifting through days
as endless as tomorrow
aching that starts from deep inside
and radiates throughout your body
a pain that is real
from a word that is not ~fs
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a Ghost
The wolf that stands over me
and guards me against harm
eyes blue like the evening sky
he circles looking over the horizon
and finally lays beside me
He is the alpha
ever strong and protective
love in a gentle touch
playful in a moment
and fierce in battle
to defend the one that is
his soul mate ~fs
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True Love
True love
I have many
love of family
and of friends
some living; some dead
love of people
and of being a good friend
love of freedom
and love to be near
love to be touched
and feeling secure
love of water
to splash and to swim
love of flying
at any height
love to write
words from deep that
spill to pages lined with ink
love of innocence
laughter and song
jumping puddles in the rain
love of music
lyrics in melodies
sing inside of me
love of this life
trying to make a difference
and learning to love the one
that is me. ~fs
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Night
I should go now
words spent
but tears still fall
time to go
and become part of the night
and sleep
the deep sleep of unconsciousness
to hide behind the fear of life
of feeling
good night ~fs
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mom
I can't feel the strain
as I lift the child
no pain
tears against my chest
holding on tight
cries that hurt
and tug at my heart
but tears subside
and then stop
the smile, the look
as they break away
mother holds the key ~fs
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My Angel Cries
The work was done
I was headed home
a day like many others
a little sad perhaps
my mind not on the road
then, in the midst of the bright sun
against the bluest sky
drops began to fall
only a couple at first
and then a couple more
there were few clouds in the sunny blue sky
more drops fell
I struggled to find others
that felt the same rain
there were none
and my heart began to ache
I started to plead, "please God stop,"
tears against my windshield
as if I were looking in
and then they stopped
dried and gone
I thought I could only feel
the drops from within
but it happened
that day
my angel cried ~fs
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I Still Believe
I still believe
in rainbows with pots of gold
and pennies that hold wishes
dreams of a perfect place
of heaven on earth
a time in the present
not so far away
I still believe
that people are good at heart
and truth triumphs over lies
a world that we all belong in
because we are all one
and live to learn
and help one another
I still believe
in fairy tales
of knights on white horses
happy endings and magical kingdoms
in love at first sight
and love ever after
the damsel that's carried off into the sunset
I still believe
in passion that burns
with a touch, a look, a kiss
in the knight that would give up his life
in hearts that beat as one
I still believe
because
to not believe
would be
to die
And I still believe
in love ~fs
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If I Could
If I could make a wish
the first would be
for my kids to grow
healthy, happy and free
living out their dreams
the next would be
a house for my mother
wherever she wanted
living, no worries, as it should be
the last wish
if I could have it
is hope for lost souls
let me make this world
a little better place
touching hearts
by giving up mine ~fs
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Listen, Feel
Do you cry
when no one is around
the room full of black
you can't make out a sound
until the tears stop flowing
the lonely beat of your heart
that can drive you insane
or lull you to sleep
to dream again
to dream of life
without so much pain
to dream of hope
to wake tomorrow
and carry on
despite pain
and tears
to give
all that you can
love reaches us all
you can feel it
if you listen
whatever you give out
will find it's way back
and fill your heart ~fs
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of Friends
Is there a point of no return
of no looking back
when you decide who your friends are
do you continue
to build the wall
or do you tear it all down
It's all in what you give
not a facade
if you can live with yourself
I've given all that I can
maybe that wasn't enough
but it was all that I had
no less
I can carry on alone
meet new friends
secure that I did what I could
and I still love
friends that I have
and friends that have moved on ~fs
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